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yes I'm gonna slice up my arms until they're mishapen and get hospitalized just so I can get an ounce of your attention. that's completely normal and healthy behavior.

·.★·.·´¯`·.·★ 🅸🅽🆃🆁🅾 🅿🅾🆂🆃 ★·.·´¯`·.·★.·

𝚃𝚆: 𝚂𝚑, 𝚐𝚘𝚛𝚎, 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚍, 𝚜𝚞𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚊𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜/ 𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚒𝚎𝚜

𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞, 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐝𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞. 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞

I am a big music buff, I love all types of music from different languages, and genres

𝐅𝐚𝐯 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: 𝐑𝐨𝐜𝐤 (𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬) 𝐏𝐨𝐬𝐭-𝐩𝐮𝐧𝐤 𝐆𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐜 (𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬) 𝐌𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐥 (𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐮 𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐥, 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜) 𝐄𝐦𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜

I struggle with depression and anxiety but cover it up with lots of dark humor.

I'm the disappointed child, so I'm trying to recover from generation trauma, while also fighting off those intrusive thoughts

I'm trying to do better in school so that I won't be disowned, thus depressed studying

Love blood, gore, and emo girls

Hopefully, this account will help me vent every now and then, and share my deep dark secrets that I can't share with anybody else

Thank you for reading this far and remember to blink

Venting...

I like school breaks because it gives me hope that I can make up my work or I can lay in bed and dream of my fictional world. But I don't like it because I have no reason to get up in the morning. One of the worst parts about being depressed is my personal hygiene just doesn't matter to me anymore.

My sister said I looked and smelled like shit. And I was taken aback like what are you talking about. Then I remember the last day I bathed was when I had to go to school. So I told myself if I took a hot bath and brushed my teeth then at least it'll be out of the way and I can stay in bed for the rest of the day. So that's the ultimatum I made with myself.

So I get in the bath, my skin is practically burning but I love it. Then my stupid as had to have an anxiety attack while I'm soaping up. So I put my headphones on and played freak on a leash by korn slowed and that helped me finish my ultimatum and make it back into bed. I didn't cut but I did bite myself when I realized I didn't have anything near me.

That concludes the end of my story. It wasn't perfect but I did it. I did it

It's another level of pretending....

Cutting then pretending everything's fine is another kind of pain..

⚠️tw sh

First smoke then cut

Cvtting for fun....why not <33

cvtting as a punishment <33 cvtting as a reward <33 cvtting while listening to music <33 cvtting to feel smth <33 cvtting bc you’re bored <33 cvtting while watching ur fav show <33 cvtting <333

When you had cut yesterday evening and next day in the morning you had volleyball match.....

Very clever move ngl

⚠️tw sh

I had a dream where I hit beans !

But like my leg was almost torn open in two

So it was more than beans

And I found nurse who agreed to stitch it and I btw met my classmates...and a handsome doctor

But I don't know how this ended because I was in short coma and then I woke up

I went back to self-harming and on the one hand I feel satisfied, and on the other I know that if my family found out, they would be broken and disappointed

Looking at my mutilated forearm, I feel satisfaction that I punished my ugly body, stupid brain, stupid thoughts, myself in general, this is what I deserve

This is how I can verbally explain my trauma.