Emotionally Unavailable Dad - Tumblr Posts

Why does my dad think he can be more affectionate now that I'm older when he practically made me this way?

Maybe I wouldn't have so many problems with accepting affection If he had figure his shit out when I needed him.

Wonderful day to remember that time, when I was like 13 and already touch starved and emotionless as fuck, I had seen my mum hold my little brother's hand so I did to same to my dad because I was still a child and he gave me a wtf look.

Wow. I'm really hurting myself here.

Random conversation I'm sure I would have or will have at some point.

- hey Gracie, how are you? Anything new happened?

- oh you know, just the usual watching my dad give my brother a fucking EATING DISORDER. Then I had a good cry because I confronted him about it and I don't do well with confrontation. Nothing out of the ordinary.

- *👁️👄👁️* are you still seeing that therapist?

My dad literally won't look at me because he thinks I undermined his authority when he was about to give my brother an eating disorder.

Thanks a lot dad.

Thinking about how I love my parents but don't particularly like them as people really fucks me up.