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Hi!

This is the sign you’ve been looking for, you did not stumble on my post on accident. Please remember that you are a lovely human being who deserves all the good things in life. You deserve roses on your doorsteps, forehead kisses and/or hugs from loved ones, and most importantly, the feeling of knowing that YOU, lovely reader, are going to be just fine. Mistakes happen, wrong choices are made, but that doesn’t change the fact that you need to treat yourself with a little bit of self care. :)

Take a deep breath, relax your shoulders, and let yourself feel whatever you may be feeling. 

You will be okay, everything will eventually work out one way or another. Pain is inevitable, but it does not last forever, suffering is only optional.

Don’t leave without seeing the clouds clear after that rainy day, alright?

Stay.

* isolated darkness *

silence quakes the room

where I lay

I'm not alone, yet every

portion of me feels so

isolated

darkness consumes

saturating my flesh

eating through my bones

have I been this way

for so long, it all is

finally suffocating me?

or am I becoming one with

the darkness?

a cold sweat covers my soul

fog inhales my mind

yet I can feel

the gone by years,

so deeply

false truths

hurt which has been buried

every word,

which was never spoken

every regret

every lost dream

moments, days, years-

which was completely stolen

wounds that were bandaged,

by a good f*ck

issues, never to be voiced

betrayals, which were always

masked by manipulation

every demon in hell

brings them to my remembrance

routine is life

as shackles dig deeper

into flesh

voids are only seen

in my eyes, as I look

in the mirror

who is this woman?

the true depths of pain, desires,

and liberty only exist

in ink

which bleeds from

this heart and soul

self awareness seems

so distant all of a sudden

sin is my blanket

loneliness the pillow

the emptiness,

has stolen my tears

a complete shell

the shell of my being

is still

completely isolated

muted

clawing through

the darkness

Pic credit - Pinterest

© ScriptedSilence. All rights reserved

Being a good person is a choice. Don’t let people fool you into believing that truly good people never have bad thoughts, are never tempted by the easier path, by the low road, never mess up or act out selfishly. Never believe a person can be good without making a conscious effort.

Every single time you do something good, you’ve made a decision to make the world a little brighter.

Goodness is not an inherent trait, it is a choice. Keep making it! I see you, I’m proud of you, and I’m rooting for you!

“It gets hard to just sit still sometimes, you know? My mind wanders a lot, it always ends up thinking about everything that was or is or could be. On rare occasions, I think of you and when I do I see you reading, laughing, talking, the things I imagine you would be doing right now. I try to ward it off by thinking of the bad you did but I find myself forgiving you just to catch these glimpses, smiling to myself like a fool. Pathetic right?”

— my journal entries

Time just distracts you from some of them. Some types of wounds just do not heal. They may be hidden under the mat, but they all come back after 2 am...

“Does time heal all wounds? Time does not wait or care for you, whether you have it good or bad, whether you are ready for that next step or not, whether you have started getting over that one thing already. It just passes by at the same rate, reminding you of all your sorrows, giving your sorrows a time and day, as if it is there solely to mock you. So to answer your question, no I do not think time heals all wounds.”

— my journal entries

Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light.

— Madeleine L'Engle

Photogenic 18th century mansions captured on polaroid. (Instagram)

Sometimes it feels like I've got a war in my mind

Take me in your arms (Miss Heroin)

By: unknown

So now, little man, you've grown tired of grass

LSD, goofballs, cocaine and hash,

And someone,pretending to be a true friend,

said, "I'll introduce you to Miss Heroin".

Well honey, before you start fooling with me,

Just let me inform you of how it will be.

For I will seduce you and make you my slave,

I've sent men much stronger than you to their graves,

You think you could never become a disgrace,

And end up addicted to poppy seed waste.

So you'll start inhaling me one afternoon,

you'll take me to your arms very soon.

And once I've entered deep down in your veins,

The craving will nearly drive you insane.

You'll swidle your mother, just for a buck

You'll turn into something vile and corrupt,

You'll mug and you'll steal for my narcotic charm

And feel contentment when I'm in your arms.

The day you'll realize the monster you've grown,

You'll solemly swear to live me alone.

If you think you've got that mystical knack,

Then sweetie, just try getting me off your back.

The vomit, the cramps, your gut tied in knots,

The jangling nerves screaming for one more shot,

The hot chills and cold sweats and withdrawl pains,

That can only be saved by my white little grains.

There is no other way, and there is no need to look,

For deep down inside, you know you are hooked.

You'll despretly run to the pushers and then,

You'll welcome me back to your arms once again.

And you will return, just as I foretold!

I know that you'll give me your body and soul.

You'll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart,

And you will be mine 'till death do us part.

💞

* dark and light *

I am dark

which surround the stars

and the pale moonlight

I am the vibrant sun

which exists

in the midst

of that very

same sky

to fully love

is to love

wholeheartedly

into the very depths

with complete

understanding

of both

dark and light

so please,

love all

that I am

or walk away

and don’t love

at all

Pic credit - wildheretic

© ScriptedSilence. All rights reserved

“There must be a stronger foundation than mere friendship or sexual attraction. Unconditional love, agape love, will not be swayed by time or circumstances.”

-Stephen Kendrick

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I want to disapear and never be found

Materialism is what drives this world around...

So fragile, yet so strong

So much reason to sulk, still you smile

So much wrong, but you did right

So you lived, until your last rose

You know sometimes, life catches you so suddently that you can't really go and embrace it, because its grip is painful and tight around the throat...

Found on google, instant connection..

I hold a grudge against my life

I hold a grudge against the people

Our dreams were never considered

Our hopes never enough

I didn't think life was this way

I guess I was wrong

I pray for a shelter to put my head

And pray for time to stop