I Want To Disapear And Never Be Found

I want to disapear and never be found

Time just distracts you from some of them. Some types of wounds just do not heal. They may be hidden under the mat, but they all come back after 2 am...

“Does time heal all wounds? Time does not wait or care for you, whether you have it good or bad, whether you are ready for that next step or not, whether you have started getting over that one thing already. It just passes by at the same rate, reminding you of all your sorrows, giving your sorrows a time and day, as if it is there solely to mock you. So to answer your question, no I do not think time heals all wounds.”

— my journal entries

Materialism is what drives this world around...

* isolated darkness *

silence quakes the room

where I lay

I'm not alone, yet every

portion of me feels so

isolated

darkness consumes

saturating my flesh

eating through my bones

have I been this way

for so long, it all is

finally suffocating me?

or am I becoming one with

the darkness?

a cold sweat covers my soul

fog inhales my mind

yet I can feel

the gone by years,

so deeply

false truths

hurt which has been buried

every word,

which was never spoken

every regret

every lost dream

moments, days, years-

which was completely stolen

wounds that were bandaged,

by a good f*ck

issues, never to be voiced

betrayals, which were always

masked by manipulation

every demon in hell

brings them to my remembrance

routine is life

as shackles dig deeper

into flesh

voids are only seen

in my eyes, as I look

in the mirror

who is this woman?

the true depths of pain, desires,

and liberty only exist

in ink

which bleeds from

this heart and soul

self awareness seems

so distant all of a sudden

sin is my blanket

loneliness the pillow

the emptiness,

has stolen my tears

a complete shell

the shell of my being

is still

completely isolated

muted

clawing through

the darkness

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