I Just Want To Rot Away In My Sleep, I Can't Do This Anymore

I just want to rot away in my sleep, I can't do this anymore

This makes me feel alone in a good way

the full moon in paintings

Senior quote right there

“what’s your five year plan” bro i wake up every day confused by the fact that i’m even alive

I thought it was better to hate yourself so when you're told you're wrong it's easier to not put up a fight but apparently not.

katherine isabelle & emily perkins behind the scenes with lea carlson, the costume designer for 2000’s ginger snaps (1/4)

Venting...

I like school breaks because it gives me hope that I can make up my work or I can lay in bed and dream of my fictional world. But I don't like it because I have no reason to get up in the morning. One of the worst parts about being depressed is my personal hygiene just doesn't matter to me anymore.

My sister said I looked and smelled like shit. And I was taken aback like what are you talking about. Then I remember the last day I bathed was when I had to go to school. So I told myself if I took a hot bath and brushed my teeth then at least it'll be out of the way and I can stay in bed for the rest of the day. So that's the ultimatum I made with myself.

So I get in the bath, my skin is practically burning but I love it. Then my stupid as had to have an anxiety attack while I'm soaping up. So I put my headphones on and played freak on a leash by korn slowed and that helped me finish my ultimatum and make it back into bed. I didn't cut but I did bite myself when I realized I didn't have anything near me.

That concludes the end of my story. It wasn't perfect but I did it. I did it