Never Have I Dealt With Anything As Difficult As My Own Soul.

Never have I dealt with anything as difficult as my own soul.

Imam Al-Ghazali

Heartbreak is one thing

My waist is another

I beg you please dont make me eat

Motherfucker

Basically

i feel like i'm g@ining even though i've been eating well under maintenance oooooh im on the struggle bus

Hunger

If you’re hungry, just don’t eat.

If you’re hungry step on the scale.

If you’re hungry chew gum, check your wrists, salt! salt! salt!

Anything to keep the hunger from swallowing you whole

Hunger is an achievement

A badge of honor hung proudly over sickly bones

But hunger can’t win, you win. YOU win and you beat hunger!

you ignore it until you collapse

Exhausted

Frail

Ashamed

Hunger tries to distract you, manipulation maybe

Dizzy spells, lashing out, and those awful clumps of hair in my shower

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, but I don’t believe it

It’s hunger, hunger tastes as good, maybe even better