I /need/ Something To Do But Everything Seems Too Overwhelming To Do.

I /need/ something to do but everything seems too overwhelming to do.

Anyone else understimulated but overstimulated

Like I need something or I’m gonna go crazy but I also need everything to stop or I’m gonna go crazy

How am I suppose to enjoy food when all the food I do eat makes be feel sick, bloated, constipated, etc.

i am once again asking for the venn diagram of "foods i can eat due to arfid" and "foods that help my sensitive stomach" to have an overlapping section in the middle. please. i'm asking nicely.

Me: Okay my essay is due tomorrow morning so I should just start it now to make my life easier.

Me: Alright just gotta put on some music on my phone *see my Ao3 tab* well I’ll just finish this fic and then start

5 hours later

Me: Oh shit

why did I, someone who is very busy, think it was a good idea to check ao3

I just have to vent.

Having an arfid is miserable.

Growing up being told "I feel sorry for whoever wants to take YOU on a date" and "If you were my kid I would've made you starve!" And "you're so spoiled because you are a picky eater" is so fucked up when none of it is your choice.

Living your life worried about how *other people* look at your meals is fucking awful. Coming home from dinners hungry is fucking awful. Being seen as a problem bc of your limited diet is fucking awful.

And trying to explain it when people get so offended. "It's not a texture issue because these two foods are pretty much the same texture so you should like both!" and "but this is my family recipe and I made it so im going to be hurt if you don't suffer through it and pretend that you like it!"

I just hate food. It's not my bc of my body, it's not my weight, it's not bc I'm disrespectful or vain or spoiled or whatever else.

Neurotypicals stop caring what other people eat or don't eat challenge.

“Any food is better than no food”, I repeat, like a mantra, while I force down McDonald’s for breakfast.

I find my own blindness so funny sometimes. Like I’ll just take off my glasses and laugh at how blurry the world is 😂