I Just Want To Be Loved - Tumblr Posts

All you have to do is actually praising me

Loving me

Saying you're proud of me

For giving effort even if I don't want to do it

Not mocking me

Hating on me

Saying that my efforts is nothing

Only because I've been doing it differently than my siblings

I know that I'm just doing it slowly and there isn't much differences

But in my eyes, it looks different

Something that I can be proud of

I look at it and think that I've done a good job

Stop saying my efforts is nothing

I'm trying my best to live up as your child

I know I'm lazy, but you should have encouraged me

I know I'm just overreacting and wanted attention

But it's your fault too

I'm starving

Starving for your touch

Your love

Your praises make me feel happy

I always looking forward to it as a child

But since I getting that bad exam result and starting to act like a 'bratty' teenager

You look at me like I'm just another problem

Problem to be solved

Even if you don't ever asked me about my feelings

All you said is that I'm lazy, selfish and overreacting

IM LIVING FOR YOU

I'm trying to live my life as your child.

Trying to be a decent child that you can say at least one good thing

But you only mocking me when they talked about their child

Lazy, lazy, lazy

All over and over again

You know what?

You can never get your child back

Father.

You can't get your girl back anymore

Mother.

You can't get your daughter back anymore

I can no longer say I'm a father's child or mother's child

I'm neither

You heard me

Neither

Why?

When I'm sad, the only thing that I'm seeking comfort to is my teddy bear

Not you, mother

Not you, father

You both never are my comfort place to vent to

All of my tears are shed because of you

I don't care for a fact that I'm still hugging a bear

You forced me to be like this

You've gone too far at the moment I noticed that

I don't feel anything when you hug me

I don't feel the warmth of it

You're cold

Why can't I feel the love in it?

Why can't I feel it?

i’m so tired of myself, i just wish i was smaller in weight and size, prettier, more social and sexier so pretty much everything my friends are. almost everyone around me is in a relationship right now and i feel like the fat, tall, weird ghost on the side, just like when i was 12.

I want to find someone who loves me as deeply as I love him.

every emotionally repressed traumatized man older man needs a giggly little hyperfem girlfriend to fix him