Just Played Comp With The SILLIEST Fella Ever, He Was So Hyped. Rotate159 On Overwatch, You Make The

just played comp with the SILLIEST fella ever, he was so hyped. rotate159 on overwatch, you make the world worth it... you make overwatch sunshines & rainbows.... you will never see this, but peace56 & kolyanovich love you....

i MISS bloodlines & vtm overall so bad. esp sebastion lacroix... i hate that snobby cunt, he wants me so bad.

| THE KOLYAN FAMILY

messy sketches of these tragic siblings because my party is meeting them soon and i am so very excited since they are my fave npcs!!

today i bring you aba stimming. tomorrow? who knows

any wise words, advice or insight?

so i've been decently confident that i have POTS , especially because i started to feel this way about 8-ish years ago after i was bedridden sick.

^ (but for almost as long as i can remember, i never liked standing up for long times, and felt faint often, so i really don't know for sure) more context below cut

even so, i don't move around often, aside from when i'm at work 3x a week (5-6hrs each) or going out with friends. i usually stay in my room crumbled up in my desk chaid or in bed. i also have arfid and so i don't have the best eating habits too

because of this i'm not sure if i an physically built wrong or if the fainting, weak knees & arms, and dizziness (+other POTs-like symptoms) are just a result of my habits? i used to be fairly active in elementary school + middle school, but cannot remember if that ever helped me. i know that even when i was active, by ribs would feel broken with cramps and bruises. so i really can't tell if i was just living like this or only now am feeling it.

my doctors aren't listening too much, but that seems normal for my healthcare system/hj

i find that if i can sit and eat every once and a while during my time i do go out, i can suffice with only a little bit of dizziness, but i still fear leaving the house without any secure way of breaks or snacks, so i'm using the world's most painful hand-me-down wheelchair and i don't even know if i should get a new one because i don't feel justified since i've 'lived long enough' like this without one. (even though, i have to admit, i only stopped leaving the house because of my symptoms over a decade ago)

i have a more masc. name i am intrigued by, but i feel like there is a demon inside me that says no to that. so alas , loon. plus i already have enough 'aliases' guys. i'm such a name hoarder