Being Read As A Guy Is Great, I Guess. I Never Get Misgendered Unless The Person Hears My Voice First,

being read as a guy is great, I guess. I never get misgendered unless the person hears my voice first, in which case I'll get the 'ma'am- I mean sir!' thing. Nothing makes me happier than when I confuse people, when my gender is up in the air... an uncertainty. I find myself feeling true euphoria when someone doesn't know what the fuck I am, rather than just assuming immediately. Because my gender is so much more complicated than just 'man', it's nothing. It's everything. It's a nice cut of red meat on a hook at the butchers'. It's the uncanny. It's tied to my doghood. It's a paradox, constantly shifting yet staying the same. The endlessness of the universe is still too small of a place to contain it.

Whenever somebody shows any sign of confusion, I bask in it. Because those few times are all the acknowledgement I get of the bigger picture when it comes to my gender. I'm not just a 'man' or a 'sir', but all I seem to get is 'he/him' and 'sir' these days. I think to myself, 'isn't this what I wanted? is this not better than being seen as a woman?' and... I suppose so. My body certainly feels more like my body now. However, I find rigid masculinity to be just as suffocating as rigid femininity. I was meant to break these boxes, not adhere to them. But whenever I bother, I feel the accusations of womanhood being placed onto me, and I know that, once I am read as a woman, my manhood is cancelled out.

I am only a woman when I am a man, and I am only both when I am neither. But wider society doesn't understand that, so I force myself to perform manhood and manhood only as the more comfortable option. I'm considering picking up drag as an outlet to explore my womanhood as well, no matter how miniscule that piece is, because I am not taken seriously if I were to wear a skirt like I want to, or makeup as I want to. Because I am a 'man' and 'men don't do that'. It is miserable. Gendered society is miserable.

Real Actual People(TM) cannot be stereotypes. If you're an alt neurodivergent evilgender 14 yo who uses nounself pronouns you're not a stereotype of xenogender people, you're just you. If you're a loveless aro/ace, flirty polya bi, etc etc. you're not a stereotype, you're just you. The opposite is true, too- if your experiences don't match with most other people's, or anyone else's, you're still you. You're still valid.

I will never forgive the people who went after teenagers for going by Arson. It's a genuinely cool name fuck you, just admit you're allergic to teens having fun with self expression (or teens having fun at all) and stop trying to make it a morality issue

Everyone on twitter is arguing against the terfs demonizing phalloplasty and top surgery by saying the scars fade and the flesh regrows over time, but has anyone considered that scars are cool and having huge, discolored, incredibly noticeable scars is based

I am beyond your comprehension, next question!

"You are boy or a girl?"

I am a deity!

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'why do you people feel the need to make everything a gender' because it's FUN! because it feels RIGHT! because that's how our genders make SENSE! because we're full of whimsy and are playing in the garden that is gender! because my gender is a graveyard and a bunch of other things, and I think I should get to say that!

people make things genders because it makes sense for them or for somebody else. Sometimes things just click as a gender, much like the concepts of 'woman' and 'man' do for others. Because that's all gender really is: a concept that people click or don't click with. How somebody can be trans and not understand that is beyond me.