Once Again Begging Yall To Keep It To Yourselves. And If Your Gonna Talk About An Idol Smoking Fucking

Once again begging y’all to keep it to yourselves. And if your gonna talk about an idol smoking fucking tag it properly so those of us who don’t wanna know can avoid it. I have stuff in my blocked tags for a reason but that doesn’t fucking work if people don’t tag correctly (I’m looking at you tiktok army)

And I get that people will say ‘well your trauma isn’t my responsibility’ no it isn’t but how am I supposed to be responsible for my own trauma if y’all make it impossible to have the things I’ve put in place to protect myself actually work and keeping me away from it. It’s not that fucking hard to just put a tag or hashtag so those of us who don’t wanna know can actually have our blocked tags work.

Disclaimer cause I know some people will take this wrong: This in not me saying idols shouldn’t smoke or that they’re bad people for smoking, this is just me saying I don’t wanna know about it is they do.

(TW: mentions of smoking trauma. Trauma rant)

This may be a controversial topic. But if you suspect an idol of vaping or smoking, keep it to your fucking self. If they do smoke I don’t wanna know about it because it genuinely really triggers me when people point it out. Like I know this is a toxic idea but it really fucking changes my view of people when I find out the might smoke. Like I saw a Koreaboo post about an idol possibly accidentally showing a vape on live and it actually made me feel physically I’ll. Like I had a physical reaction and it’s actually made me feel really uncomfortable and shitty. Like my skin went clams and I literally felt myself go pale and my stomach turn. I have huge trauma around smoking and I can’t get over the way it makes me feel when rumours come up around people I look up to smoking. Like I know I have no right to feel like I’ve been betrayed by that idol if they are smoking but I do. And I’m sick of people pointing it out cause i literally feel myself tear up cause it feels like someone I trusted had stabbed me. And idk if it’s the autism or the CPTSD but it makes me feel physically ill. Like I’m not exaggerating when I say it literally made me go pale and feel like I couldn’t breathe. And like it’s not even as if I can try to avoid it because I already fucking do my best to avoid it but I literally can’t because it’s fucking everywhere. And I know I probably sound super selfish and self centred but can you guys just shut the fuck up and keep it to yourself if you suspect an idol of smoking. Like some of us don’t wanna know about that shit and y’all make it impossible to avoid it. I’m so fucking tired. I already feel like everything is going to fucking shit in my life and I’ve already had a fucking breakdown today and I’m so fucking tired and I fucking hate how much this has fucking affected me cause y’all can’t mind your own fucking business and keep your suspicions to yourselves.

Another fucking masterpiece @hollyhomburg ! Tae and MC calling Tae’s dick a cult has me feeling all sorts of ways Li. And Hobi watching them, poor sweet alpha!

And fucking Yoongi knowing!! I had a small suspicion he might but omg!! Is he angry? How long has he known? Does mc know too or is Yoon keeping it from her? Omg!!

Hot girls love blue gummies! They have always been my favourite of any gummy or lolly.

Also idk what it is but I feel like if Hobi, Yoongi and mc had a group soundtrack it would be ‘Merry-go round of life’ from Howls moving castle. The way the song starts off sort of slow and weary, like when they were first working everything out. and then the string in the back start up and remind me of the tension between the three of them when they all move in together and the tensions of the fight. And then things start to speed up and become more light, like when Hobi starts seeing her as a friend and rekindles his friendship with Yoon. And then the strings start playing in a way that lovers would dance to, soft and light and perfect for swaying in the arms of someone you love, like the notes of a young, new romance, something innocent and playful like when Hobi and mc start getting closer. Then it once again slows down, goes back to the tune most familiar to listeners, like how all three start to become more familiar, now able to read eachother so we’ll and see themselves in the others. Then it starts a dramatic back and forth sound, like the inner panic and confusion both mc and Hobi feel when they start to realise that they might be falling for the other. It then starts this really bouncy piano, wanting to stay in the comfort of friendship, wanting to focus on the fun rather then look deeper. It then goes back to a softer, more romantic place, all of them sensing something more there but still slight undertones of tense music, all of them fearing what the love could be. It then starts what I’d describe as a spinny tune, all three stirring around eachother, wanting to take the leap but spinning away from it last second, worried to scare the other.then it really starts building, strong, bold notes. Building to something more, something bigger, the musical equivalent to the shore rapidly retreating before a large wave crashes. More parts are added to to music, tunes and Melodies that haven’t been there before, the sound of hobis hand held tightly in mcs, the new closeness in their souls after the crashing of the waves have left their ears. The music saddens, it grows unsure and quiet but still there, like the unease of them finding the body the way all three fear, for different reason, about what this means and what comes next. It then builds again, like all their hands trying desperately to hold onto sanity and joy, not wanting to stay to long in the sadness. (If you want me to go through and do a more detailed one with time stamps for the song let me know cause I’d love to. I’ve become very obsessed with emotions and stories shown through music)

Before I Leave You Pt.57

(Omegaverse au, Mafia au, Bts x Reader)

Summary: You, Hobi, and a dead body are not things that Jin wants to think about in the same sentence.

Tags: Limited Horror, limited Gore, panic attacks, breakdowns, unhealthy coping mechanisms, alcohol, drinking to forget, trauma, trauma bonds, Namjoon has dad energy and daddy energy, overprotective behavior, babbying, hurt/comfort, fluff, angst, implied/referenced passed trauma, Short smut sections, tae’s dick is briefly referred to as a clit, trans! tae, role playing, wlw, brief virginity play, brief mention of spanking, unintended voyeurism, 

W/c: 7.7k

A/N: Ahhhhh I wasn’t happy with this chapter for the vast majority of me writing it, my life is about to get very stressful very quickly so don’t be surprised if i go mia for a few days <3 any love you can throw my way this next week will be!!! very very needed and welcome!

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It’s nearing 5 am and the sun is only just rising.

The fog hangs over the crashing waves like a heavy shroud, reflecting the flashing blue and red lights harder, making them more vibrant. The ocean Turns deep and angry as the low tide shifts. Loud and blocking out the sound of everything, even the sirens and commotion of no less than 3 dozen FBI agents, about 8 different medical personnel, and 3 very disgruntled police officers.

You, Hobi, and a dead body are not things that Jin wants to think about in the same sentence.

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I’ve decided that my Roman Empire is the Van Gogh episode of Doctor who. Man do I think of that sad little ginger man crying in a museum of people adoring his art way to often to be normal. I hear the first few bits of that song and I’m transported back to that episode like some sort of music based tardis

Also like a lot of them don’t realise they they could be one burn out or one meltdown away from being the high support autistics they love to distance themselves from so much. Like when I was originally diagnosed, I was diagnosed with Aspergers when I was first diagnosed, I was level 2 and considered ‘high functioning’ (ugh). I have now had my levels reconsidered by my psychologist and my OT and I’m now a level 3 support needs. Any autistic at anytime could got from being low support needs to high support needs.

They treat us as lesser while ignoring that not only does their supremacy harm themselves but that at any point they could become the ones being treated badly by their fellow supremacists.

Keep your aspie supremacy away from me! Keep it out of your discord servers. I hate it I hate it. Stop it. Just because you don’t struggle as much doesn’t mean low support needs autism needs to be a separate disorder. Doesn’t mean it needs to be separate from ASD. That’s bad. Stop it!

Ok but let’s be real Anon, squirting is really only romanticised in fan fiction and smut novels geared towards afab people (and often written by afab people). When it comes to mainstream porn and discussions irl about squirting it’s very much demonised and seen as something shameful and gross. I love that fanfiction romanticises it because it’s a nice change to have a (even fictional) partner be turned on and excited by something that I have no control over and am often called gross for doing.

What you should be asking Anon is ‘why is the amab ejaculation romanticised irl but the afab ejaculation is seen as disgusting and gross irl’

Thank you @hollyhomburg for your take on this, cause I’ve always felt ashamed about the fact I can’t cum without squirting and always wanted to talk about it but never had the words, but you’ve explained this amazingly

Lol nothing against squirting but idk why people like to romanticize it so much? Like it's something you do or dont do and dont really have control over ?

I don’t know how to tell you that squirting is a religious experience but bruh, FOR ME it feels like my soul leaves my body. A regular orgasm and a squirting orgasam is not the same thing.

Please. This is so cute. I need this fic Li

Just wrote 1.5k of a mini au about omega m/c who runs a nesting service for alphas who don’t have omegas of their own 🥺 mainly it’s yoongi x reader but! I feel like I needed a small change of pace, idk if It will be long enough for a moodboard/formal posting or not 🥺