Depressiv - Tumblr Posts
I'll tell everybody I'm fine , cos wtf you gonna do if I'm not
Why do we only rest in peace, why don't we live in peace too!??
Never cleaning again I found bugs, cups full of mold, drinks full of mold I've been sipping on and had to throw sm away which is so bad for my hoarder brain
showering is basically a magical girl transformation for the mentally ill
whenever I tell anyone within a 3 year age gap of me that I want to desperately run away and go to a small country in the mountains with a small village and live an isolated life they freak out but everyone within a 3 year age distance from me is just like "yea makes sense, I might do the same." are 10-16 yr olds ok?
people are like but you don't seem depressed then I pull out the "this is a fake smile and id I show my real emotions things will get wild card." is life uno?
I know life sometimes goes down hill but can my life go down hill but in another font. this font sucks ass like gimme another one
why am I not losing? It's my birthday in 2 days, I need to lose the weight.
Nawet nie traktują mnie jak człowieka.
“Some feelings are like old familiar friends. Depression’s like that for me. When I’m not in it, I don’t remember it. I remember it’s bad. I remember the darkness, but it’s… different to feel it again. It’s the difference between remembering what a room looks like and actually walking through the door. Being inside it again. Feeling it. When the episode stars, it can be slow at first. An intrusive thought, “si don’t wanna be here“, but then it’s gone. You bat it away like a fly or a bad smell. When it hits you fully though, when you’re really in it, it’s everything. It’s who you are, you’re nothing else. On the outside, you look the same, smiling and pretending is so much work, but inside, it’s a different story. You start to hate yourself. You’re so alone, so unbelievably alone. And you can be with someone you love, but you’re not really with them. We think we know what’s going on with other people, but we don’t. You never really know what’s going on inside someone else’s head. Everyone’s fighting a battle you can’t see. We all have blind spots.”
— Marcus, Ginny & Georgia
I'm getting tired of dying for you.
I can't stay up every night letting your sadness consume the both of us.
I will burn before I stop loving you but loving you can't mean destroying myself because of you.
Not even for you. Not even with passion or devotion.
Just destruction. Pure bloodshed for the sake of seeing it drip out of our bodies.
I don't know what to say other than I don't want to be here anymore. I try to distract myself, but always, every day, not existing is the best option.
i was getting better.
i was getting better.
i was wrong.
i was wrong.
i was wrong.
@empathy-takes-practice
BIG BIG BIG TW FOR SH UNDER THE CUT (haha)
there goes my two months clean 🥶
(Ignore my hairy ass legs, I hate the way my legs look, so I wear pants, and so no point in shaving)
