It's A Good Thing They Know How To Drive Because There Is Nothing Else Going On Up There

it's a good thing they know how to drive because there is nothing else going on up there

Congrats to max on the wdc but the fact that Oscar has got his first win in F1 (despite being a Sprint) and it’s being toned down for the wdc is sad

Okay but I need to get this off my chest

It's been confirmed since last season by Maddie that Buck is "very good at seeming fine" or better than he is. We have lots of proof of that on screen. We have Buck saying to a therapist that he hides his true emotions. We have many, many indicators on screen of Buck being neurodivergent, with low self esteem, being very perceptive, and putting everything into being what other people need.

If we go with that, with possible ADHD, or C-PTSD (which is trauma caused by prolonged traumatic events like neglectful/abusive parenting) - I feel like I should make a list of all the symptoms and signs that coincide with Buck - but point is, lots of neurodivergent people but especially those tend to do a thing called "masking"

It's exactly what it sounds like, aka they put on a mask around people to try and act how people expect them to. This act is perfected throughout the years and is very flexible. It's constant awareness of the situation, picking up on the smallest changes in the people around you and adjusting yourself to a "this is how I should be acting" setting, or "this is what this person/situation expects or alternatively needs right now".

Often times, you tend to lose your own self in there, you push aside all your own feelings and needs - which is what Buck admitted to his therapist. We also know he always feels like he needs to put on thee firefighter "costume" to feel worthy.

So basically, Buck puts up an act to be the best person he can, according to what the people around him need. I'm not saying it's not part of his personality to want to help people, because it is. But the problem is that it's to a fault. He will go extreme lengths no matter what his own feelings or needs say.

I mean, with Eddie it's a healthy thing bc man Eddie gives back. But again, Buck saw what Eddie needed and constantly immediately took initiative. He helped get Carla into his life, made sure Bobby knew about Chris and helped out there, he became a whole second parent to Chris bc he saw these two people needed it. They are two people who surprisingly returned the sentiment.

Which surprises Buck. Even after what 3 years(?) Buck still has to hear from Eddie explicitly that he's not expendable.

Buck believes he is, because he thinks he's just doing what he should be doing. It doesn't matter how he feels, this is what he does. It wouldn't change his behavior if Eddie did think he was expendable. (tho it would damage him further)

My point is, Buck is very good at acting. He is mentally very strong and resilient because he knows how to put his own self aside and be what people need him to be. (That unfortunately reinforces his idea that it's not him that's worthy, it's just his actions, which anyone can do, since of course Buck is just emulating what he thinks someone should be doing).

And in my opinion, we see Buck backsliding a bit since his parents popped up - which is practically inevitable, even without the whole new life changing revelation about his brother, which made things worth because his whole existence now was excuse as Buck just being there "for parts". It reinforces the idea in his head that he's just there to be useful to people, to be what they need, regardless of himself. And that's probably not a conscious thought 99% of the time.

I also haven't seen anyone mentioning Buck mentioning the therapist this season which would fit my backsliding theory, just based on myself who also grew up thinking I'm not allowed therapy bc I can convince everyone and especially myself "I'm fine", so he probably convinced himself he doesn't need it. Or it was too hard to keep fighting to recover, for now he just has to get through things, and that means resorting to old behaviors and habits.

It's how he copes and survives. Being what others need. Especially so he doesn't end up alone and unloved, because he definitely feels unloved. And he's desperate to prove the opposite, that he's worth something.

So what I'm saying is, Buck is very, very good at acting and being what other people need, while neglecting himself, and putting up a very convincing show of "this is me" and that's what BT is :)

Ranking F1 Drivers by Helmet Squishiness:

This is very important!!!

All 22 drivers that have been on the grid so far this year, countdown style!

Number 22: Logan (beautiful eyes, not much squish)

Number 21: Kevin (deceptive! but his squish is all natural, helmet does nothing)

Number 20: Daniel (not much squish, just a little around his cheeks)

Number 19: Pierre (wee bit of squish going on)

Number 18: Lando (lovely eyes but not much squish by helmet)

Number 17: Nico (got some squish going around the eyes, we getting there)

Number 16: Carlos (pretty eyes, getting squishier around the cheeks)

Number 15: Lance (face looks over all more squishy, especially his little eyes)

Number 14: Valtteri (pinch him cheekies, they startin to squish)

Number 13: Max (lovely eyes, some squishage going on with the cheeks, yes yes)

Number 12: Esteban (squishier still, his whole little face squished up in there!)

Number 11: Lewis (some good squish!!! That's champion squish going on!!)

Number 10: Charles (GORGEOUS eyes with squishy cheeks!!)

Number 9: Alex (we getting real here, cheeks are starting to really squish!)

Number 8: Liam (cheeks to pinch!!! Would get a higher rating if I had more to work with!)

Number 7: George (LOOK AT THE CHEEKS)

Number 6: Nyck (Some excellent squish going on, would get a higher rating if I had more evidence!)

Number 5: Checo (pic doesn't do the squish justice, this is a squishy boy)

Number 4: Fernando (Supreme squishage, we love to see it!!!)

Number 3: Oscar (HE IS SO SQUISHY, pinch his cheeks!!! The top 3 were so hard to organize!!!)

Number 2: Guanyu (he is underappreciated!! LOOK AT THE SQUISH - we need to see this more!!)

Number 1: Yuki - OUR SQUISH KING (overall squish is OFF THE CHARTS - bonus points for being cutest of all with the squish.)

Honourable mention for Nicholas Latifi, my squishy Canada Boy:

Anyway thanks, I will not be taking criticism XD but rankings may change with new helmets and evidence.

Some of these guys have gorgeous eyes and I feel the need to do another post that ranks like... the top 5 most gorgeous eyes or something.

Thinking about Buck, especially with the first and last one

Me: Yeah if you win a sprint race it's not an actual win, you have to win a race for it to count

Oscar: Wins the sprint race

Me: A WIN! A WIN FOR OSCAR!! THAT'S MY BOY, HIS FIRST WIN IN F1