Wait-my-dead - Venus

my mum didn't raise a quitter, she raised a vengeful, impulsive, cries over every minor inconvenience, emotionally and mentally unstable demon

I don't know what to say other than I don't want to be here anymore. I try to distract myself, but always, every day, not existing is the best option.

The factor that makes my anxiety and depression worse is university. I can't go to class and be among those people I've known for years and haven't talked to yet. I can't feel normal in the classroom; my chest hurts, I feel cold, shaking, and I get dizzy. Walking around campus makes me feel worse, and I don't know how to explain it to my family. Yesterday I couldn't sleep because of the chest pain I felt when I found out that today is Monday.