I WILL NOT FAIL!

I WILL NOT FAIL!

Oh the feeling you get when you write a long post and "an error occurs" when you go to post it.😤🙂(well wasn't meant for anyone to hear. Even though it meant alot for me and explained alot about the way I think and why I might be the way I am.)

People love seeing you dangle by a thread, especially some so-called loved ones man I tell you f*** life life is one big game of seeing weaknesses strengths demons and angels all in one intensive package. I'm trying to experience and enjoy life as is but I can't because I'm seeing too much else

People who get pleasure or happiness out of seeing or knowing someone else isn't doing well... just fuck you yo. I mean it.

That whole thing where you stop calling and life progresses and then you finally see people and realize how much time you've missed, is a very real thing. And it hurts. I feel like I'm going to experience that I've already experienced it a couple of times and I hate that feeling it's a very dark and scary feeling that's the best way I can describe it but it just doesn't feel right. And the feeling that you're never really going to get help for whatever it is you're going through. Whatever it is I'm going through should I say. It's like a forever lost feeling the feeling that family members will grow and progress or whatever, and it's kind of like life just ran by at a flash and you didn't get a chance to actually enjoy it and it left you behind. I'm not even that old and I feel like this is already happening to me..... the depression never stops it just kind of eases up every once in awhile. I hate this s***

The evils are coming at my family so heavily. My little cousin just told me that she doesn't like herself and she doesn't want to be on earth. She's only 8😐😐😑