Park Sunghoon; To The Moon, Never Back.

park sunghoon; to the moon, never back.

,pairing: park sunghoon x reader

genre: fluff, drabble

synopsis: another night under the moonlight, with your lover.

trigger warning(s): n/a

word count: 0.6k words

a/n: wrote this while i was feeling under the weather yesterday, finished it tday. rlly love how it turned out ^^

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[11:50 PM]

his chest rises and falls, the sound of his heartbeat was calming, peaceful. he soothed his fingers through your hair as he hummed along to your favorite song. his other hand in yours, you fiddled with it, admiring his pretty hand.

it was quiet, but no words were needed to be said because at that moment, the only thing that was needed was the presence of each other.

with the sound of his hums, breaths, heartbeats and his fingers calmly running through your hair, it slowly lulled you to sleep. eyes becoming heavy as every minute passed by.

looking at your figure, he saw that you were asleep and smiled to himself. unaware that you were only lightly asleep, he kissed your head. the sudden action woke you up.

moving your head to look up at him confused, he then let out a little laugh, pausing from soothing your hair and rested his hand on top of your head. "im sorry, i didn't mean to wake you up" he said smiling, almost whispering, looking down at you, placing another kiss softly on your forehead.

you smiled in response, eyes still droopy.

the only source of light into the room was from your window. the moonlight reflecting on his face, he looks so unreal. his glowing eyes, tall nose, his perfect lips. everything about him drove you crazy.

you laid on his chest, staring up at him for a while. admiring his perfect features and anatomy, you could look at him all night and day. how did you get such a pretty boy for a boyfriend?

staring right back at you, he thought your sleepy face was the cutest thing he's ever seen, smiling to himself.

"baby?" he said, distracting your thoughts "you okay?"

"yeah"

"you sure? you look like you zoned out on me" he said chuckling.

"i wasn't zoned out, you're just... really pretty" you said, looking away from his face, trying to prevent him from seeing your flustered cheeks after confessing.

he laughed, looking at you in your embarrassed state. he didn't think he could possibly find you anymore cuter.

his hand lifted from holding yours and cupped your face, lifting it to make you look up at him as he caressed it gently. right then and there, he paused. admiring your features. he then kissed your forehead again, and then your eyebrow, your eyelids, the tip of your nose, your rosy cheeks, and then your lips.

you giggled at the tickling sensation. "how did i get such an adorable girl for a girlfriend, hm?" he giggled along.

"i love you." you said underneath your breath, his face slowly rested from smiling so hard to admiring you. "so much"

"i love you more" he replied

"i love you to the moon and back" you said inching closer to his face with a cheeky facial expression when he then also leaned in and kissed you.

this time it wasn't just a peck, it was passionate, slow, it felt heavenly even.

the kiss lasted a while before he pulled away. "i love you," he said, stroking your hair gently, looking at you with his eyes that seemed to be glowing, holding millions of stars behind them, just because he was looking at you. he continued, "to the moon, never back."

you laughed, "what does that even mean?"

"to the moon and back is too short of a distance to reciprocate how much i love you. i love you so much, to no ends."

you smiled, feeling emotional but not wanting to cry because you'd only end up with swollen eyes by the time the sun rises, he realizes and chuckles underneath his breath, moving his body to face you, hugging you even closer as if you two weren't already close enough.

"lets get to sleep, hm?" he whispered while patting your back.

oh how much you love this boy. you could literally bring him the moon if he asked you to.

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nishimura riki; photobooths. (1)

(1/2) cotton candy.

(2/2) three words, eight letters.

pairing: nishimura riki x reader

genre: fluff, a bit of angst if you squint hard enough

synopsis: between two best friends who don't realize their feelings for each other just yet.

trigger warning(s): driving lol

word count: 2.3k words

a/n: this is part one of two! i got escalated writing this so i decided to divide the whole thing into two :). this part's inspired by one of my most favorite songs, cotton candy by spill tab ^^. also, the way this is written is not organized nor descriptive and rather cuts to different scenes(?) idk if that makes sense lol

edit note: i messed up on the last upload, so im reposting it. sorry for the inconvenience.

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[7:05 AM]

it was already 7 in the morning, it felt as if you only got a few hours of sleep. which you did due to staying up late completing your piling assignments.

it felt as if you took a 2 second blink and its already the ass crack of dawn.

groaning, you dragged your feet out of bed, making your way to the bathroom. before you could even pick up your toothbrush, your phone started ring

again, you sighed but went to check who was calling this early and of course, it had to be riki.

“what is it nishimura” you said in a tired tone, not really in the mood due to your lack of sleep. “geez, someone woke up on the wrong side of bed today” you could literally hear the grin on his face right now.

“get to the point, i need to go brush my teeth”

“alright alright” he said laughing a little bit “i’ll be picking you up today”

“why so sudden?”

“why do i need an excuse to see my bestfriend, hm?”

“okay fine”

“by 8?”

“sure”

“alright you can continue brushing your teeth now, i will not disturb you anymore”

“you better”

“okay, bye” he said smiling, and then hung up.

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[7:56 AM]

“bye mom!”

“bye sweetheart! tell him to drive safe!”

“i will!” you said walking out the door.

if there were anyone your parents trusted you most with, it would be the nishimuras. they only met two years ago but yours and riki's mom are the best of friends. riki, whenever it came to going out, traveling or taking care of himself, he was good at it. which was why it didn't take your mom a second thought as soon as you mentioned his name

as soon as you closed your front door, car honks could be heard. looking up to meet riki sitting in his car with that signature cheeky grin of his.

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[3:30 PM]

it was halfway through last period, surprisingly, you got through it just fine despite the mentioned sleep deprivation mentioned earlier thanks to the coffee riki got you before picking you up this morning.

"psstt" you heard from behind. "give me your book"

"riki you're gonna get us in trouble" you mumbled. forth period math with mr. huang was hell, and hes very much well known in this school for how strict and straight forward he is. so being the typical good student you were, you'd want anything but to be involved in trouble with mr. huang.

"just give me your notebook y/n"

and so you did in order for him to shut up without questioning him because you assumed he had missing notes to note down. but not even a second after handing your book, he handed it back.

"first page" he whispered, and continued to listen to what mr.huang was explaining.

you flipped your book open to see a folded piece of notebook paper.

"amusement park after class? :)" it said, with two boxes with the options yes and no.

normally if it was a school day the next day, you'd tick no, which of course riki was well aware of, but it happened to be a friday today. instead of ticking it, you wrote something back below it.

"i'll need to ask my mom first" you scribbled, handing it back without turning.

the sound of his pencil scribbling could be heard, and then a tap on your shoulder

"dont worry, i asked your mom this morning already" he wrote.

you unconsciously turned back to give him a look. only to meet that darn smile of his he always had plastered on his face.

"ms. y/n? are you listening?"

"yes sir"

mr. huang gave a warning look, one that says "i know you weren't but i'll let you off the hook just this once". thank god

with that, you unfolded the piece of paper in your hand and ticked the box

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[4:10 PM]

"when did you even call my mom?" you said, getting into the passenger's seat.

"i called her this morning after i called you"

"and she agreed?"

"yup, didn't she tell you?" he then reached out to your side, to get your seatbelt strapped on for you. why did he do this? no idea. but it's always been a habit of his to make sure you're settled before setting off. normally, you'd feel fine about it. it makes you grateful even, knowing that he cared. but this time, his face was close. making you hold your breath.

you never knew that your bestfriend was this good looking. of course you knew that, but it didn't usually make you feel the way you did at that moment. you waited for him to be done and return back to his seat.

"nope"

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[7:10 AM] ~ this morning

as your mom was preparing everybody's breakfast, her phone by the kitchen island rang, with the contact name "Riki" calling.

"hey darling, you wanna pick y/n up today?" she answered, laughing a bit because it was pretty much predictable. every time he called was about you.

with a little laugh in return, he answered shyly, "yes"

"alright, drive safe riki" she said as she was about to hang up.

"oh and mrs. park?"

"yes dear?"

"would it be okay if i take her to the amusement park after school? its a friday today," he sounded prepared to read a whole list as to why she should let him take you.

"of course riki, not a problem." she said with a huge smile plastered on her face, "she needs a little break after all, all she's been doing lately is staying in her room and studying. im sure you're aware of that."

"yes, thank you mrs. park. i'll make sure to have her home by 8"

it was hard to trust people with her one and only baby daughter with anyone taking her places unless it was your dad, jay or herself, anyone outside of the family in general. but with riki, she never worried once because she knew you'd return safe with him.

everybody knew he cared most when it came to you, it made her feel nothing but warmth with you around him.

"riki?"

"yes mrs. park?"

"thank you. you know, for taking care of y/n."

"it's alright mrs. park, im just doing what im supposed to. besides, enjoy her presence around me anyway" he said smiling looking down.

your mom laughed. "alright then dear, drive safe"

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[ 5:02 PM]

after a stop at a cafe to get you both something to eat, you finally arrived. here you were, stood by the entrance of the amusement park.

your eyes sparkled, you'd be lying if you said you weren't excited. after months of just pure studying, a little break would be nice. and riki knew that. he thought to himself that you needed this for the sake of your sanity and mental health, and so he planned the whole of today to be revolved around you just having fun.

he smiled to himself, admiring you. happy that you even agreed to this without bringing up assignments due. even if you did, he would've dragged you here anyway because he knew you needed this.

his thought was disturbed when he felt a grasp on his hand "come on we can't just stand here all day, nishimura" before he could respond, he was already being dragged to places.

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[5:40 PM]

"come on, riki!" you said, trying to convince him to put on the character hat you had in your hands, matched to the one you had on yours. "no" he said, trying to get away from your figure with not so much effort thanks the height difference.

the way you were struggling on your tippy toes trying to reach his head made him giggle, finding it cute.

although he seemed like he was annoyed, he was secretly enjoying this. "gosh darn those vitamins" you said under your breath, which he heard, making him laugh.

"what are you laughing at?" you said now with your hands on your waist, looking at him with an offended look.

"nothing" he said grinning.

"just put it onnnn, it'll look cute on you" with that, he's already almost convinced to put it on.

"it'll only make me look like a fool" he said, moving his head upwards again so that you wont be able to reach

"come onn, put it on at least just for a couple of pictures?" you said swaying his arm a bit.

"fine, but you'll have to pay for my cotton candy" the boy's hand pointed at the nearby stall. "deal!" with that you made a jump while his eyes were focused on the stall, quickly putting the hat on him before he could say anything else.

"yah-"

"YOU LOOK ADORABLE" you said laughing.

again, his heart just did a backflip. in the span of a minute you just called him both cute and adorable. it was a lot to process, so he was just standing there looking at you.

"your mom needs to see this" you said excitedly bringing out your phone.

hearing the mention of his mom rang an alarm in his head. everybody knows riki's got that soft spot when it came to you. he just somehow can't say no, and even if he did, he'll always end up giving in. and knowing what his mom would have to say when she sees those pictures, he got embarrassed.

riki's a stubborn one when it comes to these things, and for his mom to know that you managed to make him put on the character hat? she will not stop talking about it for as long as she can remember, and riki's mom? not a forgetful woman.

"no no no, cotton candy" he said hurriedly, dragging you by the arm towards the stall.

little did he know, you were spamming your camera button.

walking towards the stall, you guys were met with a friendly lady who gave you a warm smile as soon as she saw you two. or maybe she was already admiring you both at that moment you were trying to convince him to put on his hat.

being easily distracted, you smiled back. "hello, what can i get for you lovebirds?" she said

"o-oh"

"i'll have a blue one, and she'll have a pink one, please" riki said before it got awkward, returning the friendly smile. he didn't deny it either, because he kind of liked it.

"yah, you can't just order for me without knowing what color i wanted" you said turning to him furrowing your eyebrows a bit.

"yeah? what color were you going to get?"

"...pink" you said looking back at what the lady was doing, making riki softly giggle. "still, you should've asked!"

"oh you know i don't need to" he said, smiling while looking at you all embarrassed.

"here you go sweetheart" the lady handed riki your cotton candies, smiling because she was listening to the whole conversation between you two, thinking to herself how exciting and heart warming love at youth was.

although he made a deal with you that you were going to pay for your cotton candies, he still paid.

"you guys want me to take a picture for you two?" the lady offered.

"oh no its okay-

"yes yes please" you said cutting riki off and handing the lady your phone.

you smiled, holding onto riki's arm with your pink cotton candy in hand, and blue in his.

"here you go! you two enjoy your time" the lady said waving at you two as you both walked away. "thank you!" you waved back.

"airdrop me those" riki said, looking straight forward.

"why the sudden change of mind? weren't you just sulking earlier because i said i was going to send them to your mom?" you said chuckling, eating your cotton candy.

"i wasn't sulking, and plus i just want those pictures in my phone for memories. and im sure a couple of them makes your face look funny, they'd be perfect for my lock screen." or maybe just because those pictures only consists of him and you.

you scoffed, "you're unbelievable".

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[6:55 PM]

you knew that this whole thing was meant for you and him to relax and have fun but you cant help but feel a bit down.

not because you weren't working on your schoolwork, but because this was the exact same location you got technically rejected by the boy standing right next to you.

on that same ferris wheel that came to sight after looking around for a while.

it was 5:00 PM on a saturday, you and riki were on your first ever hang out together.

your last ride of the day was the ferris wheel, looking around pointing out things that aren't usually seen if you both weren't this high up. you tried to look back at him to see what he was doing, but he was already looking in your direction, and because of how close your faces were, your lips touched by accident.

he avoided you for a week after that, only to come back to talk to you by your locker casually again, that kiss became an unsaid thing and you two never spoke about it ever since.

you were going to attempt to confess again, in the ferris wheel. but you were a nervous wreck, who knows if you were going to try to change up the topics again when the time was right, like you always do.

every time you tried to confess again after that incident, you always end up changing the subject again when its time, too afraid of rejection, telling yourself that at least you get to be around him. and you didn't want to ruin all that.

trying to distract yourself, you looked around and spotted a photo booth.

"riki look! a photo booth!" you pointed.

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little did you know, riki was also planning out how he was going to tell you that the boy liked you inside his little head.

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inspiration song link! - cotton candy, spill tab (also in the playlist below)

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Reactions/headcanons (all)

when another member interrupts // @blu-joons

when they are jealous // @chiyuv

when u pull out a kiss // @lovienikitty

when you give a stolen hoodie back // @atrirose

when theres no seats left // @sseastar

when they feel clingy around other members // @enblvsh

when they get teased for being whipped for you // @blu-joons

Reactions/headcanons (hyung line)

when u sit on their lap while they r by the computer // @wonscafe

suprising them at a fansign // @ethereal-engene

taking care of their sick S/O // @ningningsplushie

pda infront of other members // @ningningsplushie

Reactions/headcanons (maknae line)

suprising them at a fansign // @ethereal-engene

pda infront of other members // @ningningsplushie

as boyfriends // @ningningsplushie

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Jungwon

Smaus

baefy for a week // @wonzone

mc-enemiez // @246sn

deal // @gothsunoo

boyfriend application // @maiwon

get it together, jungwon // @choibinn3

luvbot // @enhabot

chipped glass // @cersworld

if we’re both single // @winwonies

loving you // @oddeonu

feelings asside // @jungwoniics

dimple boy // @hooniesdreams

on the other side // @yangism

new beginnings // @koakyuu

a project and a guitar // @giyyuzz

all clear! // @amakumos

dear class president // @wonwoosh

catnapper // @meijiamikas (wont let me tag??)

the language of flowers // @soobnny

mystery player // @odxrilove

idol crush // @enhas-bestie

Imagines/drabbles

lost cause // @yeongwonie

with love, jungwon // @enloveclub

she looks just like a dream // @koakyuu

new beginnings // @koakyuu

morning kisses // @kisswon

interruptions // @goldenhypen

sweet tooth // @sunoona

Heeseung 

Smaus

you, me and the moon // @linoragi

dimension:dilemma // @chiyuv 

sugar daddy // @jayflrt

catch us, dispatch // @jalnandanz

hate that // @heesplanet

whats your number // @jalnandanz

Imagines/drabbles 

epiphany // @yoongimooni

heart eyes // @t5u

candy hearts // @shuadaisy

always you // @tyunsie

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nishimura riki; photobooths. (2/2)

paring: nishimura riki x reader

genre: fluffff, high school, teenage love, abit of angst

a/n: not my best work, but my point here is just classic teenage puppy love. photobooths was inspired by one of my favorite songs, cotton candy by spill tab!

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trigger warning(s): ferris wheels(?), abit of rejection

description: riki was your one and only bestfriend, you basically went everywhere and did everything together ever since both of your parents met. it was going to be hard to not catch feelings when you spent almost every single hour of everyday with him, so you did. one accident at the amusement park where you two accidentally kissed caused a week of him ghosting you. scared of losing him if you happened to confess your feelings for the boy, you promised yourself not to. until one day when he decided to take you to the same amusement park after school. little did you know, it was where it all began for riki.

~~ PARTS.

> part one - cotton candy.

> part two - three words, eight letters.

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kim sunoo; love letters.

pairing: sunoo x reader, kim sunoo x reader

genre: BIG TIME FLUFF

synopsis: you've liked sunoo for as long as you could remember. you wrote him love letters, bought him snacks almost everyday, all anonymously with no expectations of reciprocation. i mean, he receives pilling love notes everyday, what makes you any special? you weren't popular or the prettiest, or the smartest or anything. it would be shocking if the boy even remembers your name. but it all changes when you decided to write him a love letter you worked on, basically a recap of all the love notes, of all the paragraphs you wrote in your diaries through out the years that were about him. as you slid your love letter into his locker, he was right behind you.

trigger warning(s): abit of swearing?

word count: 1.5k

a/n: i practically dropped heart eyes and dipped even when i said in the a/n that i was finally returning to tumblr 💀 this one's kinda cringe but i hope the non existent people that were waiting for me to finally write something enjoys this one! ily all vv much

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just do it y/n

you told yourself. you were standing there contemplating whether you should go with your "thought-out" plan, with the neatly folded written letter, inside your favorite envelope, carefully sealed with wilted baby breaths and your favorite stamp.

yes, it was a love letter

not just any love letter a high schooler could just sit for hours in their rooms and write oh so carefully as to not make any mistakes and embarrass themselves later on, this was a well thought-out letter that one’s been coming back and forth to write for weeks.

she listed all her favorite things about him, from the way his eyes squints and cheeks rise whenever he smiles that made him look like an actual peach, to his adorable bubbly personality that everyone likes and it never fails to make your heart flutter.

it took her too many little anonymous sticky notes complimenting him left and right on his outfit that day, or how much she loved about his little features, especially his eye smile. it took her too many snacks she’d buy for him just because she knows it’s from his favorite bakery, it took her years of liking him and doing all that just to express her feelings towards the boy, anonymously of course.

if there was one thing y/n avoided and was scared of most, and it was rejection.

why would someone like sunoo like her? so many other pretty girls liked him and they all had better chances than she did. plus he must receive love letters and little notes like that all the time.

the love letter in your hand was not any different, it was still anonymous. except you had decided to put your initial on it this time.

just do it just do it just do it

and just like that she swiftly slid her letter into his locker. the girl let out a deep breath she didnt even know she was holding.

she wondered if he ever reads the letters that he gets. at this point it was basically part of his routine to open his locker to at least a couple love letters a week.

while being distracted with her thoughts, she didn’t realize she was just standing there fiddling around nervously, she also didnt realize the presence behind her

“hi y/n” the sudden familiar voice made you flinch and snap out of your daydreams and oh my god your heart almost dropped to the floor. "what are you doing here?" he smiled at you as your eyes moved everywhere frantically as to not look at him in the eyes.

and oh my god what the actual fuck he knew your name.

"uh- oh- i was just waiting for a friend!" you lied.

"by my locker?" he lightly chuckled. "y-yeah! she said to wait in the hallway"

oh for goodness sake y/n why are you so bad at lying

your frantic state made him smile, he was pretty much just observing your body language, the way your feet balanced back and forth, how the tip of your nose started turning red, the way you were messing around with your fingers. he found it kind of cute

"w-well sunoo i better get going!" you nervously laughed, cursing your voice for breaking a bit.

"oh okay, see you around y/n" he said with his signature smile.

you swore your body took a screenshot.

just something about how he remembered your name, you guys took a couple classes with each other but out of everybody you didn't expect the kim sunoo to remember you name when the teachers still call you by literally every other name that is similar to yours but not your actual name.

"y-yeah!" and with that you hugged onto your books tightly and swiftly dashed through the hallway to somewhere that is not around sunoo.

gosh maybe i shouldn't have given him that letter im so so stupid!

sunoo watched you as you dashed away with tense shoulders and chuckled to himself.

he then turned back to his locker and unlocking it too take out the books he needed.

"oh?"

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it's been a week since you had practically confessed to sunoo without even meaning to. you've been avoiding him like the plague, you cant bring yourself to even look at the boy's direction due to the embarrassment you felt every time you were in his proximity.

meanwhile sunoo has been trying to talk to you ever since the day after her got that letter.

he read it of course.

sunoo keeps everything, whether they're little sticky notes, love letters, or gifts. he likes treasuring them. and theres always a specific handwriting, specific stamp, and a specific initial that always caught his attention.

he'd be lying if he said he didn't read his letters every day hoping that the person wrote to him that day.

he loved how genuine and bubbly the letters were. how they wrote their a's and k's, he loved how the person's personality could be shown through the way they write. it felt like he was listening to a person.

the way the write aren't just love confessions, they're more of talking talking about how their own week went, specifically what the person's been liking about sunoo and they always happened to compliment what sunoo didn't feel so secure about.

their letters made him feel safe.

and now that he knew it was you, he couldn't be any more excited.

sunoo's always noticed you. he's always loved the way you worded things and your body language for the most random things. and he didn't fail to notice your patience for everything, how positive your outlook was for the world, how sweet you were to everyone.

he's not going to lie, he's confused. after such a long time of receiving letters from you, and finally he's noticed you, why were you avoiding him now?

the answer was that you were nervous, and of course, you hated rejection.

plus, sunoo could get anyone. someone pretty, smart, just you name it. he was way out of your league, why would he ever look your way?

so your solution? there's no solution, you planned to just avoid him.

"alright! don't forget your assignments from page 143 to 150 due next tuesday and enjoy your weekends, class dismissed!" he teacher said, relief could be heard in his tone.

you made your way out of the class with your books in hand, making your way to your locker. jesus christ weren't you glad it was finally the last day of school for the week. not that you had any plans for the weekends, you just wanted to sleep in. 5 long days of waking up to the most traumatizing alarms, you could use a couple days off it.

you placed all the necessary books in your bag and arranged your locker for the week. letting out a big sigh before shutting your locker door, only to get jump-scared by the only face you were hoping not to see around.

"hi" sunoo said with a faint smile, hand waving at you.

shit. where were you gonna hide now?

he was confused because your instant reaction was to open your locker back up to hide from him, making him chuckle. the casual ‘if i can’t see you you can’t see me’ logic, how much cuter could one person possibly get? he thought.

he slowly pushes the locker door out of the way in order to see your face. visible nervousness was displayed on your face, if there was anything you hated more than rejection it would be confrontation. how were you gonna get out of this?

“hi…” you said, waving at him a bit with your free hand.

“i got you a little something,” he handed you an apeach plushie and continued, “i’ve held onto this for a few days now since i couldn’t really talk to you properly” he said and gave you a look, hands folded against his chest.

“ahh… about that,” you tried to think of an excuse to get yourself out of this situation but really there weren’t any excuses.

he noticed and laughed to himself.

“do you have any plans this weekend?” he suddenly said, catching you off guard. you looked up at him and there was a glimpse of expectation in his eyes.

“oh, uh yeah i am” you said, your go to weekend plan was just to oversleep till noon anyway. “why?”

your heart was thumping like crazy, was he going to ask you out on a date??

“well, lets go grab coffee! and you know maybe hang out and get to know each other abit” he said. what the shit

you slowly nodded, “oh, sure”. you’ll be honest nothing has processed in your head yet.

“oookay, uhm, gimme your number so i can text you” he handed you his phone

THE kim sunoo is asking for your number.

you started tapping carefully as to not get your own number wrong, handing it back to him with a straight smile on your face after you were done. he was about to say something but a voice called out for his name. “oh y/n my friends are here, i’ll text you in abit!” he said

“oh okay” you said, awkwardly waving at him, “byebye”

he smiled sweetly and waved back turned to run to his friends.

what. just. happened.

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lee heeseung; autumn heartbreaks.

pairing: lee heeseung x reader

genre: angst, lovers to strangers

synopsis: where the only person you could ever imagine loving, breaks your heart.

trigger warning(s): n/a

word count: 1.3k words

a/n: this stayed in my drafts for weeks, decided to work on it today and here we are. ITS SO CRINGE I CANT HELP IT

yours and his life was once all about each other.

morning picnic dates but he forgets to pack the strawberry jam,

coffee dates during fall when he'd wrap his scarf around your neck even though you already had one but it was only another excuse to pull you in close and give you a kiss, he'd smile cheekily right after pulling away. oh how you loved his smile.

library dates during finals week because he insisted on helping you study,

waking up every morning to see him already staring and admiring your features with so much love in his eyes. "morning, doll" he'd always say every morning with a soft smile as his hand reaches out to your face to move your hair from your face delicately

kissing on his rooftop during new years eve as fireworks lit up in the night skies

those days where you'd get into little quarrels and he'd always show up at your doorsteps with snacks in his hands, especially banana milk and chocolate. and you'd always end up forgiving him because you could never seem to stay mad at him.

taking your dog out on walks around the park and stopping by some food stands to get some churros,

baking chocolate cupcakes, dancing around your kitchen island and swaying side to side with his hands on your waist and yours on his shoulders as he plays his playlist that he made thinking of you in the background. staring into his eyes made you want to give in whatever you had to make those moments last forever.

those glowing bambi eyes that once felt like they held a thousand galaxies behind them. his gaze that was once so full of love whenever he was with you, was now all dull and felt as if there were no emotions in him at all.

your worst fear was that he'd fall out of love.

your worst fear was that one day, heeseung would find someone else that was better for himself, someone he loved more. and no matter how hard you've tried to be his ideal type, no matter how much you've always tried to be that someone, he was out of your league.

you've always been there for him, you've seen every side of him and stuck with him no matter what. you showed him all the love you ever could to anybody, and yet that somehow wasn't enough.

you weren't enough.

-

you find yourself waiting on your boyfriend to get home safely again, and hes late, like he's always been.

heeseung's been tired lately, you can't really do anything about it since its been stressful at work for him and of course you wanted to treat him well especially during these hard times. it was the least you thought you could do.

you made plans of what you were gonna cook him day to day, made plans of how you were gonna shower him with gifts and movie nights, you made sure to make the bed, did his laundry although he insists, did everything at home despite your study schedule and made sure he was comfortable as soon as he got home.

just as you were done cooking something up in the kitchen while waiting for him to get home, the apartment door opened.

"heeseung! you wanna watch a movie together? look i made ramen and some-" "y/n, we need to talk"

your heart dropped. his tone was unusual, sending an uneasy feeling to your guts.

you stared at him in concern, the look in his eyes were unreadable.

"we can talk about it over some ramen," you gave a warm smile as you walked over to arrange the table, hoping that looking away could cover up the fear you had deep down because you could guess the words that he was going to mutter out next.

and you were saying whatever for for him to not say it even if you already knew.

"let's break up" he said in monotone, looking away from your figure avoiding eye contact.

you froze in place and turned to look at him and all you could mutter out was his name

"hee..."

"i'm sorry"

"is it something i did? i promise you i can fix it if you'd just tell-"

"its not something you did y/n,"

"then.."

"i.. i fell out of love."

he fell out of love. and all you could reply back that day was "oh."

you swore you saw tears in his eyes, all he could say in context to why were just his apologies.

why was he crying? he's the one hurting you most and he knew it. yet all he could spill out were his apologies that would never fix anything.

four years worth, and all he could say is sorry. no better explanation. just his useless apology.

after that he just left. leaving you in tears with the heavy burden on your chest. you hated him for that but all you had to blame was yourself. were you not good enough? did he find someone new? all those questions hanged around your mind.

he just left you alone in your apartment and from that day on, everything you did reminded you of him, all those memories haunted you everywhere you went or did and all you could do about it was cry yourself back to sleep for god knows for how long.

its been a year since it all happened.

your bestfriend, ryujin convinced you to move out of you apartment and helped you pick yourself back up. staying in that apartment would only lead to endless days of skipping meals, classes and crying yourself to sleep. whatever you did was just going to end up in tears and breakdowns.

you've been better and managed to pull yourself back together and focus on your studies. you worked a part time job in a cafe with ryujin and heeseung wasn't much of a burden for you anymore. the thought of him still made you feel heavy and hurt. but at least he everywhere you looked now didn't remind you of him.

-

[9:30 PM]

it was just like every other weekend, you took up an extra shift since you were free. you closed up the cafe, now on your way home to your shared apartment with ryujin. it was autumn again, leaves were falling and it was cold, cozy. you tucked your hands into your coat as you walked down the streets, street lights lighting up the path as you walked along it quietly, admiring the autumn scenery as the cold wind lightly blew on your hair.

reminded you of that winter night two years ago when you were the happiest, with him of course.

the memories lingered in your head and instead of crying like you used to, it made you feel heavy, but those memories made you feel warm and you managed to smile upon thinking about it.

you can't help but miss the way he'd gaze at you, you missed his gentle hands moving your hair away from your face, you missed the love you felt in his gaze whenever he looked at you. but now, those loving eyes were no longer meant for you.

you treasured every single second with him, and you genuinely loved him. and you can't lie to yourself, if he was to call you and told you to come over right now because he wasn't feeling okay, you'd definitely find yourself running back to him with no second thoughts. he still owned your heart like no one else's.

but now, at least he's happier and thats all that really mattered to you.

he fell out of love. and there was nothing you or himself could do about it. it was what it was.

he was out of your league, and no matter how much you tried to be enough for him, you just weren't the one.

it was nice while it lasted, you experienced what love felt like and how much it could hurt.

it hurts for you to think about it and you dread thinking about it, but he wasn't yours. no matter how much you loved him and cared for him,

those loving eyes just weren't yours.

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