Me When My Therapist Doesnt Believe That Its Possible To Be A System Without Having DID But She Believes
Me when my therapist doesn’t believe that it’s possible to be a system without having DID but she believes me when I talk about my past lives. Like, what? Excuse me?
Moth (the angry one, check my pinned post for more details there) was just SCREAMING that whole time I was having that conversation.
Like, no questions when I say I have specific memories of two distinct past lives, either. Totally believes me on that.
She thinks that Ilerei is a personification of my compassion and Moth is a personification of my anger. If that’s the case, why would I give it the name Moth? Like, sorry, buddy, but that’s not even that cool of a name. They’re not original characters I just made up. I mean, I’m not sure if I made Ilerei, but she’s become a part of me. And after like two years of being in denial I’ve accepted the fact that I’m part of a system. And my fucking therapist just goes “uhh, nope, you’re wrong.”
So, umm, yeah. I’m really just venting and trying to figure out what I’m supposed to do about this.
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Comic idea I've had in my head for a few weeks. That's all.
Gotta be one of my favorite songs of all time
I went to substances, you went to college I think it's too late to acknowledge our problems Heard that you're great, I just wanted to say It ain't change, I still love you, tomorrow's not promised
Oh, by the way, fuckin' hate all the fame Got you counting the days when your illness is chronic Death really changes the way you behave I'll remember your face when it smiles upon us
Reprobate Psych major Sick sick sick So we like danger Tough luck, life waster If I get to know her then I might save her
Stars in your eyes, let the moon talk I could stay for a while 'fore I move on Hoodie sleeves up, let the mask off Mixed our tears on the asphalt
Damage in my c6, but you get that So I know you understand where my blade at You afflicted? Where the meds at? Damn girl, let's make big ben sad
Fuck 'em all they don't got nothin' on us Try to kill us baby, think we're fuckin' haunted Fuck your fuckin' sickness, lost you in the process Imma get it for us, like I always promised
Text me when you get home, love you
Pull me back in with your fucking lies Kill me slowly baby, you know I don't fuckin' mind You said "a million years", guess the stars aligned You've been lyin' baby, see it in your fucking eyes
All up in your feelings, all about my vocal chords I just think it's funny, there ain't shit you're workin' towards Rose up out the morgue, got my foot in the door If you run up on the dead, get bodied by a corpse
Get fucked for your money, get robbed for your life Had a plight from the jump, succumbed to the night Got meds in my blood, got death on my mind Ain't got shit left, best step to me right
No face, no name, like Kira My bitch looks just like Misa In my restless dreams, I see ya Sent straight to the ether Last thing you see is my creepers I want blood I don't get even Corpse, bitch
Guide to Recovery
Below is a link to a google doc I made on my experience with dealing with self-harm and how I work every day to recover. It is in no way a complete guide, nor am I a professional in any way. It's just my experience. If you have anything you believe should be added, feel free to tell me.
I did not include any images in the document, and will not put in any. This is for two reasons. One, because I don't want to trigger anyone. That's the opposite of my goal here. And two, because I'm not good at writing image ID's, and I want to make it easy for those who use screen readers. If you have suggestions regarding the formatting, font size, and other aspects, tell me and I will do what I can to improve this guide.
Hell yes. Where do I sign that petition?
Keyboards should have braille bumps on them by default send tweet
Dragon eye thing I found at the craft store. I get shifts where it feels like my eyes look like this, so I simply had to buy it. Still not totally sure what exactly I am, and starting to think I’m some kind of shapeshifter, but I know that there’s something about yellow eyes with vertical slit pupils that just feel right