I'm Going To Be 100% Honest. I Don't Get Afraid Very Often. I Get Startled, Jumpy, Anxious, Worried,

I'm going to be 100% honest. I don't get afraid very often. I get startled, jumpy, anxious, worried, and many other things, but great fear and dread are not things I often experience. When I first finished Survivor run in rain world, however, I learned of a brand new fear of mine: megalophobia. I really hate ascension in rain world. Not because of the act of swimming down and down and down, no, but the incorporation of void worms. I hate them. They scare me so badly. The idea that in order to finish a run via ascension I have to swim past these beings so large and so fast that there is literally nothing I could do if even just one decided to simply look at me. The fact that they are so large that I am nothing more than a powerless speck of dust before it. The fact that they could easily crush me without even so much as noticing me. The fact that all I can do is pray and hope they don't hurt me. I dislike it so much. It makes me so fearful, so dreadful. It silences me. I really really hate them.

Why would you choose to be a streamer?

Some say for fortune

Some for the smiles

Some for the fame

Me?

I want to be able to see the intricate web that spirals out from what I make. The ever growing mycelium that branches and branches and branches from the base idea that I could try to plant. The ideas and joys that come from admiring and watching the content. The inspirations that soon lead to more and more ideas from other individuals. The wondrous joys that could save some from the gloominess that so often pollutes the content that most watch.

I want to become someone who could help so many others into a joyous community. I want to become someone who helps others through simple silly videos and streams.

That is why I want to try to stream one day.

Not for fame or money, but for the people it could help and the greater ideas that could sprout from it.

As soon as I saw @bug4932's template I knew I had to do this

I came to realize that Ive been an antagonist and a cruel individual towards Five Pebbles. My human pride led me to think when he stated himself as being godlike in comparison to the slugcat, he was being egotistical and self-centered. It's come to my realization that the whole time he's just being blunt. Hes factual, hes realistic, he doesn't tend to use slang or have things be toned down. Hes a victim of circumstance. Hes a being above the food chain. Moon's fall was merely a lot of bad circumstances occurring all at once and in the end Pebbles winds up in the same position as Moon. He isn't some cruel individual who places himself as a sun to the land below, hes a person who was in the wrong place at the wrong time and wound up suffering because of it. I wish I could be able to talk with him face to face and tell him how sorry I am that I've caused him pain, for I've pillaged him and I've silenced his everlasting wait to be one without a pearl of music.

A poem about my lost slugpup, Timmy. A farewell poem that's long overdue.

I’m a vampire, but when I bite your neck I suck out all the estrogen. Because despite being immortal, the waitlist for HRT is fucking insane.