Hate My Brain - Tumblr Posts

love arguing with my dad

Dad told me i was controlling the tv through this app called soundcloud when i didnt evev download it on my computer

I use it through the web browser

Theres this magical little thing called screen casting btw

He then yelled at me calling me and idiot for a full 20 minutes before my mom came upstairs after helping nana with some things and told him to quit it

Ive been crying for the past 15 minutes,and my brain is convinced my father hates me

Just lovin my emotions rn

[20:50] It sucks to be the only one left behind. People moving forward and you are strapped down by force of mind and by force of nature, your own mind trapping you in an endless spiral of self-hate. No one seems to aknowledge your mair existence, let alone your fears and needs and the tears skimming down your face night by night. 

I have been the strong one for so long. I can not take it anymore. And if someone does not notice it soon enough, I’ll explode,and my blood and my insides will spill on your feet and you’ll have to ask where did you go wrong, what did you not do right. 

Cause you’ll have my blood on your collarbones and my throbbing heart in your palm.

PLEASE END THIS TORTURE