Over And Over I Return To What I Like To Call My "safe Haven" I Can Never Get Bored Of The Place. When

Over and over i return to what I like to call my "safe haven" I can never get bored of the place. When im stressed, sad, worried about something, etc etc I just come here and it makes earth realm problems feel maintainable. Lord knows I hate fretting over things I can only deal with 1 day at a time and slowly. Im the type of person that likes or needs to see positive results in the same day. But when life's boulders fall into your path and it's not something that can be dealt with in a 12-24 hour period....then the only thing left to do is get on some rides and see some shows. This place has a way of bringing a smile to my face without even trying hard. 😄 I'm grateful I have a place to turn to when im worrying about things. Or just out right annoyed.

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I really want to know what I did that was so bad that I was cursed in this lifetime. Seriously....I mean my overall day to day life isn't to bad, but what I'm referring to is PEOPLE. If I lived on a remote island with 3-5 other individuals who have empathy like myself and the rest of the island was just animals and crops my overall life would be good I believe. But here in the states being surrounded by thousands of mindless zombiefied drones with no mind of their own, who look to one another and play follow the fucking leader, people with no unique individuality or creative thinking on their own, I've noticed that people can't leave their homes without the new hip trendy accessory known as self absorbed evilness. I'm being serious here. Everyone I've met from the age of 18 to present day have been so fucking evil towards me. So manipulative and abusive. From my own family members to people I've met in the streets, clubs, grocery stores, etc etc. And I've tried the whole "treat others as you want to be treated" crap and that doesn't work. Because that's all I've done and you wanna know what I've gotten back? Mind numbing mind fucking manipulative narcissists! Thats all I've experienced. I've shelled out well over hundreds of thousands of dollars to just 1 PERSON alone. And I got back NOTHING. Regardless of how patient I was. I kept telling myself to "be patient", and "you don't know what he's really thinking about you so don't assume anything and just chill" (only because of the things he would say that would imply he was actually interested) only to finally come to the realization after 9 long years it was all a manipulation tactic to keep me complacent. When I explained everything and I asked for a simple apology. He said I wasn't getting one. So that lame ass wack ass advice about treat others how you want to be treated is straight bullshit and useless when 90% of the population is evil selfish spit fucks. The other thing is I'm single but I don't want to be deep down inside. I stay to myself because of my past experiences and not wanting to go through the bull crap anymore. BUT deep down I know good and well I yearn for companionship, and a long term relationship with a great man who fears the most high God, who can watch horror movies with me, who can play video games with me, and who loves to try new foods/cuisine. A great dude who likes to be outdoors with me whenever I actually want to leave the house. That's all I ever frickin ask for. And you mean to tell me I can't even get that? You mean to tell me everyone here is a self absorbed asshole? Everyone here has the same damn mindset of "oh I'm sorry B but I'm STILL not emotionally available, or mentally ready for a relationship or to start a family"??? Do I have that right? And the good ones of course are either already taken OR so damaged by past ex's like myself that they literally turn into a hermit crab and don't want to have anything to do with a relationship. I put this on my fathers grave! I may not be as flashy and standout-ish and bold, and attention seeking as I was back in my 20s, BUT I still low-key will periodically speak to a man when he is speaking to me. I don't act like a bitch and turn him away right off rip. Depending on the vibe I will and have gone as far as to exchange the digits. Whereas the so called men who are so traumatized by 1 or 2 experiences COMPLETELY shut the hell down. Its so pathetic 🙄 😑 but my overall luck with people has been so awful I feel like ill NEVER find a decent human being to connect with BEFORE the most high God returns for us. Hell the real-estate market has crashed already, and once everything falls in line like dominoes and crashes too just like prophecy states thats when all hell will break loose. So frankly we don't have much time left here on "earth realm". And the only types of people that have shown me any level of attention and talks to me about long term relationship is the wrong types. Thats why I feel like I'm cursed with people.

Gotta say this shit again for the ones in the back who can't hear.

I FUCKING LOVE THIS! AND I WAS THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT WOULD FEEL INDEBTED TO A PERSON WHO TOOK ME OUT. BUT AFTER READING THIS......NO FRICKIN MORE! THIS MAKES SO MUCH DAMN SENSE.

get comfortable receiving! the art of accepting gifts & money without feeling guilty or indebted to men

A lot of women go 50/50 on first dates because “they don’t want to feel indebted to men” or they don’t want to feel guilty about it.

consider this:

men don’t feel guilty asking you for sex on the first date

men don’t feel ashamed asking you to go raw (and risking pregnancy/stds 🤡)

men are not tossing and turning at night thinking about how they lead you on

men don’t feel like they “owe” you a relationship or commitment after months of treating you like their girlfriend

and you’re telling me you feel indebted because of a 100$ restaurant bill ????

if there’s one thing women need to learn from men it’s audacity!

men have the audacity to ask and receive what they want without feeling guilty or over thinking it

 let men pay on every date because them paying for a meal means nothing really, 

that’s them paying for access to YOUR time, 

THEY invited YOU on a date, THEY are pursuing YOU, why should you pay to see them ???

if a man ever pulls the famous “you just wanted a free dinner” you can say that “actually the dinner was never free, you’re trying to get your payment for it just in another form”

which is true, the dinner would have been free if the man payed and went about his day but you can’t pay the dinner and ask for “my part” in the form of sex etc and call it a free dinner

you gotta learn to be savage when receiving from men, because men are savage when it comes to taking from women

also remember no matter how much money a man spends on you, he can always make more money

i don’t care if he put you through school, bought you a house and car, got you a stocks portfolio, a man can always make that money back

but you know what you can’t get back ? time, energy, soul ties

when you give a man your feminine energy, sex, intimacy, you’re granting him access to your soul, it takes months even years to get over a breakup and it’s hard to break a soul tie, when you sleep with a man your body releases hormones to bond with the man, making it harder to get over him

there’s a reason sex workers quit at the end and feel rotten on the inside, because they realize the price they’re getting for sex is cheap in exchange for what they give men, their freaking soul energy!

Speaking of material versus immaterial thing, Earl Nightingale said “Even if our home burns down we can rebuild it. But the things that we got for nothing, we can never replace.“

so never let a man dangle money over your head like it actually means something, accept gifts freely because at the end of the day feminine energy is sacred, it is the most expensive and sought after thing in the world, remember that.