Pradapearls - Gg - Tumblr Blog

Meanspo

Look at you, eating. Being healthy. Taking care of yourself. How could you ever think you deserved to starve? It’s fucking disgusting that you would believe for a second that you aren’t beautiful, because you are, for god’s sake. You know what? I hope you get better, goddammit. You are so fucking beautiful it makes me wanna vomit flowers and rainbows. Love yourself, bitch. Eat! Be healthy! you fucking deserve to feel better and love yourself for who you are. I can’t even believe that a person as perfect as you would do this to yourself. It makes me sick. It makes me want to fucking hug you so tight that you feel better. So go ahead, feed yourself. And you know what, eat a fucking cake. Treat yourself, bitch. You deserve it. I don’t care what you did to think you deserve this, but you don’t. YOU. ARE. PERFECT. For fuck’s sake, I love you and you deserve the fucking world. 

Im scared I’m faking my ED without knowing it. What if I’m just making it up. Maybe I’m just forcing it.

Sometimes I’m binging, sometimes I’m restricting, sometimes I eat normally but still have ED thoughts, sometimes I have ortho tendencies, sometimes I’m addicted to exercising, sometimes I purge.

I wish I could just restrict and lose weight consistently instead of yoyoing

All the girls in my class are so fucking tiny, so yk what that means, im more detirmined to loose all this stupid fat i gained.Im basically surounded by thinspo, Im gonna be at 40 kg by new years, and if im not... i have absoloutly no willpower and deserve to die xx

Im gonna try to fast this first week of school ill see how it goes.

After the first week ill start the diet i saw on edtwt

Here it is if any of you are interested

School starts on wednesday for me yk what that meannns, im getting back on track my goal is to reach 40 kg by the end of the year ive got 4 months, no adult super vision,im starting hs and i volontqrily went to a boarding school for the sake of losing weight ( the things i do for my ED😩) anyways ive been writing down potential excuses for not eating, cnt wait to use them

gmorning to all my bitches who invalidate their ed bc they aren’t ‘restrictive’ enough, and to those who barely eat through out the day. gmorning to all my bitches who are relapsing for the nth time and to those who are on their road to recovery. gmorning to all my bitches who are minors with an ed and to everyone 18+ struggling with one. gmorning to all my bitches who are currently fasting, will be fasting or just finished a fast and to those who couldn’t reach their fasting goal. gmorning to all my bitches who stepped on the scale and reached their nth gw and to those who gained weight instead, its not the end of the world breathe. gmorning to all my bitches who went into this thinking its only for a few months, to those who got addicted to this vicious cycle, and to everyone who developed an ed without knowing and found comfort on tumblr.

good morning bitches, i wish you a wonderful day.

Getting back on track in september when school starts, its so much easier with out my parents around. I already messed up august so badly i hate myself for it:/

someone: i haven’t eaten ALL DAY!!

my ed: ah fuck, they win. you have to beat them. dont eat for two days. you have to be the best. you gotta-

Romanticizing your own loneliness and turning it into a cool girl thing only works for like a few months and then it just becomes a throbbing black hole i think. Not that ive ever experienced anything like that

Today i had a 'planned' binge bc it was my sisters bday, i ate so much holy fuck it was embarasing lol.

Anyways i purged most of it and im getting back on track tomorrow😗✌Gottaget skinny before high school.

Being able to purge is the only thing im good at D:

FREE ME!!!!!!! Idk from what...I just want to be free from literally everything

I miss the early stages of my ed where i never even thought of bingeing, burned of every cal consumed, now i am just this big fat mess who cant resist food,like i binge twice a week now and cry about it all the time i hate myself and my nonexistent willpower i keep on gaining and droping the same 4 kg its so embarassing:/

i hate myself. like i'm pretty sure i've like seriously developed binge eating disorder and i've gained so much fucking weight and i don't know what to do. anytime i try and bring it up with my doctor or dad i just get brushed aside or made fun of. like even in this community it's looked down upon because it makes u fat. but i literally don't know how to stop. i'm just so empty and the only way i know how to fill that emptiness is with food.

🧡💀🎃🖤Reblog if you're an active ed blog in August 2021!🖤🎃💀🧡

My parents came at me again 4 my eating asking whats my goal, how do i tell them its to simply die lol

I literally want a coach idgaf anymore. I used to be so good back in march and qpril and now i binge every 2 days man fuck recovery i hate my body and everything about myself.

i hate myself<333

I really needed this :)

Those cookies aren’t worth it

Those chips aren’t worth it

That drink isn’t worth it

Those extra calories aren’t worth it

You’ve done so well. You’ve gone so far.

A little fuck up will RUIN you.

It’ll ruin your progress.

It’ll ruin your motivation.

It’ll ruin all those daily accomplishments that you’ve been working so hard for these last couple of days

And worst of all

It’ll lead to a binge

Because might as well, right?

Then you’ll hate yourself even more

And give up and go back to how you were before

And all that progress you’ve made will go down the drain

All because of a single craving

So don’t do it.

Don’t satisfy what you’ve been thinking about these past couple of hours.

Chug some water and wait for it to go away

Or sleep it off

But don’t give in

Because then you’ll feel so much better knowing you beat the living SHIT out of that craving

Because now you’re even closer to that goal you’ve been working so hard for

And with every victory

Whether it be BIG or small

You’ll find it to be so much more easier to get to where you want to be

I have stretch marks.

Reblog if you do too. Just to prove that it is more normal than what people actually think.

okay literally she’s a hater almost the exact way i am

i hate myself so bad because everytime i lose weight i tell myself "i can allow myself a treat today" and i do it, but when i start i can't stop and this "allowing treats" thing goes for days until i eventually gain the weight back. i am so addicted to sugar i can't even go one day without it and it only makes me want even more. i am so weak and i hate it.

Presenting... My day

Yeah, I may be ugly and stupid and awkward and annoying- *starts crying* and worthless and useless and disgusting and