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recovery; a return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength.

This is how i have been since i can remember. I can never remember a time before i was very picky with what i ate, before i was revolted by most foods to the point i could only eat a few. There is nothing for me to return to, because i have never known life without this eating disorder.

i will never have a normal and healthy relationship with food. i will never be able to go to a restaurant and order something new, just because i want to try it. i will never be fully ‘‘recovered’‘ from this.

and that’s okay to me. i don’t find this a bad thing, not really. i’m ok with how things are, but i know i’m not healthy and i have no desire to change, but if i did, i wouldn’t focus on trying to recover, or trying new different foods. i would just worry about making sure my body gets all the stuff it’s supposed to, and i wouldn’t mind if i had to eat vitamins daily for the rest of my life for that.