Reblogging My Siblings Post, My Messages May Not Be Open, But Theirs Are

Reblogging my siblings post, my messages may not be open, but theirs are <3

What's up, peeps?

So, I was once again playing Legend of Mushroom. After about a week of building up the courage to try and make conversation in the server chat (give or take a day or two), I finally did it! My heart was beating so hard that it actually moved my whole body with every beat, but I did it :]

I really thought everything was going well, I managed to kind of hold a conversation and even earned myself a friend request in the process, but then I made the mistake of mentioning that I'm queer.

Cue the transphobic jokes, slurs, people ganging up on me whenever I try to contribute to the conversation, telling me that I'm either a man or a woman, and telling me to "stop making everything about gender" when I had in fact only mentioned it a handful of times because people were asking me questions about it.

I quickly gave up on trying to make friends.

One very strong panic attack later, and I'm stuck wondering why people are so mean

I didn't say anything bad or mean, I was just trying to contribute to the conversation :[

One kind person sent me a private message asking if I was okay, this person is also the one who sent me the friend request :]

It really made me feel a lot better, I'm extremely grateful ^-^

I'm still shaking, and I will be for a while, but I would be crying right now if it weren't for them.

Moral of the story:

1. don't ever mention anything about being queer in an online game server chat, it is never a safe space, and it will discourage you from ever typing another chat message again.

2. Reach out to people when you think they might need it. It never, ever hurts to check in on someone just in case. Worst case scenario, they'll just brush it off and continue with their day. Best case scenario, you just saved someone's life. I really can't stress this enough, don't be afraid to spread kindness in a world where it's so incredibly needed.

PSA aside, I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day 🧡 this blog is a safe space for anyone who might need a friend, or just someone willing to lend an ear. My messages are open, don't hesitate to pay them a visit for whatever reason. I care about you, and you're not alone

Yours truly, Stickbug 🪲

I am reminding myself that it's okay if i haven't posted in a while and that i won't post for a bit longer. Because i literally warned people about this part of me, and it has literally just been days. Not weeks, not months, days. And it seems i have to remind my brain that I'm human too. I have been working on a post to the point that i am nearing burnout much faster than i thought i would, which is quite upsetting to me. Anyways, I'll post as soon as I'm done drawing it, promise!

Just gotta have a break, first, lol

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

Here's a doodle from the prosthetic page

Someone confiscated peepaws prosthetics✨️

I'm consuming this before i disitegrate from the greatness of it

Just a mutant who hunts Krangs🫡

Never thought about it like this before

"Draw for yourself" is such bullshit.

Do actors act for themselves ?? No, they act for the applause. The validation. The encouragement. The feeling that they're doing a good job. The thrill of performing to people.

So why do artists get shoved in the box of not deserving validation ??

"Draw for yourself" is a terrible excuse. "Draw for yourself" indicates unwillingness to support an artist. "Draw for yourself" because I, saying this to an artist, am too lazy to boost their creations.

"Be okay creating for nothing". No. Entire capitalistic systems are beginning to collapse because people don't like doing shit for no reason. It's not even like anyone's demanding money ; just a pat on the head & a reblog here & there.

"Draw for yourself".

Why ??

Why not, instead ; "show your true colors, & we will appreciate them".