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Watching your whole family cling to and create endless cope for the cult they're in as it marches ever closer to the Koolaid Moment is like... a slow burn trauma

Sometimes I forget how boring brain washing can be irl, so much less dramatic than in fiction. Come on guys pep things up.

Sundays always got that trauma energy about them still

The weird thing about snapping out of long term brain washing is the feeling of it still kinda being 2012

Of time speeding up around you as the little part of the real you left grasps at the edges and feels their life ticking away, but then you escape and...

Being stagnant so long, of not LIVING as yourself, and then... the water starts flowing again, but you have to start at the initial stop point and process things from there.

Cults in media: 12 guys in robes in the woods chanting as some random is pulled into the circle to be stabbed as a sacrifice to Satan or something

Cults irl: Why does our meeting up location have no windows? Why am I so sleepy. Why is everything monotone? Why is it all multi-hour long repetitive, simplistic rhetoric and parts of acting out or repeating back near exact language? Why can't I go to school or play with other kids? Why are you showing me images of outside people dying in fear and panic and blood, of us being attacked and tortured for our "faith" any day now. Why do I have to be happy about that? Why is it always any day now. Why am I so sleepy. Why is the air-con set so weirdly and why can't we change it. Why is my stress response in life to smile.

🌟 Would anyone be interested in participating in a live zoom call with fellow cult/religious trauma survivors? Hoping to create a safe space where we can all share our experiences and offer advice to one another 🌟

this video isn't very good but it was definitely a learning experience at the time. if you're curious about the horrors of mormonism you should check it out!