California Is Amazing. Love It Here. Home

California is amazing. Love it here. Home ❤

Beautiful Easter Sunday

Saw this posted yesterday on Reddit. It hit me hard because it's so true. Very hurtful, but very true. Still working through these thoughts and feelings. Hurts very much knowing that they knew they hurt me but they did it anyways because they're a weak coward. Because they choose themselves and their selfish ways instead of doing the right thing.

My account will be paid in full when the time comes.

Beautiful day for a hike. Getting back to nature.

Someone said something to me today and it really hit me hard. Someone told me that my mind understood what happened but my emotions are still trying to catch up to understand it too.

I understand that how people treat you isn't how they feel about it, it's how they feel about themselves. People can't give what they don't have. Eve though your actions have made it very clear to me the liar and coward that you are. It still doesn't take away the pain you have caused. In your quest to not hurt you, you hurted me instead. I was collateral damage for your lack of sympathy and kindness. I was collateral due to your traumas and lack of emotions.

In the end having understood that I still hope you deserve what you deserve. I have no sympathy and kindness for those that couldn't showed me the same. Not while I have given so much to you in the past. I have given my love, time, energy, intentions, my heart, my soul, my body and my money towards you. All to be played, lied to, disregarded, disrespected and ghosted by someone who can't give me the same in return.

I hope you have a mediocre life. I hope everything you do is mediocre. You're mediocre who deserves mediocre. I hope this guilt, shame and regret haunts you forever. Hope that bitch makes you miserable cause you'll never find someone like me ever again. I'm too high price for you.

I wish that was me running my fingers through those locks. So handsome!