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Friendly reminder that this is the difference between Leo Valdez’s death and Jason graces death.

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"This story is a tragedy because it didn't have to end this way."

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"This story is a tragedy because it was always going to end this way."

HELP that last sentence killed me, beautiful analysis though, genuinely.

I desperately need to organize my thoughts but if I don’t get this out now I will forget it, so take some vague circular incoherent ramblings about Jason motherfucking Grace.

Jason Grace has this weird kind bluntness about him that I desperately need to study. He’s so normal in a fucked up way. Almost regular. Almost an Average Kid. Brutally honest and kind and pragmatic. He wakes up on a bus with no memory, holding hands with a girl, and he’s immediately like “What the fuck. Who are you people. Where am I. Who am I?” Doesn’t even try to play along to figure out what’s happening.

One of the first things he says to Leo is “You’re weird.” Just “You’re weird.”

Jason is judgy as fuck!! Like!! Such a judgmental motherfucker!!! “If Leo is his best friend, then his life is seriously messed up.” Like!!! What the fuck!!! Be nicer to the man you fall madly in love with!!!

He sees Mean Kid (monster) Dylan and immediately goes “fuck that dude.” (“Jason hated him instantly.”) He even mentally makes fun of the guy’s outfit!!! And he roasts the shit out of Dylan’s fucking shiny ass teeth!! He sees two girls being mean to Piper and he literally, despite not knowing where he is or why he’s there, tries to fight them!! And Leo is the only thing holding him back from immediately throwing hands!!

Mr. “I can’t even take Leo out for burgers bc he’ll set the restaurant on fire.” After the 1 (one) time Leo gets too excited and bursts into flame. (Leo not being able to control his powers as a consequence of finally starting to use them after years of repression is something i WILL be talking about another time)

Jason is a judgy, brutally honest bitch. Like, he’s kind and good natured and strong. But years of being raised by wolves, strict deadly Romans, and being praetor have made him a little bit harsh. Rough around the edges. Just a bit off. This is the dude who was like “hm. Yeah I know Nico’s ur boy but… world is ending. So.” He’s been raised to be pragmatic. Make snap judgements. Be harsh. Be deadly. Like, reading his PoV is so different from the fandom characterization.

Jason is wittier, snappier, and wayyy more regular teenage boyish than I thought. He just has that Roman Demigod Edge to him… the part of him that was trained to scream “MONSTERS! MIST! MAGIC! DANGER!!!” even when he had no memory. I need to study this boy so badly. He’s fucking fascinating.

Bc for all his judgement, he grows so quickly attached to people. Like, it doesn’t take long for him to be fiercely loyal to Piper and Leo and Camp Halfblood. I think that’s because they accepted and loved an imperfect him, and while Expectations were still there, expectations he’s been haunted by his whole life, they’re lesser. Bc Piper and Leo don’t know shit fuck about the mythical world. And the rest of the seven are just as strong and capable as Jason, so he has no need to lead. I don’t know. Jason Grace drives me crazy. Marching to his destiny like a good little soldier. No other options for a son of Jupiter. Have to be strongest, have to be praetor, have to lead a legion-

He loves Nico like a best friend. He adores and admires Leo’s wit and talent and smarts, something that is mentioned a lot in his POV. (While also pointing out Leo’s bullshit.) He envies and admires Percy’s strength. He loves Piper’s brashness and heart. He loves them all. I don’t know. He’s quick to judge but he’s even quicker to change his mind. I forgot where I was going with this. Jason Grace has always been a hero at heart and a soldier since age 4 and I think that’s why some people think he’s boring. He’s trained to be serious and stuff. We don’t get to see him goof around very much, except for with Leo, and Leo does most of the goofs. And I would love to know who Jason Grace, judgmental pragmatic kindhearted bitch, would be if he just got to be a regular teenager.

And I think that’s why he loved camp Halfblood. It gave him half a chance at being half normal. What’s one more big three kid? There’s no strict orders or rules to follow or shape him there. But unfortunately, Jason, hero at heart, soldier since age 4, trained to be selfless, trained to give everything up for the greater good, was never going to get a happy ending. Never get a chance at what Percy Jackson found. Being a demigod kills people. And Jason was one from birth, to his very core.

I think part of him would be relieved, at that. Knowing that Percy Jackson, hero with a happy ending, is someone he will never be. Never overcome or surpass. Yeah, it’s the exact reason they’re rivals, too similar to not be compared, yeah it hurts his pride and goes against everything he was raised to be, and yeah he’s had a few silent breakdowns over it, but there’s relief in knowing he’d never win. Being in Percy’s shadow at Camp Halfblood means he can be out of the spotlight. Die a hero’s death while knowing there is no other option. There’s peace in that.

Anyway New Rome represents heteronormativity and Camp Halfblood is Jason figuring out he’s gay. I will not take criticism.

Jason Grace who wonders why Percy gets his memories back but he doesn't. Why Percy was allowed to grow up with his mother.

But Jason was stolen from his.

Percy gets to grow up surrounded by those who genuinely love him. People who love him enough to search for him when no one looked for Jason.

Percy gets to joke around with his father while Jason has never met Jupiter. The closest he's gotten to him is Zeus who very openly doesn't like Jason.

Percy even gets a sister and Jason loves Thalia but they're basically strangers.

Everything Jason's been told was all a lie. Everyone who's ever loved him was from afar, the only relationship he's ever had was all fake.

But he doesn't say it because he cares about Percy, because he deserves the best. He wants to be happy for him. Jason is at his side, helping him through his trauma of Tartarus.

And feeling horrible for any feelings of jealously and bitterness.

Because Percy's suffering, his life is far from perfect. He's getting the life he deserves. Percy's going to New Rome University. He's got the girl and love of his life.

He's going to live a more peaceful life. And it's everything Jason wants but never will have.

He knows that, he knows that even after leaving Camp Jupiter.

Jason has nothing to lose. His friends will move on and it's not like Camp Jupiter will ever mourn him. No achievements he gets will ever matter.

He realises the true differences between them is that Percy Jackson is human. He's completly and utterly and painfully human.

In all the ways that Jason Grace is not. He's nothing but a tool and a pawn. He will never know peace, he will never know love and care.

Everything about him from his memories to his personality was all manufactured. Jason was made for a purpose, designed to fall at the right moment just like a domino.

And it's time Jason accepts that. It was nice to pretend, just for a year that he was a person who deserved better.

But Jason knows the truth. So he writes his letters, cleans his dorm and leaves without a second word.

"Hey, Percy? Don't ever stop being you. I hope you have fun at New Rome, the welcome party should be a blast."

"I will but you're er starting to freak me out a bit man... You make it sound like you won't be there with me even though I invited you."

"I'm glad, that we got to meet. Maybe we'll meet again some day."

Jason Grace and Legacies

there something to be said about Jason living to try and appease the gods, and him dying to try and change them.

something to be said about how he was raised to defend his fathers name and Camp Jupiters honor above all else, and died to protect his friends

who jason grace was raised to be and the legacy he chose to leave behind are two very different things

"How are you going to protect others if you can't protect yourself?"

In the first quest Jason was sent on, things went wrong.

He was too young to go on a quest. But they sent him anyway because he was the son of Jupiter, it would be a good omen.

Things went horribly wrong.

His other two companions were unconscious, about to die, and he wanted to do nothing but hide and cry, but he couldn't move either.

It wasn't until the monster almost killed them that Jason reacted.

"Don't touch them!"

Trembling, with tears and blood, the son of Jupiter raised his voice. And it was ridiculous. He couldn't win.

And the monster told him:

"How are you going to protect others if you can't protect yourself?"

And it was right. Jason didn't know how to protect himself.

He didn't know what was more humiliating: not knowing how to protect his companions or having a monster let him leave out of pity.

But from that day on Jason tried harder.

Not only because they expected that from him, not only because it was his labour. But because he knew he wanted to protect the ones he loved.

And looking back, there he is.

Being praetor of camp Jupiter. Being the figure that others trust. He having enough strength to protect everyone he cares about. He being invincible.

Jason fought to keep what little he had protected. He fought for those who were part of what he wanted to call home.

And a time after, he fought for his friends.

Jason Grace. The sun of Rome.

A wonderful friend.

He knew how to protect. And he protected until the end.

But he forgot to protect himself.

His strength was enough to take care of everything he loved. But in the end, there was always a danger: and it was himself.

Then, as he closed his eyes for the last time, the phrase passed through his mind again.

"How are you going to protect others if you can't protect yourself?"

In the end, he would never know how to protect himself. His fate was written on light in the sky.

@via-pantomime behold :D thought you'd appreciate a ping

The Burning Maze HURT so bad, but honestly the tragic irony of Jason's character, the way he was raised to sacrifice everything and everyone in the name of the mission, in the name of the honor of the legion, but he died protecting the people he loved. He chose to protect and chose to leave behind a legacy which was nothing like what he'd been born into. He died into a world numb from sacrifice and made it better, made Apollo PROMISE to change.

He's Jason Grace. He's awesome. And he deserves the world. <3

not gaia just violating jason like that omg

literally breaks my fckn heart to know Jason had plans. And good plans at that. Jumping between camps to keep them unified and friends. Literally constructing his own shrines and temples for minor gods to honor his promise to that minor goddess. All while still attending school so he can have a bright future. And we know he wanted to get married and have grandchildren and grow old one day. And you’re TELLING ME THAT ALL GOT TAKEN AWAY!? JUST LIKE THAT???!3?3?3

IM SAD AGAIN GOODBYE

Jason being the caregiver he never got for himself :(((

Jason being the good friend, trying his best to help his friend despite his underdeveloped emotional skills :(((((

Jason loving what few friends he had in New Rome despite living there his whole life, and most all of them seeing him as the Son of Jupiter and little else :(((((((

I keep thinking about Jason. Like, despite being raised into a litteral child soldier, this boy somehow grew up to be selfless and brave and caring and kind and sweet, and even a little funny too, even though he doesn't always mean to be? and it's just so endearing, and i just don't know where he got all this from? Clearly he didn't get it from Lupa and the wolves, nor from anyone in CJ (where, again, he was raised to be a child soldier), he definitly didn't learn to be gentle and kind from Zeus or Hera, and i doubt he could have gotten any of it from his mom, from what we know and what we've seen of her.

My best guess is, I think he's trying to be how he wished his caregivers were to him, growing up.

we as a society don’t talk enough about the fact that Jason mcfreaking Grace beat a TITAN in a round of FISTICUFFS. this man 1v1’d a titan and won.

jason grace backstory book when. uncle rick please. please uncle rick. this boy has been underappreciated and oversimplified by the fandom for too long.

he’s powerful. he hates conforming to the rules. living under the rules is all he’s ever known. he’s spiteful and yet, so so kind when it counts. he just wanted to be loved for him, not for his legacy or his worth to the legion. is that too much to ask uncle rick? is it?