Sophielidaris - Sophie Lidaris

I am here~

Trigger warning: Panic attack, stressed reader, lonely reader, forgotten reader  Summary: Reader is at a mikaelson ball she is terribly stressed and loses her friends in the crowd. Luckily Kol is there to help even so she did not expect him to~

 You walked through the door and fought your tears. It was hard so very hard not to cry but you had to smile and be happy. This was a ball for heaven’s sake. A ball your friends had wanted to go for complicated reasons. A ball hosted by your enemies even though you did not understand why you had to be enemies. Could you all not juts simply come along? Also, could you even still call them enemies? Things really have become complicated and this whole drama was getting too much for you. Still, you tried your best to smile not wanting to gain unwanted attention by… well actually everyone. Of course, you could not let your guard down in a situation like this but you also had to be careful of your friends, they could not know how you are feeling. You feared they would not understand. You were friends with the so-called mystic falls gang. You were nothing supernatural just a normal human. Yet somehow you got dragged in all the supernatural drama and you being yourself were always the one who would listen. The person who people came to if they needed to talk and that was fine. You were happy to help but in the last months things had become more and more stressing. Problems were chasing problems and your life around all the supernatural drama was a mess. You were a mess. You desperately needed a break, needed someone to talk to, yet every time you tried to take things slowly and to have a break something came up. Every time you tried to talk to your friends you find them struggling with their own problems and you felt like yours were not important enough, cause the subject was changed fast or people did not even realize you had spoken up. You felt more and more like a ghost and the last days you began to feel useless on top. Like you were doing everything wrong, and nothing was ever good enough. You knew this was not healthy you knew you needed help or you would break down and yet you did not know who to ask for it….if you should even ask for it. You were so focused on your thoughts that you did not notice that you had lost your friends in the crowd. You tried to find them, but it was no use there were just so many people. You felt like the music was getting louder and the room hotter. You could have sworn that the walls were closing in on you, but you knew that was not possible. “Relax, everything is fine. They are all just having a goo time” you mumbled to yourself. Sadly, your brain was still deeply exhausted, and your body stressed so your assuring words were not helping, instead you felt yourself panicking more with every second. You tried to get to the balcony to get some air when you ran straight into a solid chest. “Careful there, love. You could hurt yourself.” You realized the man in front of you had kept you from falling by holding you up by your shoulders.  “I-I am s-sorry” you stammered still struggling to breath. “Hey, are you alright darling?” You felt your chin being lifted and realized no other than Kol Mikaelson was holding you. You wanted to answer, you really wanted to, but you simply could not. It was like something was holding your words hostage silencing you against your own will. You felt tears filling your eyes. No, you could not cry, not in front of him. Not one of the Mikaelsons.  “I assume this means no. Come, love. Let us find a place that is a bit less crowded and noisy. “He put an arm around your waist, the other hand was used to guide people around you, making sure no one but him was touching you or coming too close.  He opened two large doors and you found yourself in a study.  He gently guided you to a coach and set down with you. To your great surprise he did not ask questions. “Try to take a deep breath, dear. Can you do that for me?” You tried but you felt like you could not do it. “I – I can’t…I a- I am scared…please…” you did not even know what you asked of him, what you wanted him to do, you just wanted him to make it stop. “Hey, hey, you are okay, you are safe, I promise you are going to be okay” He cooed. He gently put a hand on your cheek making you look at him. “You are going to follow my breathing until I tell you to breath naturally. You are safe with me. You are not afraid. “ You realized somewhere in your foggy mind that he was compelling you, but you were thankful for it.  He was breathing slowly and deeply still holding your shoulder and your cheek his eyes not leaving yours. You felt your heart slow down. You were exhausted and your eyes were falling close when he stroke your cheek “Just breath naturally now” he spoke gently and again to your surprise carefully pulled your head down on his chest making you lay down in the process. “You know it would be perfectly fine to cry, right? You do not have to pretend that you are alright. I already know you are not. It is okay, take you time…everything is fine…you are safe, love… It is okay to cry, darling…you are okay…everything is going to be okay (y/n) …I am here, and I am not leaving…I keep you safe.” You felt tears running down your cheeks while Kol whispered assuring words to you. Why was he even helping you? How did he even know your name? You had never been much of a topic in the whole drama mostly on the backside of it all.  There were so many questions in your head but when you felt your exhaustion taking over and you fell asleep in the embrace of the original the only thing you felt was safe.

Part 2

I had the pleasure of a ladybug visiting me yesterday. I think I found a new friend