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Unspoken breath

Sadness creeps in uninvited with sweeping viteral, never shaking and always taking its unfar toll. A Quiet room with sun soaked walls, all is soft inside its gawls. Sunrise peeks at the edge of a dew heavy lawn, will it lead me to the dawn.

This Depression is a timestamp. Unmoving, no progress it seems. A frozen scene of apathy.

Depression is my sunshade

In the sunlight I wither and despair

Shadows under branches,

offer sweet refuge and care.

Flowers tilt up

towards the warmth and light

But I feel the glow is poison

Something in me isn't right.

Venting...

I like school breaks because it gives me hope that I can make up my work or I can lay in bed and dream of my fictional world. But I don't like it because I have no reason to get up in the morning. One of the worst parts about being depressed is my personal hygiene just doesn't matter to me anymore.

My sister said I looked and smelled like shit. And I was taken aback like what are you talking about. Then I remember the last day I bathed was when I had to go to school. So I told myself if I took a hot bath and brushed my teeth then at least it'll be out of the way and I can stay in bed for the rest of the day. So that's the ultimatum I made with myself.

So I get in the bath, my skin is practically burning but I love it. Then my stupid as had to have an anxiety attack while I'm soaping up. So I put my headphones on and played freak on a leash by korn slowed and that helped me finish my ultimatum and make it back into bed. I didn't cut but I did bite myself when I realized I didn't have anything near me.

That concludes the end of my story. It wasn't perfect but I did it. I did it