Even If I Could Redo My Whole Life, Im Sure Id Fuck It Up Again.

even if i could redo my whole life, i’m sure i’d fuck it up again.

How does one learn to socialise again after cutting themselves off from any avoidable contact for more than 6 years? Asking for a friend

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

The factor that makes my anxiety and depression worse is university. I can't go to class and be among those people I've known for years and haven't talked to yet. I can't feel normal in the classroom; my chest hurts, I feel cold, shaking, and I get dizzy. Walking around campus makes me feel worse, and I don't know how to explain it to my family. Yesterday I couldn't sleep because of the chest pain I felt when I found out that today is Monday.

I don't know what to say other than I don't want to be here anymore. I try to distract myself, but always, every day, not existing is the best option.