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Love of My Life part 3 (Azriel x reader)

a/n: Sorry for the big delay, I have no good excuse. Still winging it mostly, hope you enjoy, please don’t murder me.

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⚠️: angst, weapons, death, think that’s it

After you told your friends what happened, Nesta made some very rude remarks that brought a smile to your face and Mor winnowed away, likely to go punch Azriel. But your high lady helped the most, she knelt beside you and said, “I’m sorry y/n but I think Azriel was acting without thinking and didn’t mean to hurt you. Give him some time and he’ll be begging for forgiveness. Make him stew over it, spend the week out here, with us, try to enjoy the present instead of focusing on the past.” Feyre gave you a sad smile and pressed a kiss to the top of your head.

Mor returned with a bag of your favorite foods and you couldn’t help but notice that her knuckles were very red. You smiled at them, your friends, your family, and you decided yes, you could enjoy a week with them and forget about your troubles.

*****

Azriel's POV

Azriel sat in the chair in front of Rhys and for the billionth time that day he regretted his decisions from the previous night.

What had he done?! Kissing Elain then going and kissing y/n? Then saying those words?

his brothers voice pulled him from his thoughts and he tried to pay attention to his high lord. “I’m giving you the week off,” he raised a hand as Az opened his mouth to speak, “you need it, reflect on your decisions, choose which lady you want and hope they forgive you. Feyre says they’re taking a girls week off so y/n won’t be around but Elain is still here if you wish to talk with her. You fucked up Az, but that doesn’t mean you can’t make it right.”

Suddenly Cassian barged in and started yelling so fast at Azriel, neither him nor Rhys had any idea what Cass was saying.

But what Cassian was saying suddenly didn’t matter as all three illyrians suddenly felt a panicked tug on their mating bonds. Azriel stumbled as y/n’s side of the bond opened and panic, pain, and pure determination flooded his side of the bond.

Rhys grabbed both their hands and winnowed them to the spot Feyre had told him the girls were at. Azriel took in the scene and panic flooded his senses as he vaguely wondered what happened to the wards he knew Mor put up to keep them safe whenever they camped.

*****

Y/N's POV

As you girls hiked back to the camp after a tiring, long hike you talked about many things. Everything but the subject of males, you were really starting to feel better and couldn’t help but smile as Nesta demanded the two of you switch so you were last and she could talk to Gwyn.

Feyre glanced back from the front, a lovely smile on her face as she told Emerie about her time in the human world, but her smile fell and a panicked expression crossed her face as she looked at something behind you.

Everyone glanced back. Everyone saw as a large, hideously colorful creature raised his paw and sliced your left shoulder, right by your heart. You gasped and fell into Nesta’s arms.

A spike of adrenaline rushed through you and you pulled out the dagger strapped to your thigh and stepped forward to engage the beast. You used the skills Rhys had taught you to create an impenetrable shield between you and your family. You looked up at the creature and your first thought was, at least the thing that kills me is as beautiful as me. The beast lunged and you parried, faking a swing then stabbing it in the side. It growled and you sent a bit of your power to distract it as you stabbed again and again. But you didn’t see the tail, it swept around and knocked you into your own barrier. You gasped opening the mating bond, sending panic, pain and your determination to keep your family safe. Feyre pounded on the barrier and you let it down, clutching your side where the beasts tail hit. Your friends swooped in, taking down two other beasts you hadn’t even noticed. Feyre came to your side, trying to heal you, she gave you her blood, but you knew it would work too slowly. She stepped back as Azriel came through, he tugged on the bond, lips moving but you heard none of it.

“I love you Azriel, I always have and always will. Even if you stop I never will. You’re mine and I am yours, I love you.”

Azriel picked you up and winnowed you to the house, but you knew it would be too late. You smiled at his tear streaked face as the darkness swooped in.

*****

Azriel

Azriel heard your words over and over again as Madja looked up at him and shook her head. No. This couldn’t be happening, just as he found his mate, she'd died.

Madja spoke, “im sorry but I can’t save her, there is a poison in her wounds that I have never seen before. I don’t know the way to fix it, and it’s already made its way to her heart.”

Azriel fell to his knees and let out a guttural scream as he pulled on that bond one last time. A soft, gentle pull came back and hope kindled, but the bond was gone. Y/n was gone. His mate was gone.

“I love you too.”

a/n: please don’t kill me. I have no regrets but comments are appreciated

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Tomorrow I a, writing and studying! That’s gonna be my day! Good night!

Guess What?

I’m sick. Whenever I’m sick it takes twice as long to get better 😭😭😭

I’m dying

I’m dead

i could write!

me??? in every??? language arts class???? 

teacher: here’s ur topic me: oh jeez i hate that topic teacher: pick your own topic me: oh jeez im not a decision maker

Random Prompt

His grandfather always told him people who can read minds were real. Said he had a friend once that had that ability, unfortunately they lost contact with each other after his friend moved over seas.

 Katsuki used to believe in it as well, mesmerized with the fact people can do that. Something about reading minds sounded so cool, sometimes he wished to have one even for just one day it would be fine, just to have a feel of what it feels like to have that ability.

 Then years came by.

 In those years, he thought that reading minds invaded privacy, -knowing what’s on other people’s mind, know what they are thinking, daydreaming, saying in their heads- and Katsuki absolutely didn’t want anyone invading his privacy, his thoughts. Made him pissed off that someone is out there who can read his mind.

 He doesn’t like it.

 And luckily he hasn’t met anyone with that ability. Good. No one will be able to tell what’s on his mind.

 Now the blond is currently sat in class –way, back but not too far where he can’t hear the professor anymore,  most of the class were in front and on top of that most of them are chatting, Katsuki knows it would be annoying if he sat near those guys-, his elbow propped up on the desk as his head was on his palm, bored as heck to the lesson the professor was giving.

 Not that he needed to listen anyway, he’s been doing a lot of advance studying and reading ever since he started college –and even though he’s a sophomore that won’t change anytime soon.

  Red orbs, drifted from the professor below, to a familiar mop of green curly hair a few rows before him. From where Katsuki sat and from where the greenette sat, Katsuki is able to see a part of his face. And boy was enough to make his heart race. Not that he’ll admit that.

 Freckled cheeks that looked like the night sky littered with stars, big round eyes that had beautiful emerald orbs in them (are those real jewels? They have to be right?) eyes focused at the task at hand. At times he went down to write notes on his notebook before looking at the professor again. Plump, rosy, lips looks so pretty if they were stretched into a smile. It was Katsuki’s favorite smile to be honest. And no one will be able to object about that one. Not only was the greenette cute as fuck but on top of that he must be the nicest person on the entire world! And he’s so sweet and polite too. Especially when he acts all shy with the faint blush on his cheeks? Who wouldn’t fall for him honestly?

 His name was Izuku MIdoriya, one of the top students (Katsuki got pissed and impressed at the same time, one time when the greenette got a higher score than him actually had extra points as well) and a fulltime scholar of the school as well.

 Katsuki sighed. Damn did he want that guy.

 He felt a nudge to his side, and he knows who it is. The blond turned his head, a frown already on his face.

 “What the fuck you want Ei?” he asks in a low tone, not wanting the professor to notice them talking, with a growl.

 “Dude, you’re staring at him again?”

 Katsuki flinched slightly, not realizing that he was staring at Izuku. To him it felt like time just stops when he sees Izuku.

 “I am not staring at him.” Katsuki said.

 Eijiro rolled his eyes with a scoff. “Sure keep telling yourself that. You ain’t fooling me bro.”

 Katsuki glared at his friend, normally people would be scared of it right away and walk away or stay away, but since Eijiro got used to it since the blond doesn’t look so scary to him.

 “Anyway, good thing Izuku isn’t one of those mind readers you told me about last time. Cause oh boy that would be so weird if he constantly hears you daydreaming about him.” Eijiro laughed.

 Katsuki scoffed pushing away Eijiro as he rolled his eyes.

 Seriously though…

 If izuku was someone who can read minds then could that explain the nerd being so shy around him? and can’t meet his eye? Or not, cause he’s like that to almost everybody that isn’t in his group of friends.

 Also that reminds him, for two years has Katsuki not checked if anyone iin his class is an esper. He got too caught up in his studies that he forgot to check.

 Well, isn’t this the perfect time to check.

 He was bored anyway.

 So Katsuki does what he always do to find mind readers.

 Scream in his head.

 Katsuki screamed at the top of his inside voice with a random word or something, doesn’t really matter really.

 His eyes scanned the room looking if anyone was reacting weird, no one moved acting normally kept on chatting quietly.

 Everyone was acting normally.

 Well, everyone except one flinching when he heard(?) Katsuki scream in his mind covering his ears, slouching slightly shaking his head.

 What the fuck?

 [END]

As I grow older I realize how I've grown emotionally dependant and attached towards you. The connection I had from roughly 7 years ago was never this strong. From what used to be a silly little thing of emotional desperation became much more than I ever thought it would be. A journey, an adventure of a life time. A life experience I never knew that could happen. I just want to show that I care. I want you to talk about your worries your doubts and your interests and your hobbies like everything else. I want to include you in everything in my overly chaotic life. Amidst my chaotic life, you're the thing that makes it all the worth while. Someone to live for. Someone to always be around. A best friend, except you get to be my lover. If I see anything at all, it reminds me of you. There's always puzzle pieces to connect you to everything and anything. The sound of hundreds of trees being blown by wind, the sounds of frogs croaking in the night sky, the quiet... serene lake and the soft clouds with the overcast and the following rainbow. Sometimes I often dream of you if I'm not already daydreaming the most cute things. Everywhere I go, I see you. Every smell I smell reminds me of you. Every year that passes by I feel like I'm getting closer to you, that one day, physically, we could share these weird emotions and feelings together, I strive to. You're always on my mind, branded onto my brain permanently... Boyfriend brain-rot. It's never a bad thing, it's always wonderful to think of you at such high regard. Never leave, my love. Never think you're not doing enough because I feel like you are. You're worth far too much in this world and you doing your absolute best is far more than enough to prove your worth to me and I am very, immensely proud of you, I want you to know that. Keep doing what you're doing. I love you and I always will.

Keen Eyes

Peter Maximoff X Mutant!Fem!Reader

Summary: Peter is in love with the reader who’s in love with Scott who’s in love with Jean. Scott and Jean are to loved up to see the damage they’re doing to Y/n but Peter can see it very clearly.

Warnings: Swearing nothing major but it’s there, angst, unrequited love, character deaths (2) although one isn’t really a death in this but it is in the movies if that makes any sense at all, Scott’s a bit of a jerk, Jean’s a bit of a bitch, self doubt and all the great problems it comes with. This isn’t proof read sorry :(

Set after X Men Apocalypse but before Dark Phoenix.

Enjoy

She stared at them, at first it was with anger at the girl but then it became a sadness that swept her away like a tsunami as if all the oceans in the world had suddenly towered over her and knocked her off her feet. The boy was whispering sweet nothings in the redheads ears as she giggled. Y/n was slightly glad she didn’t hear what they were saying probably some kind of loved up bullshit, it made her sick. She never thought she’d fall in love until she met Cyclops also known as Scott Summers but it was not to be as he’d fallen for his other fellow teammate Jean Grey.

Y/n couldn’t really blame him. If she was a guy she definitely would’ve picked Jean over her any day of the week. Jean was everything that Y/n wasn’t. She wasn’t as calm and collected as Jean nor was she as confident as Jean. She sighed angrily, wishing not for the first time, that she could have Raven’s powers so she could change into someone more beautiful. Jean Grey was beautiful. Y/n Y/l/n was not. It was as simple as that. She felt the tears start to form and quickly left the living room going to her room to wallow in her own self pity.

Peter Maximoff had been watching Y/n since she walked in. He knew of her crush on Scott and wondered how she’d take it. She’d taken it as well as he thought she would. It didn’t take a genius to figure out that she was breaking in half; her heart being torn every which way. It made Peter angry more angry then he’d ever been in his life. He got up from the couch and walked over to the couple.

“Scott can I talk to you?” He asked trying not to let anger seep through his voice. Scott huffed.

“Can this wait Peter I’m kinda in the middle of something.” He said before kissing Jean. She giggled and wrapped her arms around Scott’s neck bringing him closer to her. Peter turned away.

“No Scott it can’t wait.” Scott groaned.

“Fine then what is it?” He snapped

“Do you have any idea what you’re doing to her?”

“Who? Jean?” Scott questioned. “Probably turning her on.” Jean giggled again, Peter liked Jean he really did but if she giggled one more fucking time then Peter’s not going to be held responsible for his actions.

“No you fucking idiot Y/n!” Peter shouted fists clenched at his sides. Scott turned away from Jean to look at Peter.

“What about her?”

“She’s loved you for months. She told you she did but you didn’t care you only had your eyes on Jean!”

“Of course I did she’s Jean and Y/n’s Y/n.” This was making Peter almost it boiling point.

“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!” Peter nearly screamed.

“It means that Y/n could never compare to me.” Jean answered smugly.

“Look at you so high and mighty when it was you that nearly killed Y/n when you couldn’t control your powers!” Peter shouted.

“I killed Apocalypse.” Jean answered “What were you doing Peter laying on the ground crying because daddy doesn’t know you’re his son?” Scott chuckled.

“And what was Y/n doing when we were risking our lives? Where was she? Hiding? Trying to bring Angel back to life. He was our enemy and she brought him back to life. She’s a traitor to us. I don’t even know why Professor Xavier still lets her on the team.” Without thinking about the consequences Peter punched Scott with so much force he fell back onto the floor. He didn’t stop though Peter kept pummelling him until Jean used her telekinesis to get Peter off of Scott. She instantly sat down as Scott’s side. The boys both glaring at each other. Scott’s lip was busted, blood seeping from it.

“But if she’d saved Alex she would be fine.” Peter said. Scott when to lunge for him again but Jean held him back.

“Don’t talk about my brother when you’re the reason he’s dead in the first place.” Peter felt a pang of guilt that made his blood run ice cold. Scott coughed. “You know what Peter just fuck off!” Scott shouted.

“With pleasure.” Peter said getting up and running to Y/n’s room. It was quiet apart from the occasional sob. He knocked softly.

“Go away.” She shouted her voice cracking so badly it also resembled her heart.

“It’s just me. You know Peter Maximoff I’m the fastest person in the school. I’m also part of the X Men and I’m pretty sure you are as well. I’m a hyperactive lunatic who adores twinkies but that doesn’t seem to bother you.” He said hearing her chuckle. “Can I come in?”

“Yeah.” She mumbled as Peter let himself in. She was sitting on her bed facing the window, the blinds had been pulled shut so she was sat in darkness. He didn’t pull the blinds up instead he used his power to sit on her bed. Not to close to her but not to far away from her either. Nothing was said for a few minutes before she asked Peter.

“Why does it hurt so much?”

“Having your heart broken hurts like hell.” Peter said he knows that feeling all to well. When Y/n was looking at Scott Peter was looking at her, he’d been lying if he said that she wasn’t the most attractive girl in the school. At least to him she was.

“How long does it take to fix?” She asked again. Pete shrugged.

“Depends on the person, I guess.”

“Of course it does.” She muttered “God how could I have been so stupid falling for him. Falling for someone who wouldn’t even go out with me. I mean who would go out with me?”

“I would.” Peter said without realising it. When he did it felt like a weight had been lifted off of his chest but instead of evaporating into the air it made its way to settle onto Y/n’s chest.

“You’re just saying that because I’m defenceless right now and I’m supposed to believe anything you say.”

“No I’m not.” Peter argued moving closer to Y/n so he could put his arm around her shoulders. “Look Y/n I know what this does to you. If I could take your pain away and make you forget about that asshole and his bitchy girlfriend I would but that’s not my superpower. The point is ever since I laid eyes on you I couldn’t get you out of my head and you’ve gotta be pretty special to get stuck in my head because of the amount of songs I’ve got hanging around in here.” He said banging his hand against the side of his head for emphasis. “So what if you don’t think you’re beautiful, I think you’re the most beautiful girl in the entire world despite how childish it sounds. You’re beautiful in your own way and I’m going to keep telling you that until it gets stuck in your brain like my songs.” She chuckled again.

“You really mean it?” She asked looking up at him with bloodshot eyes. He didn’t say anything instead he grabbed her chin and kissed her. She tensed before finally relaxing and brought her arms around Peter’s neck and starts playing with the hairs on the nape of his neck. They broke apart, panting before she leaned on his chest. “Thanks Pete.” She muttered into his chest. He pressed a kiss to the crown of her head and said

“Don’t mention it babe. How about you get some sleep?” She nodded and made her way under the covers.

“Pete.” She’s grabbed his wrist with a strength Peter didn’t know she possessed. It wasn’t hurting him.

“Yeah?”

“Stay with me?” She asked. He smirked and she let go of his wrist as he made his way to the other side of the double bed. Once he was under the covers Y/n rolled over to him and laid her head on his chest, just above his heartbeat.

“Always.”