I'm Tired If Being Negative All The Time.

I'm tired if being negative all the time.

If it were easy to stop, i would have done so already, and never have had this problem in the first place.

But i can't. I can't stop feeling this way, no matter how hard i try.

All i can do is distract myself until the awful feelings just come crawling back up

my mum didn't raise a quitter, she raised a vengeful, impulsive, cries over every minor inconvenience, emotionally and mentally unstable demon

I don't know what to say other than I don't want to be here anymore. I try to distract myself, but always, every day, not existing is the best option.

4ever jealous of ppl with friend groups who r like a little family n go on adventures n truly like live life together , i feel so lonely n like i am not living a life at all n so tiny n diminished n meaningless n ik others shouldn’t be what i place all my meaning in but i just feel so unfulfilled n just want to love ppl n be loved n feel loved in return

“don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years

Crying because I interact with a person the same age as me and she is alive, happy, talking, boyfriend, friends and has a job. And I am just existing, and you can see a big difference between us. That comparison ruined my night.