Reblogging My Siblings Post, My Messages May Not Be Open, But Theirs Are

Reblogging my siblings post, my messages may not be open, but theirs are <3

What's up, peeps?

So, I was once again playing Legend of Mushroom. After about a week of building up the courage to try and make conversation in the server chat (give or take a day or two), I finally did it! My heart was beating so hard that it actually moved my whole body with every beat, but I did it :]

I really thought everything was going well, I managed to kind of hold a conversation and even earned myself a friend request in the process, but then I made the mistake of mentioning that I'm queer.

Cue the transphobic jokes, slurs, people ganging up on me whenever I try to contribute to the conversation, telling me that I'm either a man or a woman, and telling me to "stop making everything about gender" when I had in fact only mentioned it a handful of times because people were asking me questions about it.

I quickly gave up on trying to make friends.

One very strong panic attack later, and I'm stuck wondering why people are so mean

I didn't say anything bad or mean, I was just trying to contribute to the conversation :[

One kind person sent me a private message asking if I was okay, this person is also the one who sent me the friend request :]

It really made me feel a lot better, I'm extremely grateful ^-^

I'm still shaking, and I will be for a while, but I would be crying right now if it weren't for them.

Moral of the story:

1. don't ever mention anything about being queer in an online game server chat, it is never a safe space, and it will discourage you from ever typing another chat message again.

2. Reach out to people when you think they might need it. It never, ever hurts to check in on someone just in case. Worst case scenario, they'll just brush it off and continue with their day. Best case scenario, you just saved someone's life. I really can't stress this enough, don't be afraid to spread kindness in a world where it's so incredibly needed.

PSA aside, I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day 🧡 this blog is a safe space for anyone who might need a friend, or just someone willing to lend an ear. My messages are open, don't hesitate to pay them a visit for whatever reason. I care about you, and you're not alone

Yours truly, Stickbug 🪲

Never thought about it like this before

"Draw for yourself" is such bullshit.

Do actors act for themselves ?? No, they act for the applause. The validation. The encouragement. The feeling that they're doing a good job. The thrill of performing to people.

So why do artists get shoved in the box of not deserving validation ??

"Draw for yourself" is a terrible excuse. "Draw for yourself" indicates unwillingness to support an artist. "Draw for yourself" because I, saying this to an artist, am too lazy to boost their creations.

"Be okay creating for nothing". No. Entire capitalistic systems are beginning to collapse because people don't like doing shit for no reason. It's not even like anyone's demanding money ; just a pat on the head & a reblog here & there.

"Draw for yourself".

Why ??

Why not, instead ; "show your true colors, & we will appreciate them".

I lost motivation to finish this after the second outfit

then @so-called-yokai 's oc Eshra held a gun to my head and said, "Dress him."

So i dressed him :]

Behold; my questionable taste in fashion!

It was supposed to be four outfits loosely inspired by the turtles, but i completely lost motivation to do raph's one :,]

(I blame so-called-yokai for the third one, giving me fashion ideas for peepaw)

Individuals under the cut!

I know my clothes drawing skills aren't the best, so it's not perfect, lol. Just part of the journey I'm on

Work wear, of course. cause that's definitely one of my favorite kinds of clothes, ngl

You can blame so-called-yokai for the sheer croptop and skinny jeans since they didn't stop me when i brought up the ideas, lol

This was the original one! I decided to try dressing him up and had future mikey floating around my brain, then i decided to try making more, and uhh, here we are :p

And of course, i just had to try to draw so-called-yokai's oc Eshra! Gave him a matching colour scheme while i was at it, lol

I 100% recommend checking their writing out! They're really skilled, and we have recently teamed up to make a crossover AU! 'Semi-Feral Polaroids'! They're writing these adorable snippets about my nardo, leo, and their oc!

(I'm loving it so far <3)

Have nice day

Been listening to this song since last night, and apparently, I'm having the best day ever?? I'm about to cry over how happy I'm feeling today. This is dope

👀

:glances at the time i threw something so hard at his temple his head knocked into the wall behind him:

:pushes it under the couch:

No clue what you're talking about

I'll see my favourite character happy and smiling just once and be like omg I never want him to get hurt or feel pain ever again, give him peace 🥺🥺 and then the very next day be like, okay, back to pushing him down the stairs

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.