My Sisters Very Unique

My sisters very unique

backstory here me and my younger sister who’s 22 months and 10 days younger than me- she’s very particular about this- says the weirdest crap. Here’s some things she’s said recently:

Me: we should get a cat

Mum: we can’t paige doesn’t like cats

Me: Paige doesn’t like me but you still keep me

Paige from next room: True dat I don’t like her

Paige: I mean I will turn Into a pacycephalasaurs and end you

Paige: and I mean I am gonna turn I to a peterodactly and end your bloodline. I’m gonna. I’m just gonna.

*going grocery shopping* me: paige look it’s beans

paige: Scrumdillyumyumaperper. (She doesn’t like beans)

and there’s many more. I just need to tell someone about my mentally broken sister cuz it’s hard to live with her cuz half time I can’t breathe cuz I’m laughing too hard other half cuz she’s winded me punching me or smth

I will always reblog this of how unfair it is that I’ve watched my 12 year old sister have panic attacks because she’s a girl in this world. It’s so unfair she and every other girl including myself should have to put up with this

“It’s literally impossible to be a woman.

You are so beautiful, and so smart, and it kills me that you don't think you're good enough. Like, we have to always be extraordinary, but somehow, we're always doing it wrong?

You have to be thin, but not too thin, and you can never say you wanna be thin. You have to say you wanna be healthy, but also, you have to BE THIN.

You have to have money, but you can't ask for money because that's crass.

You have to be a boss, but you can't be mean.

You have to lead, but you can't squash other people's ideas.

You're supposed to love being a mother, but don't talk about your kids all the damn time.

You have to be a career woman, but also, always be looking out for other people.

You have to answer for men's bad behavior, which is INSANE, but if you point that out, you're accused of complaining!

You're supposed to stay pretty for men, but not so pretty that you tempt them too much or that you threaten other women because you're supposed to be a part of the sisterhood, but ALWAYS STAND OUT and ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL. But never forget that the system is rigged, so find a way to acknowledge that but ALSO, always be grateful!

You have to never get old. Never be rude. Never show off. Never be selfish. Never fall down. Never fail. Never show fear. Never get OUT OF LINE. It's too hard! It's too contradictory, and nobody gives you a medal or says 'thank you!' And it turns out, in fact, that not only are you doing everything wrong, but also, everything is your fault.

I'm just so tired of watching myself, and every single other woman tie herself into knots, so that people will like us.

And if all of that, is also true for a doll just representing a woman, then I don't even know." -Gloria the barbie movie

this is it. this is exactly it oh my god.

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

Okay let’s see I’m kinda scared.

Goddamnit

it had to be done

(Again imma be annoying and post again but whatever)

So today we had athletics day at my school and so I signed up for my age group for 40.: girls right? I checked it at the tent and what time I would be racing. The thing said 11:20. By that time it was 9:40 so I had plenty of time until my event. I set my alarm for 10 minutes earlier than my event. But idk how the time went from 11:20to 11:40 in my mind so by the time I showed up at 11:30 I had completely missed my race. So um yeah don’t trust me with times kids

IM SORRY IK IVE POSTED TO MUCH TODAY BUT OH WELL

I OPENED NETFLIX AND SAW THIS AND I WAS LIKE “yo he looks familiar”

This dude specifically

And then I was like YOOOO HE LOOKS LIKE DEAN THOMAS

AND UM YEAH ITS DEAN THOMAS I SEARCHED IT UP SO THATS ON TODAYS EPISODE OF

TRAIN OF THOUGHT? NAH ANXIETY EXPRESS