I Find Myself In The State Of Constant Sadness And Hopelessness. There's When I Feel The Most Lonely.

I find myself in the state of constant sadness and hopelessness. There's when I feel the most lonely. The unsettling thoughts keep running in mind. I try to fade those voices in my head who repeatedly nag me about my unworthiness. No I don't deserve these but the voices say otherwise. They never leave my side.Deep down I believe in the beauty of existence of each and every individual, I just know it but why don't I apply it to myself? Does this make me a two-faced person, a hypocrite? Because I know for a fact that I'm slowly killing myself with these lethal thoughts.

-Roodeh Yasir

Abu Bakr As-Siddiq رضي الله عنهused to say in his sermon:

"Where is beauty and the handsome? Where are those who were delighted by their youth and good looks?Where are the kings who built cities and fenced them with walls? Where are the victorious in wars? They all perished and ended in the depth of dark graves! Hasten and hurry up [to do good deeds]; but death is faster."

—[Al-Zuhd by Imam Ahmad (2/18)], Hilyah al- Alwiya (1/34) and Sifat al-Safwah (1/261)]

بِسْــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

Surah Fatiha possesses a number of merits peculiar to it. It was the first surah to be revealed as a whole. It is the opening chapter of the Holy Quran. This Surah is the quintessence of the Holy Quran while the rest of the Quran is its elaboration and explanation. This Surah is also proved to cure people and their hearts. (Also known as Shifaa)

One of the virtues includes:

Abu As-Sa'ib- the freed slave of Hisham bin Zuhrah-said:

I heard Abu Hurairah say: 'The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said: Whoever offers a prayer in which he does not recite Umm Al-Quran (Al Fatihah), it is deficient, it is deficient, it is deficient, incomplete. I (Abu As-Sa'ib) said: 'O Abu Hurairah, sometimes I am behind the Imam.' He poked me in the arm and said: 'Recite it to yourself, O Persian! For I heard the Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) say: Allah says: I have divided prayer between Myself and My slave into two halves, and My slave shall have what he has asked for.' The Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said: Recite, for when the slave says: All the praises and thanks be to Allah, the Lord of all that exists, Allah says: 'My slave has praised Me.' And when he says: The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, Allah says: 'My slave has extolled Me.' And when he says: The Only Owner (and the Only Ruling Judge) of the Day of Recompense (i.e. the Day of Resurrection), Allah says: 'My slave has glorified Me' . And when he says: You (alone) we worship, and You (alone) we ask for help (for each and everything), He says: 'This is between Me and My slave, and My slave shall have what he has asked for.' And when he says: 'Guide us to the straight way, the way of those on whom You have bestowed Your grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your anger, nor of those who went astray, He says: 'This is for My slave, and My slave shall have what he asked for.'

(Sunan An-Nasai: 910)

“For some of you, this Ramadan isn’t going to be about reading the Qur'an or making taraweeh prayers. It’s going to be about fighting to complete an entire day of fasting, one day at a time. For some of you struggling with depression or deep emotional states, fasting can sometimes make your struggle even more vulnerable. For some of you, your physical realities or your circumstances make fasting in and of itself one of the hardest acts of worship you struggle to complete.

Don’t compare yourself to people who are praying all night. Don’t compare yourself to people who are making khatm of Qur'an throughout the day. That is their form of worship as they are able to in this time.

Your greatest act of worship this Ramadan is simply to give it your all however that is for you- in spite- not despite- your circumstances. Recognize that whatever you are putting forth for God’s sake, even if it’s ‘nothing’ in comparison to what others seem to be racing to do, is huge in the sight of God. It may be even bigger than what others are doing, even if in quantity it seems smaller.

”…My servant draws not near to Me with anything more loved by Me than the religious duties I have enjoined upon him/her, and My servant continues to draw near to Me with supererogatory works so that I shall love him/her..“ (Hadith Qudsi)

How can you feel like your best isn’t good enough? How can you feel like doing “just” the obligation isn’t enough? That is exactly what brings you closer to Him.

Know that even while you feel deflated and defeated, He is Al-Shakoor, The Appreciative. He appreciates your striving for His sake despite your difficulties and your pain. He loves your sincere efforts for Him.

Now, instead of hating yourself for not being good enough, know that He knows your life situation and understands your reality better than you ever could yourself. So turn to Him, give your burdens to Him, and feel lighter while seeking His light.“

The only thing that comes to my mind is that you should dress to impress Allāh ﷻ and not the creation of Allāh ﷻ. Modesty is one step closer to improving your relationship with your Creator ﷻ. Just imagine, you adhering to the principles of proper Hijab would be a cause of you being granted Jannah. It's not easy, it never was but when you are willing to completely submit yourself to your Lord ﷻ, nothing is hard. It's all about Taqwa and the Love for Allāh ﷻ, because when you love someone you try your level best to impress them and are adamant to win their love by obeying their commandments.

When I started my proper Hijab, with proper Niyyah, despite being all covered— the fresh breeze was hitting my face with all its glory as if the whole world was aiding and encouraging me to go on. There was a contentment residing in my heart that I'm observing a complete hijab for my Allāh ﷻ . It isn't oppressive but quite the opposite, it's LIBERATING. And I couldn't be more proud of it, it has become a part of my identity.

Yes, you'll face harsh criticism but Allāh ﷻ says:

وَلَا يَحْزُنْكَ قَوْلُهُمْ

"Do not let their words sadden you"

Surah Yunus

It will be all worth it in the end. Go out seeking Allah's ﷻ pleasure instead of the people and see your life changing. It's a fundamental rule and we as women should take pride in fulfilling the commands of our Lord ﷻ instead of falling into the abyss on this temporary duniya. Indeed Allāh ﷻ is the Most Forgiving, the Most Merciful and the Knower of All Things.

May Allah ﷻ make it easy for all the ladies who are trying to cover themselves. Ameen Sum Ameen.

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I hate this feeling of nothingness, when nothing bothers you anymore. When your favorite song doesn't bring your peace and your favorite weather just passes without conveying a sense of tranquility to you like it used to , when your comfort food lacks the comfort it provides, when your passions and dreams don't excite you at all, when tour life deficits meaning and not only that—you don't expect anything from anyone, you give up on hope, alienated from the society a and living as a piece of flesh— wandering places and relinquishing all the aspects of life because you know that the problem isn't the world but you? The worst feeling is not to feel at all. Although, you feel what you think you feel and your brain is responsible for it as much as your heart you just can't play the blame game and blame the two opposites for your state. You should learn to respect each of them;your heart and brain—cherish them and make them come to terms with each other in order to live a sustainable life. Your feelings are important to you as much as your thought process—nourish both of them. The void needs to be filled and it is you who decides what to fill it with.

—RY