And Man I Didnt Even Fight Dracula To End Up Messed Up How Lame Smh - Tumblr Posts

text post vent post tw vent cw vent I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go even places online are starting to become uninhabitable we truly live in a time :/ I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically i’m exhausted i feel so trapped it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic