Anorekcia - Tumblr Posts
I just feel like i dont want this bad enough bcs i just fucking binged. And i didnt even think twice before i showed the handful of crisps down my fucking throat. God i hate myself. Im such a fucking pig.
I feel like i've been going back and forth in the last few days. I haven't posted since the binge a couple of nights ago.But schools just really stressing me out.But yeah I did 22/2 fasts for the last 2 days. Skipping breakfast and lunch was supprisingly easy but i do have to eat dinner with my family. I also went jogging for two days in row and I'm gonna try and go out tonight as well. Also been getting really dizzy, but ig that means i'm doing something right so i just ignore it.
Anyways im gonna try updating on my daily kcal intake and the workouts i did that day.
I've lost quite alot of weight and i'm quite happy, but still the fear of gaining it all back sits in the back of my mind, waiting for the day i get over my calorie limit so it can inveigh me about it, drive me to mark my thighs with scars that scream i hate myself.
It's so scary, but it is me who chose this, it is me who does this to myself, which makes it even more frightening.
Some daily thinspo 4 myself:)
why i want to be skinny? i want to feel pretty. i want to wake up and feel beautiful. i want to hug people and not worry about them touching my fat. i want to wear jeans and not worry about my huge thighs. i want to wear sleeveless shirts and not having to worry abt my jiggly arms. i want comments like "your so skinny omg" "wht is your diet like?" "can u give me some tips?" i want to feel superior. i just.... want to be beautiful ♡ and i know i will achieve all my goals. i want skinny, and i will get my skinny.
i am unhappy because i binge and i binge because i am unhappy....
By the way understanding if ur ed came back is fucking simple, the day you reinstall tumblr and a calories app u kno the mother fucker is back