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Oh My God This Is My First Post That Reached 100 Notes :0

Oh my god this is my first post that reached 100 notes :0

Too Late

Sakusa Kiyoomi x GN! Reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: Mentions of thorns, i said 'shit' like once

im not dead heh. i lowkey like how it turned out. have some angst after the two fluff fics. sorry not sorry.

Too Late

Kiyoomi is 15 and lying on his bed, glaring at the ceiling and trying to burn all his feelings for you. He doesn't want to feel this way. It's pathetic. He tries to find something in you to hate. Were you unhygienic? No. Annoying? Sometimes yes. But he found it cute. Did you hate volleyball? Also no. You weren't really interested in it but that was okay. Not everyone had to like volleyball.

He tries and tries to hate you, to find a reason to stay away from you but fails. He stays up all night trying to push down the feelings. He goes to school the next day with bags under his eyes and feelings for you that were ten times stronger than the day before.

Kiyoomi is 16 and sees you cheering for him in the stands. He had scored the game point by spiking the ball into the opposite court with a deadly spin. You're hugging one of your friends and celebrating. Seeing you so happy made the corners of his lips twitch up. Komori gave a hard slap on his back and went on about how good the spike was. Kiyoomi thanked him and complimented some of his saves that prevented his team from losing points.

Komori took him and you to a cafe nearby to celebrate their win the next day. You congratulated the two volleyball players and talked and talked about Kiyoomi's apparently 'killer' spikes and Komori's 'life saving' digs. You awed at Kiyoomi's abnormally flexible wrists. "Cool," you said with wide eyes and an open mouth. Kiyoomi's chest felt warm and he's thankful for the mask that hid his small smile. He decided not push down his feelings anymore.

Kiyoomi is 18 and has finished packing his bags. He leaves for his university in two days. He will still be in Tokyo, which was good because going to a place foreign to him was slightly scary. The thought of being away from his family, Komori and you made his throat tighten up. He shook his head and heads out of his house. The three of you were going to have a farewell party of sorts for Kiyoomi. It turned out to be just a movie night with a shit ton of snacks at Komori's house.

Komori was fast asleep on the beanbag with his mouth open. The movie was still playing on the TV, though no one was watching it. Kiyoomi noticed that you had moved closer to him. He didn't mind it. He closed his eyes and tries to fall asleep. Though he ended up snapping them open at your voice. Your voice was soft and low and even with the noise of the TV he could make out what you said. His heart beats fast at the confession that left your lips. He doesn't say anything for what felt like hours. Finally, he gathered the courage to look at you. Maybe you were joking. Maybe you said that in a platonic way. But your eyes said otherwise.

The rarely used, emotional part of him begged Kiyoomi to tell you that he felt the same way, to hold your beautiful face in his hands and kiss you. Kiyoomi almost listened. Almost. He swallowed down the truth and lied to you. He told you he didn't feel the same way. That he saw you as nothing more than a friend. Your eyes glowed with unshed tears when you told him that it was okay. You apologized in case you made him uncomfortable and left.

Kiyoomi's throat burned with unsaid words. The lies he said wrapped around his neck like vines, it's thorns pricking his neck. I'm not ready, he reassured himself. He's not ready for you. He would be leaving for uni and he also had to focus on volleyball. He hoped you would wait for him.

Kiyoomi is 22 and plays for MSBY Black Jackals. Komori plays for the EJP Raijin. You work as a sports journalist for Japan's popular sports magazine. Kiyoomi has read a few articles and was extremely impressed. He smiled at the tiny picture of you next to the article. You looked even more beautiful now. The smile he loved so much back in high school was still the same.

During the first two years of college the three of you tried to meet up atleast once every two months. Slowly, once every two months became once every six months which turned into a year. You were all busy with college and side jobs which left no time to catch up with your friends. He was surprised when the feelings he had for you didn't fade away even after years of having little to no contact with you.

This time when Kiyoomi met you again he would confess. He was ready now.

Kiyoomi is 25 and lying on his bed, glaring at the ceiling. He's trying burn all his feelings for you. He doesn't want to feel like this anymore. It's pathetic. He's pathetic. His tears leave a burning trail across his cheek. He doesn't bother to wipe them. Kiyoomi's chest feels tight with unrequited love. His emotions have left the tiny cage he locked them in and reached his throat blocking his airway. Kiyoomi can't breathe and his throat hurts.

He's holding a piece of paper in his hand. He brings it up to his face and sobs harder than ever. He reads what's written on the paper again, just to make sure. It's a wedding invitation. You were going to marry someone who was not Kiyoomi. Kageyama Tobio. You were going to marry Kageyama Tobio, setter of Schweiden Adlers and not Kiyoomi. Kiyoomi looks at it and tries to imagine his name in the place of Kageyama's. It makes him cry even more—the thought of what could have been.

Maybe if he hadn't made you wait, it would have been him marrying you. He wouldn't be crying in his bed and probably would have been cuddling you. If he was ready back then it would have been him with you. But now even though he was ready, you had moved on.

Work by: @smolbean12

Too Late

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Too Late

Sakusa Kiyoomi x GN! Reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: Mentions of thorns, i said 'shit' like once

im not dead heh. i lowkey like how it turned out. have some angst after the two fluff fics. sorry not sorry.

Too Late

Kiyoomi is 15 and lying on his bed, glaring at the ceiling and trying to burn all his feelings for you. He doesn't want to feel this way. It's pathetic. He tries to find something in you to hate. Were you unhygienic? No. Annoying? Sometimes yes. But he found it cute. Did you hate volleyball? Also no. You weren't really interested in it but that was okay. Not everyone had to like volleyball.

He tries and tries to hate you, to find a reason to stay away from you but fails. He stays up all night trying to push down the feelings. He goes to school the next day with bags under his eyes and feelings for you that were ten times stronger than the day before.

Kiyoomi is 16 and sees you cheering for him in the stands. He had scored the game point by spiking the ball into the opposite court with a deadly spin. You're hugging one of your friends and celebrating. Seeing you so happy made the corners of his lips twitch up. Komori gave a hard slap on his back and went on about how good the spike was. Kiyoomi thanked him and complimented some of his saves that prevented his team from losing points.

Komori took him and you to a cafe nearby to celebrate their win the next day. You congratulated the two volleyball players and talked and talked about Kiyoomi's apparently 'killer' spikes and Komori's 'life saving' digs. You awed at Kiyoomi's abnormally flexible wrists. "Cool," you said with wide eyes and an open mouth. Kiyoomi's chest felt warm and he's thankful for the mask that hid his small smile. He decided not push down his feelings anymore.

Kiyoomi is 18 and has finished packing his bags. He leaves for his university in two days. He will still be in Tokyo, which was good because going to a place foreign to him was slightly scary. The thought of being away from his family, Komori and you made his throat tighten up. He shook his head and heads out of his house. The three of you were going to have a farewell party of sorts for Kiyoomi. It turned out to be just a movie night with a shit ton of snacks at Komori's house.

Komori was fast asleep on the beanbag with his mouth open. The movie was still playing on the TV, though no one was watching it. Kiyoomi noticed that you had moved closer to him. He didn't mind it. He closed his eyes and tries to fall asleep. Though he ended up snapping them open at your voice. Your voice was soft and low and even with the noise of the TV he could make out what you said. His heart beats fast at the confession that left your lips. He doesn't say anything for what felt like hours. Finally, he gathered the courage to look at you. Maybe you were joking. Maybe you said that in a platonic way. But your eyes said otherwise.

The rarely used, emotional part of him begged Kiyoomi to tell you that he felt the same way, to hold your beautiful face in his hands and kiss you. Kiyoomi almost listened. Almost. He swallowed down the truth and lied to you. He told you he didn't feel the same way. That he saw you as nothing more than a friend. Your eyes glowed with unshed tears when you told him that it was okay. You apologized in case you made him uncomfortable and left.

Kiyoomi's throat burned with unsaid words. The lies he said wrapped around his neck like vines, it's thorns pricking his neck. I'm not ready, he reassured himself. He's not ready for you. He would be leaving for uni and he also had to focus on volleyball. He hoped you would wait for him.

Kiyoomi is 22 and plays for MSBY Black Jackals. Komori plays for the EJP Raijin. You work as a sports journalist for Japan's popular sports magazine. Kiyoomi has read a few articles and was extremely impressed. He smiled at the tiny picture of you next to the article. You looked even more beautiful now. The smile he loved so much back in high school was still the same.

During the first two years of college the three of you tried to meet up atleast once every two months. Slowly, once every two months became once every six months which turned into a year. You were all busy with college and side jobs which left no time to catch up with your friends. He was surprised when the feelings he had for you didn't fade away even after years of having little to no contact with you.

This time when Kiyoomi met you again he would confess. He was ready now.

Kiyoomi is 25 and lying on his bed, glaring at the ceiling. He's trying burn all his feelings for you. He doesn't want to feel like this anymore. It's pathetic. He's pathetic. His tears leave a burning trail across his cheek. He doesn't bother to wipe them. Kiyoomi's chest feels tight with unrequited love. His emotions have left the tiny cage he locked them in and reached his throat blocking his airway. Kiyoomi can't breathe and his throat hurts.

He's holding a piece of paper in his hand. He brings it up to his face and sobs harder than ever. He reads what's written on the paper again, just to make sure. It's a wedding invitation. You were going to marry someone who was not Kiyoomi. Kageyama Tobio. You were going to marry Kageyama Tobio, setter of Schweiden Adlers and not Kiyoomi. Kiyoomi looks at it and tries to imagine his name in the place of Kageyama's. It makes him cry even more—the thought of what could have been.

Maybe if he hadn't made you wait, it would have been him marrying you. He wouldn't be crying in his bed and probably would have been cuddling you. If he was ready back then it would have been him with you. But now even though he was ready, you had moved on.

Work by: @smolbean12

Too Late

reblogs are appreciated :)


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3 years ago

Dating Headcanons

Jujutsu Kaisen

Nobara and Maki's here

Gojo and Geto's here

Sukuna and Naoya's here

❀ Itadori Yuuji ❀

Dating Headcanons

So we all know his type is 'tall girl with a big ass'. But, we also know he's not that shallow. (cue that chapter from the manga i dont remember its name)

He's an absolute sweetheart!!! He would treat you so well

Flowers!!! Yuuji would give you flowers everyday. He tries to write cute notes too but gives up after Megumi and Nobara tell him it's childish and cringe.

(But hey! Itadori is adorable enough to make up for the lack of cute notes)

Instantly becomes your parents' favorite. They love him. Probably more than you but they won't ever say it tho. Gets along well with your dad. They talk about sports, movies etc etc

Movie dates! Lots of them! He also takes you out for food. He'll make you meatballs whenever you feel down. He will give them to you and say "I added an extra ingredient, guess what it is." "What?" "It's lots and lots of love!" He's so adorable

Loooooves cuddles. And cannot fall asleep without you in his arms. Usually he's a big spoon but sometimes, especially when sukuna is taunting him and he gets sad he would want to be the little spoon.

I feel that he likes it when you give him cheek kisses.

Overall he's good boyfriend material and will keep you so happy :')

❀ Fushiguro Megumi ❀

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He's kinda awkward and shy. So expect lots of blushing and stuttering. He doesn't say I love you a lot but his affection and kind gestures are enough.

Megumi's not into PDA much. The most he can do is holding hands but his hands get sweaty 'cause he is nervous and it feels kinda weird

He brings you red roses and his face is the same color when he gives them to you XD He asks Nobara for some fashion advice so he can dress up better and impress you. He was extremely quiet when asking and Nobara could hear only bits so she snapped. Poor Megumi then blurted out that he wanted to impress and Nobara burst our laughing and called him a simp. But, she did take him shopping to find new clothes tho

He also took Nobara's help to pick out clothes for you too. The clothes looked great on you and you were really happy (he had to buy Nobara food for a week tho)

His shikigami looooove you. The demon dogs always run to you for head pats. Megumi just sits and watches you play with the dogs with a small smile on his face.

He's a good, shy awkward cute little boyfriend who will look at you like you're his world :,)

Work by: @smolbean12

Dating Headcanons

Reblogs are appreciated ;)


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3 years ago
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! 🌈 🏳️‍🌈

Feel proud of what you are. Be like Atsumu and don't care about what others say :)

i drew this long ago XD but whatever

also i can't remove the tiny dot in the corner idk why :,)

Art by: @smolbean12

Inspired by: this


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3 years ago

Atsumu isn't who you think he is

I don't know why, but every time I'm on tik Tok, and someone brings up Atsumu kinnies, I just cringe.

People like to say Atsumu is insecure and stuff, but that honestly couldn't be further from the truth. At least to me.

Atsumu is a goddamn hard worker. He has a passion for volleyball, and he couldn't give a shit about who hates him due to his attitude, as long as he has people who can hit his sets properly. He takes pride in his position. He's always reaching for new heights, always trying to be better and better. He has that hunger, drive, passion for volleyball that you see in the other volleyball idiots.

I don't know if I ever really see him get super insecure about really anything (except maybe his jokes that fall flat, but that's not just a him thing, that's everybody). He knows he's the best, and he doesn't take shit from anyone. He will do what he can to make sure his sets are matched perfectly, but unlike Oikawa, Atsumu calculates them in his mind instead of abiding to the spiker.

Atsumu doesn't falter in his journey. He knows what he wants, and he goes after it. So it kind of irks me to see people characterize Atsumu as someone who gets insecure and only puts up a facade. He doesn't have the emotional intelligence to do that.

He's such a sincere guy. He's loud, boisterous, passionate, CONFIDENT, and caring. He can't express his feelings in words all the time, but he doesn't take things half-assed. He wants to be applauded when he does things right, and he wants to be booed and told off when he does things wrong. That's how he lives. It's probably due to the fact that Osamu always kept him grounded and never let Atsumu lose sight of reality.

I'm not trying to tell people that they can't characterize Atsumu as probably insecure, because if that fanon version gives them comfort, fine. Everyone has moments where they don't feel like they're the best or that they are good enough, but I just don't like it when they make that Atsumu's personality. Because never once in the show does he ever get insecure. He just pushes on and works to his goal.

I love Atsumu's character, because his pompous nature is something that's almost endearing. He's such a great support to whatever team he's on, he loves his position, and he is ambitious. The difference between him and Oikawa is that Atsumu never gets that burden of "not being good enough" and instead just doesn't let anything hold him back. He's not worried about anything except volleyball.