Well Scratch That Last Post About My 1st Real Date Nonsense. Considering The Fact The Guy Finally Told

Well scratch that last post about my 1st real date nonsense. Considering the fact the guy finally told me the truth this evening. He actually already has a girlfriend. But he's being indecisive about her. And its showing too. Because he doesn't want to let me go now that we've met, yet he flips his words and basically friend zones me and says we wouldn't last long. Makes assumptions in regards to my son and him and his real dad, if something were to happen to me. Says one day he wants kids of his own, but with me being in my late 30s that won't be possible by the time he feels he's finally ready for a kid. I knew deep down inside this was just yet another big fat joke. A big fat waste of time. My life journey/path dangles a good prospect right in front of me only to yank it away forever. This is what I get for enjoying myself and opening up. Back to shutting down again.

So im driving home and look over to my left and I witness a cop using both hands to TEXT! And she's got her head down the whole damn time! What the actual FUCK?!😡😤☠☠

Something I need to keep reminding myself of

Growing up poor with parents constantly fighting over not having enough, really messes up your relationship with money.

Even if you are financially stable now, buying something for yourself -even necessities- feels like an impossible task. You feel guilty, undeserving, and even talk yourself out of buying things you've wanted for a long time.

You are not a bad person for putting yourself first, for buying stuff that you like and that will make life a little more enjoyable. You deserve good things, you deserve to spoil yourself. You deserve the kindness you are always giving to others.

Nail inspiration major!

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ALONE! THATS WHERE.

Been tightlacing for a long while now. I can damn near close it completely. This waspie cincher is a 22 inch steel boned from a Jacksonville local goth store called "Subculture Corsets" i can't wait to be able to close it completely and I can move down an inch or 2. I have been wearing it to this warehouse gig i had for over 2 years, I'd wake up at 4am to get my son and I ready in a timely fashion without feeling rushed, and the cincher would go on when I got dressed. I worked an 8 hour shift (under normal circumstances) and I wouldn't get home until 5 or 6 pm depending on if I had errands to run directly after work or not. Then come straight out of it the second I get to my room.

One morning I had it so tight I couldn't breathe normal....but even when I got to work I still didn't loosen it. By the time 2pm rolled around it felt loose on me. So in the middle of a meeting I stood there and untied it, tightened it more to where it felt like a comfortable hug then tied it back. It felt like progress to me and it made me feel so good inside.

Can't wait for the next size down though. Also also after my car accident back in November I got xrayed and found out I have 12 herniated discs in different areas of my spine. And I have to admit that wearing a corset DOES FRICKEN WONDERS FOR THE SPINE!!!! Keeping a great posture helps prevent those annoying as hell back aches. So I havent looked back on not going a day without the corset ever since I realized I can work a physical job with it on and not be in pain. 😄💯🥰💓🤙🏾