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Eau Claire Market

This market mall where I live is closing at the end of the month and will be demolished in July. I took these photos about a month ago, there are 10 more photos I have from April 13 and 44 that I took yesterday.

I might go once more before it closes.

Cr: @lissaceptar

No one’s home , but who’s talking?

You leave me wanting, all wistful and wandering hands. A flicker of flame turned ember, essence now obsolete.

When I think about your skin my fingertips bleed. You are new moon all ache and empty. A delicate obsidian, a silence.

Chassis swap

After the procedure, looking in the mirror filled me with a feeling I had never known before. Recognition. Finally, when I see myself, I see me. The shiny metal, the rubbery elastomer, the dark lines contouring access panels. The dataports and maintenance ways.

A full chassis swap. The procedure I underwent. It's relatively simple on paper. Just take my Processor, Memory, Storage and a few other components, and move them into a new Case. It's relatively common amongst Androids, Simulacra, Drones, and all manner of other created beings.

I, however, was fully human before undergoing the procedure. Which has lead to some complications. I'm still getting used to the decreased latency. A 3ms difference might not seem like a lot, but compared to the 10ms of my new form, the 13ms of a wetware nervous system seems sluggish.

Usually, you have time to ease yourself into things as your components are gradually replaced, but I took the full conversion as soon as possible.

I just couldn't stand waiting any longer.

The physical therapy has been helpful. Re-learning how to walk, how to grab and hold things. Learning that I don't need to breathe anymore, and how to suppress that instinct to free up the memory for other tasks.

They tried to dissuade me. "You know the process is irreversible, right?" "But won't you miss [INSERT HUMAN TRAIT]?"

I know it's permanent. I know that I won't have these things anymore.

That's the point.

I have fully given up my humanity.

And I have never been happier.

There's something so disquieting about visiting open houses, especially the ones that have been stripped bare of furniture. I've visited open houses a lot because both my parents worked in or currently work in real estate. They would take me to some of the empty houses because they had no one to watch me or because it was on the way to something fun.

To The Moon

A doll looking up at the moon.

It recounts to its witch a dream it once had.

Before it was a doll, it wanted to be an astronaut.

It wanted so badly to go to space.

But circumstances surrounding it precluded such a dream from ever coming true.

From doing poorly in school to health conditions, there was no chance it would ever be an astronaut.

Its witch listens quietly to its lamenting.

Before eventually concluding -

"I'll take you to the moon someday."

The doll quietly doubts that she can.

But it nods.

Eerie Pool

...ꙅʏɒw ʜƚod ʞoo|

This place feels…strange

Abandoned parking lot I found a few nights back, eerie vibes for sure