Everyday Some Wretched Part Of Me Deep Down Wants You To Feel Upset Without Me And Wonder How Im Doing

everyday some wretched part of me deep down wants you to feel upset without me and wonder how i’m doing and think of me every day and maybe i hope you feel at least a little guilty for what you did. but i know better than that and i know that you’re out hanging out with those other friends that you always shittalked to me and you’ve probably forgotten all about me and the love we shared and you probably don’t even give a shit that i never had anybody else to be vulnerable with and it just sucks that it’s probably the truth. and it’s probably been the truth for a long time now.

can i fucking blame you? i’m a horrible person. i have issues upon issues and you’ve probably been wanting to get away from me for the longest time. i’m fucking sorry that i held you back for the longest time and i’m sorry you wasted so much of your fucking life trying to save me.

beginner pilates routines

* i’ve made posts about some beginner pilates routines in the past, but i keep getting asks so i thought i would just make a masterlist for you guys!

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10 minute full body hourglass pilates by lidia mera

10 minute full body hourglass pilates by lidia mera

10 minute everyday full body hourglass pilates by lidia mera

10 minute waist pilates by shirlyn kim

10 minute everyday hourglass pilates by lidia mera

15 minute full body pilates by lidia mera

15 minute pilates for beginners by flow with mira

15 minute beginner pilates for weight loss by rachel’s fit pilates

20 minute gentle beginner pilates by flow with mira

20 minute express pilates workout by move with nicole

20 minute full body pilates by isawelly

20 minute hourglass full body pilates by lidia mera

25 minute full body beginner pilates by move with nicole

30 minute full body workout by move with nicole

30 minute pilates for beginners by move with nicole

30 minute pilates and stretch by livaligned pilates

30 minute full body hourglass pilates by lidia mera

30 minute gentle pilates flow by move with nicole

30 minute full body workout by move with nicole

30 minute pilates for beginners by move with nicole

35 minute gentle pilates by move with nicole

35 minute beginner pilates by move with nicole

have you ever had someone hurt you so badly

that anytime you let your mind wander to even the thought of it

it’s like you can physically feel it?

like inside your being burned and everything is being ripped down and shoved into the pit of your stomach?

-how am i supposed to get over it if i can’t even bear the slightest reminder of it?

i just wonder if all her “i love you”s meant something. i wonder if she wanted to kiss me as well all those times i was too scared to make the first move. i wonder if she wanted us to be forever too. i wonder if she secretly wondered if we were friends or lovers as well. i wonder if she spoke lovingly of me to her friends, and i wonder if she held love in her eyes as she did so.

but i see it now. clearly, she did not.

my knees have a crush on my head and my hands make love with my hair. they do not care how much my heart aches, the fog in my brain or how my tears pool on the floor, as long as they get to be together

They say let yourself feel your feelings and then let it go, but I’m drowning in mine, and I have been for a while. No ones coming to save me, and the water is just getting deeper.