J:Write Or Describe An Alternative Ending To The Sun In My Eyes.

J: Write or describe an alternative ending to The Sun In My Eyes.

K: What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting? (this is a call-out)

Thank you for the ask (I think) @longbobmckenzie!

J: Holy shit. Um.... hmmm. You really went for it huh? Okay, so... Bobby returns from CA and friend zones Lili just like in the game. Only Lili is pissed off. She finds out that he did what he did and she's like, well fuck this noise. She tells Noah not to choose her under any circumstances, knowing Bobby won't choose her. He doesn't. She gets eliminated. He's shocked. She's fine with it. She leaves without any fanfare or tears. Just silent, condemning acceptance that Bobby's an asshole. Then she goes home and licks her wounds and after a solid year of self-pity and hiding, Hope drags her to a show at the Liverpool Comedy Center where she meets a brand new, slightly terrible comedian named Bruno. When the NY Eve party occurs, Lili does indeed attend and she's about four months pregnant with a baby, that will have terrible taste in hairstyles, but will be delightfully snarky. Bobby is shocked and when he tries to talk to her, she has nothing to say because she's getting the D from someone who doesn't have a ton of baggage and she's happy. Bobby is sad and... I don't know. He fucks Priya in a broom closet and that's his low point to realizing he needs help. He doesn't get a happy, romantic ending. Just a hopeful, he'll be okay ending. Or maybe he'll bump into Emily and they'll fall in love. Yeah let's go with that 😆

K: Haha, oh mannnnnn. Honestly nothing is angstier than Lili's backstory. Jesus, I made myself cry with that one. Other than TSIME, I think it's the werewolf fic I've been noodling for ages, which would involve forced marriages and a TWENTY-FIVE YEAR SLOW BURN.

L: You are going for blood tonight 😂 I revise chapters at least four to five times. Let's see, first I write a ton of word vomit/nonsense. Then I go through and do a rough edit to make it make sense. Once it makes sense, I go back and fill in things. Then I pass it off to my beta Sam-- @throughthejunobush--hoping for validation that I'm not as bad of a writer as I believe I am. She gives me amazing notes. I agonize over every decision but eventually clean up the draft, stare at it for two weeks, while I eat candy and weep, obsessing over every detail and all the scene endings I hate. Then I sent it back to Sam and beg her to save me from myself and tell me it's ready to post. And she does. Then I still go back and edit it one more time, because of who I am inside.

It's not a PERFECT process, but it IS a sign of my mental instability 🤣

Suresh-spiration

As we're about to get some Suresh fuckery very soon, I want to say, that I really hate him as a character, BUT I get why other people love him. I too have loved a toxic king (Levi *swooooon*). I will say though, my dislike of Suresh is so intense that I keep finding inspiration for fanfics where I get to write him suffer as MC moves on 😆 I seriously have at least three raw ideas in files on my computer... and one story that I've actually started where Suresh is the villain and ex-boyfriend of one of the guys.

Point is, my loathing of him is very motivating. And I keep finding songs that sort of reflect my view of how MC feels about him. Or at least felt. I have a long list of Suresh songs, but I was re-listening to my favorite Taylor album today and this sad little gem screams MC who has just been betrayed.

My only one My smoking gun My eclipsed sun This has broken me down My twisted knife My sleepless night My win-less fight This has frozen my ground

Stood on the cliffside Screaming, "Give me a reason" Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in Don't want no other shade of blue But you No other sadness in the world would do

My best laid plan Your sleight of hand My barren land I am ash from your fire...

dadflkajdoiasdfjokajfks!!!!!!!

IT'S SO FUCKING GOOD YA'LL. AHHHHHHH!

So far (I haven't heard the whole thing) Midnight Rain, Anti-hero, and Question...? are my favorites. It's interesting, because usually her first single SUCKS. Like it's almost tradition for her first single to be the worst song on the album, but this one is fantastic. This album feels like a time capsule. It truly belonged between 1989 and Lover. I love Reputation (It's my 2nd favorite TS album) but sonically, this one fits right into that space where Rep ended up.

Ya'll. Read this. It's so hurty and lovely and vicious.

Next up in my spooky season one-shots: Bite Me ft Vampire Lottie.

Summary: Vampire life isn't easy, but Lottie wouldn't have it any other way. That is, until her ex-boyfriend shows up and turns her whole world upside down.

Read on Ao3 here

Tag list: @future-mrs-suresh and @kunepie

The resemblance is uncanny.

Found a face claim for Nicolas!

Bobby and Lili ❤️❤️❤️

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🥺Thank you for loving those two hot messes, anon. My poor, sweet babies. I'm so mean to them.