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Fic Rec of the week

Hi so I’m gonna start doing this thing where I’ll post 3 fic recs a week to force myself to post (I have procrastination issues and also school sucks so I can’t read fics as much as I used to), so here’s the recs of the week! Enjoy!

Stay With Me (I Never Left) by disgruntled_daisy_111  (Mature)

(borrowing summary by author) Chan is confused because one second Felix had a nightmare about him dying and the next he didn't remember it.Felix is confused because one minute, Chan died from an overdose, and the next he's sticking his head into his room and asking him if he wants hot chocolate.

TW: Mentions of overdosing, depression, eating disorders, and PTSD

Additional tags: Major character death(Kind of), Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Grief/Mourning, Time Travel

9/10

Happier by Irrelevantaverrageteen (Teen and Up Audiences)

Minho’s trying to get over his and Jisung’s breakup, but now he has to watch him fall in love with someone new. (Songfic based off of Happier by Ed Sheeran)

TW: mentions of self harm, suicide attempts, panic attacks 

Additional tags: angst, breakups

8/10

10 things I (still) love about you by polaris_dreams (General Audiences)

(borrowing summary by author)  As a last attempt to revive their relationship, Changbin's lawyer asks him to write a letter with 10 things he loves about Minho and his husband of 5 years will do the same.

Additional tags: angst. 

9/10

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now that the recs are done, can you tell I love angst? 

P.S. for y’all fluff lovers out there, I’ll try to include some more fluffy stuff next week, but for you angsty ones; this is for you.

Forget Me Not

Word Count: 1.06k

Tags: angst 

A/N: I know I’ve been inactive recently, and my most recent posts all contain excuses of being busy, and I’m genuinely really sorry about that, but summer school has been giving me a lot of stress, as well as I don’t have a lot of time to read fics and when I do, I feel like I’m just rushing through the story for the sake of finishing it, instead of actually reading it to give a genuine review, which is unfair to you guys. However, on a brighter(ish) note, after a month of summer school, I’ve finally gotten the chaos somewhat under control, so I decided to write something instead of the typical fic recommendation. I’ll make an official announcement post to detail out more of what I want to say, because you probably want to read the story, so to that I say enjoy! 

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“Yah, Han Jisung!“

The sound of Minho’s voice snapped him back to reality. Jisung knew Minho wasn’t here; it was only a video after all, but in a half asleep daze, he almost believed his best friend was right beside him. Blinking several times, he paused the video he’d been watching on his laptop.

“Cleaning, eh?“ 

Jisung whipped around to see his roommate, Felix, standing at the doorway. 

“Yeah, cleaning, I, um,“ he scratched the back of his neck. “I was, but then I found my old laptop and got......distracted.“

Felix let out a laugh. “Well, why don’t you take a break? Changbin hyung, Hyunjin, Seungmin, and I are going to the arcade. Wanna come?”

Jisung paused to think about it. “Actually...I’ll pass this time. There’s a lot to go through anyway.” It probably would have been fun to go out to the arcade, but tonight, he’d much rather go through his old stuff, as much as some of it hurt.

Felix opened his mouth as if to say something but seemed to change his mind. “Call me if you need anything,” he said instead. Jisung gave him a thumbs up, and turned back to his laptop. 

As soon as he heard the telltale click of the door shutting, he un-paused the video, eager to re-live old memories from his high school days.

“Stop filming me!“ Minho’s voice continued. 

“Why not?” Video Jisung asked. ”You consider yourself her parent, and Doongie’s still young, plenty of parents video tape their babies! You can keep this video to rewatch when she’s older.“ 

Minho snorted. “She’s not exactly happy right now, I’d rather not have video evidence that my cats scratch me.”

Video Jisung laughed. “Fair enough. Want me to stop filming?”

“Yes, and help me get her out from under the bed.“

Video him laughed again and the video ended there. Jisung let out a quiet chuckle before closing his laptop, deciding that he was done going through his stuff for now. He picked up the the bin containing his old belongings, and shoved it in the corner, telling himself that he would come back to it later that night. He sent a text to Felix, letting him know that he was going to go out for a walk then picked up an umbrella and headed out the door. 

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In Jisung’s opinion, rain was a beautiful thing. It gave life, and if it wasn’t for rain, he wouldn’t have met his best friend. 

Seven year old Jisung sat on the swings, pumping his legs as hard as he could to move the swing higher. He felt something fall on his head, but ignored it, but then there was another, then another, and another, until he realised it was raining. 

Quickly stopping the swings, he looked around for somewhere he could wait for the storm to pass, deciding to wait at the playground for the rain to stop instead of running all the way home, where he could potentially slip and fall or catch a cold. 

“Hey, you!“ a voice called. Jisung looked up to see a boy, maybe a year or two older, standing there with an umbrella. “Need an umbrella?“

Jisung nodded. “We can share mine,” the boy said, moving to cover Jisung. “I’m Lee Minho, by the way, what’s your name?”

“Han Jisung,“ He replied, somewhat timidly. “How old are you?“ Minho asked. “I’m nine.“

“Seven,“ he said. “Then you should call me hyung,” Minho replied. They stood there until two mothers, each frantically searching for her own son, found them huddled under an umbrella.

Jisung smiled at the memory, and decided to go to the playground where they first met. 

Walking at a brisk pace, he wondered how long it had been since he had seen him. It had to at least have been a year or two. He knew they’d stop contacting each other the first year after Minho left, both becoming increasingly busy with their current lives. Video calls everyday became video calls once a week, quickly becoming once a month, which turned into eventually losing contact. As much as it pained him to admit, Minho was slowly becoming a distant memory, no longer an active part of his life. 

Jisung shook his head and walked faster, not watching where he was going. “Oomph,” he muttered, feeling his head hit something. When he realised he’d walked into someone, he quickly apologised. 

“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry! I wasn’t watching where I was going.”

“No worries,“ The person said. “Are you okay?“

“Yeah, I’m fine-“ Jisung looked up at the person, the familiar eyes of Lee Minho staring back at him. “M-minho hyung? Is that you?“

Minho blinked at him. “I’m sorry, do I know you?”

Jisung wanted to laugh. This was a joke, right? It was only two years since they last spoke, he couldn’t have already forgotten him. One didn’t forget their best friend of 11 years that quickly. He shook his head. “Oh, um, I must have mistaken you for someone else.” He dipped his head in apology, holding back panicked tears. “I’ll be going now, have a great day!”

“You too!” Minho chuckled, before walking past him. Jisung stared at his back, slowly becoming smaller as he disappeared into the distance.

“Hyung! I’m so sorry, I’m late!” 

Minho rolled his eyes. “You’re always late,” he teased. Jisung pouted. “Hey, it wasn’t my fault that traffic was bad today!”

Minho stuck out his tongue. “Anyway, now that you’re finally here, I have something to give you.“ He reached into his bag and pulled out a carefully wrapped bouquet of blue flowers. “For you,“ he said handing them to Jisung. 

“Well that wasn’t a very you thing to do,“ Jisung joked. “Who are you and what have you done with my hyung?”

"If you don’t want these then I’m taking these back,” Minho reached for his bag. 

“Wait, no, hyung, I was kidding!“ Jisung reached out to take the flowers. “Forget me nots,“ he observed. “Interesting choice of flowers.” 

“Yeah, well, I...“ Minho’s cheeks felt on fire. “Just....don’t forget me when I’m gone.“

Jisung laughed. “I could never forget you, hyung.”

There was a moment of silence between them. 

“So....”

Suddenly, Jisung pulled Minho into a tight hug.

“Don’t forget me either, yeah?“

“I promise.“

How ironic that Minho would forget him first.

Felix, sweetie, I’m no expert on driving but I think you’re supposed to hit the brakes-

Changbin: okay Felix.. Jeongin and Hyunjin is in front of you what do you hit?

Felix: Oh Hyunjin for sure I would never hurt Jeongin

Changbin: *bangs head on the dashboard* FELIX NO-

Fic Rec of the Week

Hello everyone, and welcome back to the first fic rec of the week in a long time! I hope you enjoy my recommendations today! :)

under the sky in room 553 i discovered you and i by spellfire (Teen and Up Audiences)

Summary (borrowing author’s summary because I can’t put this beautiful masterpiece of angst into words) : “Have you ever heard about the origami hearts tradition in the hospital?” 

Taking the heart, the child excitedly inspected it, nodding in glee. “Yes! My mama told me that when someone leaves the hospital to go to heaven, we all fold a paper heart for them! Like this, like this!” 

“That’s right,” chuckled Soobin. “But do you know how it started? It started here, in this room. From a boy who used to fold a paper heart every day for his lost love, hoping each one he makes will take him closer to the day those eyes would open again.”

"Unfortunately for him, the day never came."

In other words, a hopeless love story of two childhood best friends who didn't realise what it meant to have each other until it was too late; compiled of yearning, loss, forlorn hope, unrequited love, and every tragedy in between.

Additional Tags: Angst(like really angsty), death, friends to lovers, unrequited love, flashbacks, hospitals, car accidents, suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts.

Personal Note: First, let’s welcome our very first TXT fic. Second, you might have seen this fic blowing up over tiktok, and let me tell you, it is so worth the hype. This fic almost made me cry, and it takes a lot to even make me almost cry. So yes, it’s very angsty, but I love it.

Rating: 10/10

Blue Neighbourhood by polaris_dreams (Teen and Up Audiences)

Summary: One place can often carry boatloads of memories. For Felix, this blue neighbourhood carries his childhood, best friends, first love, a broken heart, and Lee Minho.

Additional Tags: Angst, Implied/Referenced abuse, Childhood Lovers, Friends to Lovers, Growing Up Together, Lost Love, First Love, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Pining

Rating: 9/10

Struck by your Electric Love by RosePetalsAndRain (General Audiences)

Summary (borrowing author’s): “Baby, you’re like lightning in a bottle,” the singer smiled into the night air, voice sweet as candy in Jisung’s veins and leaving him breathless, needing to hear more, the more he heard. Addictive.

Goosebumps prickled at Jisung’s entire body; every hair standing on end as he drank in the sound; the sweetest he was sure he’d ever heard… maybe love was possible at first sight.

Tags: Fluff, meet cute, love at first sight

Rating: 8/10

First Greetings

Hello! I’m Sunnyside Squirrel, but you can just call me Sunny. Sunnyside Squirrel is a mouthful. Unless you’d prefer to call me that, I don’t mind!

Anywho, I run this blog, (as you can probably tell) and in this post I’ll just be explaining what you can expect. 

Some people find fics of real life people weird; I suppose it is strange, but I’ve gotten good at separating people and characters. After all, it is a figment of someone’s imagination, and I’m pretty good at keeping it that way! 

So, in this blog, I’ll just mostly be recommending SKZ fics, and maybe a few BTS or NCT ones, and I’ll also take requests from people to find fics, if that makes sense. For example, if you’re just too busy to go delve into the depths of AO3, or have delved into the depths, but just haven’t found anything good, you can just send a little request for any tags, characters, ships, au’s, you know, all that, and then I’ll try to find some fics for you that you might like. 

However, warning, do not, under any circumstance, request explicit fics (and by explicit, I mean that kind of explicit), as I’m uncomfortable with reading those. 

But other than that, anything’s fine! (I’ll suffer through any nightmares I get from fics like the chicken I am lol)

Oh, and before I forget, groups I stan are Stray Kids, BTS, and NCT. I do want to get into more groups, but school’s being an ass, so I’m kinda busy. Anyhow, just keep in mind, I can find fics outside these 3 groups, but they might not be as good as the SKZ, BTS, and NCT ones. 

Now that that’s finished, I hope you all have an amazing day! Love you!

- Sunny