18/09/2024

18/09/2024

fall night routine

tidy up, unpack, have a snack if hungry and start preparing for dinner

if I've planned it, get a workout or walk in and maybe shower

look over tasks/assignments etc due for tomorrow, complete everything that needs to be done; schoolwork, laundry, cleaning etc

make dinner while listening to music and eat while enjoying some free time; spend time with a friend, phone someone, watch a movie/TV-show or study if it's necessary

get ready for bed, do skincare, stretch, read, write in journal and get cozy and sleepy

16/09/2024

tomorrow is my flight to England and technically the first day of the part of my life that is completely my own

some quotes on change to help settle my nerves

'you cannot heal in the same environment you got sick'

'growth is often uncomfortable and messy and full of feelings you weren't expecting'

'it's time to start something new and trust the magic of new beginnings'

'leaving is hard but staying will destroy you'

'things won't be the same and that's okay'

03/10/2024

October

cinnamon chai tea, tired eyes, reading by misty windows, crunchy orange and brown leaves, being gentle and patient with oneself, studying by candlelight, messy hair, libraries and unfinished books, tarot to the soft patter of rain

‘you light up my life brighter than sunlight can, you are my carnation, cardamom, cinnamon’

28/08/2024

turning 21 today

it's like a rule you're supposed to cry on your birthday right? but it's fine it's change and shit.

I want to be kinder this year I want to gossip less and make others happy and make myself happy too and finally I want to read and write more and think and ponder and educate myself - my birthday wishes

11/09/2024

fall morning routine

wake up with enough time, read or write in diary in bed instead of scrolling first thing, listen to jazz or soft morning music

make bed & have breakfast, drink water and coffee while reading/studying something of choice or planning/preparing for the coming day

if I have a workout planned this is when I'll do that; could be go for a run, do pilates/weights/yoga and stretch

get ready for the day ahead; maybe shower, skincare, makeup, hair, outfit and grab bag, make sure everything is packed and review the tasks and agenda for the day

get 5 min of deep breathing in to set a calm and peaceful tone for the day

29/08/2024

(me and my bestie watched Bridget Jones' diary and shared a bottle of wine so the following is a result of that)

my therapist's married... I mean I kind of knew it but he confirmed it today and I feel like the world has stopped spinning or something. Of course he is of course and I've been playing this silly monotonous unrequited game inside my head for ages. Christ. Playtime's so over - I mean not even I could get that delulu. I'm not seeing him until after Christmas and I won't be texting first. God I've got to slap myself awake from this nonsense. But he said 'there's something about me' and that 'I've got something'. My attention-starved little hormonal brain is so confused. NO this chapter's done, over, soooooo over