Im Exhausted - Tumblr Posts

Being chronically ill is like

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

*complete mental breakdown because you can’t do this anymore*

“It’s fine”

freddy fazballs

fuckkk I got home at 5:00 m, rested for an hour, and then cleaned the floors downstairs until they were clear as crystal its now 10pm. I'm exhausted

So now I'm listening to Milgram and drinking a Dr. Pepper.

Let's hope I'm paid decently tonight

I absolutely fucking hate it when my parents or anyone is like “we’re just trying to help you” when in reality they’re just telling me shit I already know or are just straight up being ableist

I don’t need other people to tell me that the amount of pain I’m in isn’t normal.

I don’t need other people to tell me that I should lose weight.

I don’t need other people to tell me shit I already know about my own goddamn body.

I don’t need other people thinking they know my body better than I do.

I don’t need lectures on how using my mobility aids will hurt me in the long run. Like um excuse me these are keeping me from constant injuries and even more severe pain.

I don’t need other people to tell me I sleep too much. I fucking know that. I’m exhausted all the time and the only way to fix that is to sleep also get this I don’t feel my pain when I’m sleeping

I don’t need other people to tell me to exercise. Believe me I’m trying it just hurts too fucking much to do it regularly.

All I fucking did was tell my parents I’ve been dizzy all day because my heart rate has been up all day (thanks POTS) and they both fucking both start “talking” to me (really lecturing me) about all the shit I need to change and all the shit that they’re not comfortable with. What the fuck do you mean dad that you’re not comfortable with me being in pain??? And when I tell you that I use mobility aids to help alleviate that pain you say you’re not comfortable with that either. Who the fuck said you get to determine what’s best for me based on what makes you uncomfortable/comfortable??? It makes me, the person actually dealing with this shit (though if you asked my mom she’d say she deals with it too because I’m “an extension” of her), uncomfortable that they are imposing their opinions and ideas and feelings and ableism onto me.

Abled people do not get a fucking opinion about my goddamn body. I will take suggestions from people who actually listen to me and who have done the work and research to best help me and who aren’t obsessed with how I look to the outside world (my mom especially is obsessed with how we as a family look to the outside world absolutely obsessed and we have to be perfect and me being disabled doesn’t fit into her perfect little fantasy).

I honestly don’t even know how to engage in a productive conversation with them. They think they’re trying to have an “adult conversation” about it but when I tell them they’re not helping and that I already know everything they’re telling me and that what they see as helping me isn’t actually helping they just double down and call me out for being “immature” because I get really fucking frustrated because I’ve heard the same fucking things over and over and over again and again from them and myself and other people who quite frankly don’t get a goddamn say on my body. I told them if you think you can help tell me something I don’t already know or haven’t already tried and they just go “we’re just trying to help” like guys. You’re. Not. Helping. I’ve told you this so many times

Also this really hurt a lot more because I though my dad was more on my side than I guess he is. I thought it was just my mom who was so hell bent on being involved and giving me useless advice that quite frankly will just hurt me but nope it’s both of them and I fucking hate that.

All I wanted to do was help make dinner and now I’m alone in my room on the floor with my back against the door trying not to cry or punch something.

Also don’t get me wrong I love my parents and I’m super thankful for them but goddamn sometimes they’re so fucking infuriating

I am not okay and I haven’t been for a while. But no one seems to notice. I go through each day miserable and dreading the next. I have people in my life that should care but I don’t know if I’m good at hiding it or they just don’t want to see it.

i just wish my brain was normal.

He gets upset about everything, what am I supposed to say or do? it's stressful

if I take too much time to answer, he'll look at my account to see if I posted anything, and if he sees this, I don't want a fight (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

I'm so tired

being queer in a heteronormative society actually makes us go through all eight stages of grief

DDSAT 1 SPOILERS!!!!

WIWIIIIISSS n gale shut up I want to listen to Sera

😭😭😭😭😭THE LOVERS THE GF MY MOTHERS THE LESBIANS NOOOO (heat stfu)

I laughed horribly at this frame

Gee, I wonder if the main character being a “cringey” 13 year old girl has anything to do with this

EDIT: Omg this is trending on Twitter in response to that shitty review

i-

Really tired of being treated like shit by people I think care about me. I get lead on my people I think are my friends and then the next thing I know I’m dropped and forgotten. I already don’t have anyone. Im alone. I’m stuck in a house where no one really cares. Why does it have to be this way? What did I do to deserve this?

Not now please I'm busy rotting in bed

Not now please I'm busy rotting in bed

Not now please I'm busy rotting in bed

people are like "no one wants to work anymore" when every job application is like upload your resume and cover letter. okay now manually type out your resume and cover letter in our text boxes. okay now answer these 10 riddles. okay now take a rorschach test. okay now upload a photo of your childhood bedroom and explain the relationship between its layout and the adult you are today. okay now show us your youtube watch history. okay now define the color "red." okay now walk into a patch of poison ivy and take a selfie of you holding up a paper saying "i <3 ivy." okay now wave your hands in the air if you just don't care. that one was a trick to cull the applicants who don't care. okay now choose a loved one to sacrifice. great! thank you for submitting your application we will not be calling you

Is there a way to tell somebody you just want to send a meme and not have a full blown conversation without actually saying anything?

bruh buying a house comes with so many Decisions my indecisive ass is struggling 😅😅

New reason for being MIA lmao oops 😅 his name is Bear, he's a 30 lb newf puppy and a menace, and I'm obsessed with him

I have a new respect for the people that put the subtitles in the movies/series...

I made the horrible decision of putting captions in Sherlock's unaired gay pilot and I really regretted but i call it "my masterpiece"