I Dont Know What It Says About Me That I Need To Self Soothe, Even In Fiction, With Dogs?? But Here Is

I don’t know what it says about me that I need to self soothe, even in fiction, with dogs?? but here is Apollo. She’s a very good girl

someone has made a similar post but I CANNOT find it, so I'll reblog it whenever I do find it :) BUT Ellie complimenting herself is something that can be so personal. like with the birthday flashback, she goes on a very passionate rant about space and Joel just let's her, and then says "you are smart" and that scene is just so AAAA love the birthday scene. but then after the bloater flashback, when you're running through Seattle and you have to push that trashcan through the door that's falling? I hope you know the one lmao. but that one? she says "that was smart, Ellie," and AAAAA it's just AAAA she's gotta compliment herself cause Joel isn't there to do it :((((

THEY HAD A TURNING ARCADE(???) IN THE SECOND GAME EUEUEUEUEUEU

another one, yippee!!! Ellie doesn't like halloween anymore and that makes me so sad. like, baby girl was SO excited to find that store with Riley and then all that happened, and she just doesn't like it anymore :( I get it, it's just AAAAAAA feelings

watching the dlc now and it was raining when Riley and Ellie went to the mall? I don't think I realized that before, but it raining when she left with Joel??? baby girl was probably stuck thinking of Riley because of it, too :(( as though Marlene bringing her up and then Joel and Tess seeing her bite and questioning her wasn't enough :((

I've been (very slowly) listening to tlou podcast and I have some brain thoughts

we just got to episode 7 where they're all talking about how much ellie's stuff means to her. I noticed pretty quickly that she didn't have her backpack at the end of the show. so is this gonna be the big thing that makes her and joel drift apart? cause I truly do not think show ellie would ignore him for two years for saving her. yes, absolutely, she would be mad. but two years worth? of ignoring him? when they live right next to each other (if not together)? especially after finding out about sarah and his attempt? I don't think she would ignore him for two years because of that.

so what's their big fight gonna be? is it gonna be that he got to keep his pack, but she didn't? that she lost so much stuff? her walkman, riley's pendant, her pun books, her little knickknacks. all those things mean so much to her. they're not just things, they're memories and they're things she can hold on to when she misses her friend or when she needs an escape. I still don't know if that's two years worth of ignoring over. but I do know she'd be upset about it. I am a very sentimental person, so I would be upset about it, too.

and will they go back to the hospital? and if they do, will she be able to get it back? and that's what causes the fight? I just want to know if she gets her stuff back, cause it was such an important detail in the second game and after the "you have no idea what loss is" fight, I think joel might get her frustration a bit, too. we all know she cherishes her things, but now she doesn't have them and I am very concerned for what this could mean