11/06/2024

11/06/2024

met with the psychologist for the last time before the summer holiday. I told him I lower my head at passing cars when I walk outside, as if to hide from them - among other things. God, I wonder if he thinks I'll be able to handle it, moving abroad alone for three years and all. he told me he was an anxious child too once and I asked him how he grew out of it. 'Kind of just stopped caring as much about what others thought of me'. lowkey bull answer if you ask me but at least we spent some time talking about him for a change.

now I'll just be pining away all summer, 'glowing pink in my room' at night etc.

17/06/2024

going to my cousins' summer house to celebrate midsummer in two days

there's a perfect lake and everything is so scenic, especially during the evenings when the sun is low

05/04/24

prayer to Aphrodite

goddess of love, beauty and the wild seas,

let your glowing, calming light of pearls reach me,

your foamy waves lull my mind at ease,

your ever ample supply of rosy, warm adoration fill me, fill him - it’s only fair:

soft as you are you have almost killed me with love for him.

please give me the ability to see more of your pink, shimmering beauty in the world, in others, in myself, I could use it right now

thank you

19/07/2024

moving abroad diaries part 2

study plan

my courses for the first year:

1. Criminal Justice

2. Essential Skills for Criminologists

3. Psychology for Criminologists

4. Social Psychology

5. Understanding Criminology

a typical week

it is recommended to spend at least 35 hours studying/week including the 9 hours/week that is scheduled - which makes for about 4 hours of studying/day outside of scheduled lessons to spread across the day

some general study tips & guidelines

keep a study diary where I make schedules and clear task lists, for every project and every day of studying

make my desk a neat and ideal place for studying (desk makeover/layout as a separate post) & finding other quiet nooks to study at the library, university and cafés

study studying-techniques and document in study diary what works best for me

! don’t stop reading outside of coursework !

rest and take small breaks + reward myself when reaching a milestone, accomplishing a goal; a sweet treat, a movie etc

try to help and receive help from others more (God knows I struggle with asking for help)

eat enough, focus on nutritious foods and prioritise sleep and movement (helps with studies in the long run + prevents burnout) especially when stressed

watching videos, mood boards, generally cute and motivating posts about studying helps me a lot

note taking

before class/lecture, review any assigned readings or materials. identify the main ideas and concepts that will likely be discussed

check the course syllabus to understand the day's focus. note important topics

briefly revisit notes from previous class sessions to connect new ideas

write down the main concepts, helpful details, and examples

organize your notes strategically for post-lecture annotation and later review

use visual aids, such as pictures and diagrams, throughout your notes to illustrate concepts visually

include your own questions, observations, and reflections

pinterest motivation

03/08/2024

August this year is long walks in nature, green juice, hair oil and body milk, evening sunlight, organic fruits and vegetables, the scent of earth, warmth and serenity, honey and apples

04/05/24

May is…

the scent of cleaning products, fresh air coming in from an open window, waking up in a sunlit room, baking cute pastries, green meadows and wild flowers, morning runs, diary writing on a balcony, iced coffee, cream and vanilla coloured everything, freckles, productivity, peace and patience, falling in love again