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Forbidden Memory

Pairing : Reader x Jongin

Genre: Angst

Word count: 1700~

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Sitting at the back of Kai’s Harley, Soobin’s arms tighten around Kai’s waist with her head planted on his right shoulder as she looks farther away into the scenery of the brilliant red and orange sunset reflected on the waves of the wide ocean view. Setting her lids to a close, she straightens her head to parallel Kai’s as she slowly comes back to sight, being greeted with the sight of his eyes that gave her the world, his lips that brought butterflies to her stomach, and his scent that completely hypnotizes her. All before reality hits with the fact that this paradise will very soon come to an end. It was the sad truth for the both of them, that their love may never be approved by their families. Soobin is the eldest child of the Lee Empire. From the second she was born, her fate was to be the heir of LeeTech. Everything was set for her, from schools that she would attend all the way to the partner she would build her family with. Kai, on the other hand, is the youngest and only son to his family. Being the youngest and only son, his parents were lenient with the things he chose to do and the person he chose to become. He has it all on himself, except for one thing; his partner and lover.

Growing up, Kai looked up to his dad. Mr. Kim had started from being a mere employee at SK Motors and worked his way up to being the director of SK Motors. During his dad’s promotion dinner with the owner of SK Motors, he was introduced to their daughter, Jennie Kim. Ever since then, the 16-year-old Jennie set her eyes on the 18-year-old Kai whom she dreams to make her prince. It was after that night when Kai’s dad would start praising Jennie whenever he was around. At the age of 20, he was called by his parents and told that he was expected to wed Jennie when the time comes. He didn’t think it was fair at all because he didn’t feel the same way, so he rebelled. He turned himself into a reckless and immature young man in everybody’s eyes, which continued for years until one day a phone call arrived while he was at his hideout alone admiring the night sky. “Kai… come to MyungDam hospital…” his sister greeted him, evident in her voice that the reason behind that request was not something he’d ever want to hear. “Why?” he asked hesitantly, attempting to sound carefree in the midst of his fear. “Dad has been diagnosed with lung cancer.” His ears and heart went numb.

Nothing was ever the same again. Ever since then, Kai had always tried to stay by his dad’s side, trying to redeem himself for all the things that he’s done. One night, his dad held onto his hand while laying down on the hospital bed. At the sound of his weakening voice, it took everything he had to try to stop the sadness from showing and the tears from running. “Kai… my one and only son…Dad wants to make a wish. Will you help me achieve it?” Kai stays quiet trying to calm himself down by looking away from his dad’s eyes. “I wish that you would forgive me for the things that I have pressured you to do. Dad just wants you to find your own happiness. Forget who you marry, who you become. I believe in you, that you will make the right decisions for yourself and the family. You already bring so much joy into our family and that’s all we want from you. Please also help dad take care of your mom and your sisters, okay? Please let them know not to be too sad.” His dad finished with a tear running down the sides of his face.

At the age of 24, Kai’s dad was pronounced dead. Kai had stuck many of his dad’s life lessons and teachings in his head, but he felt guilty for not being able to accomplish the one and only thing his dad wanted him to do. So he promised himself that he would try his best to make himself fall in love with Jennie Kim. However, nothing ever goes smoothly in life, especially when he met Soobin , his ride or die. The two simply met during a meet up with their respective friend groups. But things started to go better and hotter until they decided to become a hidden item due to the circumstances set upon them.

For the past 2 years, the pair have gone on several secret dates. Soobin would sneak out of her home right before the dark hours of night, only to be greeted with the man in leather jacket waiting on his Harley. It became a routinely rebellious hangout that happened every week and today was no different. Getting off the Harley, Soobin felt entranced at the sight of the dimly lit structure standing in front of her. She’d always go to parties and events at the most exclusive destinations and often times, she would get sick of them and needed a break. And the sight right here, with the love of her life now standing in front of her with his hands up and above as if showing off the place, was the perfect break she could ever ask for. In fact, perfect would be an understatement.

A smile now plastered her face and Kai would swear that the look on Soobin’s face gave him the world. He ran straight up to her with his arms sneaking their way around her petite waist, spinning her around like a child. Setting her down, their bodies kept in contact, but their eyes were inches apart, their lips were centimeters apart, and their souls were completely full of the each other’s presence. Kai kissed the lips that were of an ant’s distance, which only caused a surge of fireworks throughout his body. Soobin pulled away with cheeks red as beet, as she turned around, detaching herself from him, before running away in embarrassment. Kai ran around trying to catch her as he joked around in laughter. Soobin grew tired of roaming around in laughter and before she knew it, Kai pulled her in with her back against his as if in fear of losing her. He spun her around and carried her to sit on top of the railing with his hands as the barrier for her back. The two went for another peck on the lips before going in.

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After settling down in the room after goofing around, the two jumped to the bed. Soobin scooched to Kai’s arm that was waiting to be occupied. Her fingers traced the tattoos that were peeking behind his shirt. She trailed down her finger beyond his shirt in attempt to draw out the full picture, only seeming to be a tickle for Kai. With their laughter turning dimmer and dimmer, with now only their calming breaths filling in the empty space, Soobin confessed, “I wish this could go on for forever”.

“You’re not the only one.” Kai answered with his face tilting to look at her with a shy smile.  

Then, came the silence that was no other than the consequence of their love.

“You know, being with you, here in this ‘in the middle of nowhere’ place… I feel different” She ended, moving her head to meet his sparkling eyes.

“Different how? Different bad? Different goo-“

“Different, ‘you make me feel amazing’ different” She said, eyes now meeting his. “Know that you will forever be a part of me, no matter what” She ended, tilting her head down shying away.

“A part of you? Why not be a part and beside you?” Kai questioned, confusion evident in his voice.

“You have a duty that you owe.” She reminded.

“Why is that a problem? I can achieve both my duty to my family and to myself at the same time.” His voice argues.

Rising to a sit, Soobin moved farther from Kai and off the bed. “Kai, you can’t possibly pursue me and have Jennie too. I know how much your duty to your father means to you and so do I to my family. We can never get our own happily ever after.”

“What do you mean ‘have Jennie? Look I still stick by my principles and duties but satisfying my family’s duty doesn’t mean I have to be by her side forever. We’re good friends and that’s all. Nothing more, nothing less. And about our families… with time, it’ll all work out. I know it. I believe in us, Soobin .” his words turning to whispers, moving off to close his distance with her.

Soobin knew better than anyone that her and Kai would never be able to be. She had her duty to her family, but there was a bigger part of her that wanted to just drop everything and run away with him.

Shaking her head, Soobin cuts her gaze with him and rushes away and farther. “No. No Kai! It doesn’t work like that. She and you have been connected longer than I have with you and we both know that she likes, if not, love you. I’m not going to be the one sitting here as your hidden partner with her going around you all day. And I won’t make you one either. I, too, have a duty to my own family, generations worth of hard work and success I have to continue… besides, my parents invited the son of BC Industries to come over this weekend.” She claimed, eyes away with a voice now stern and fierce but with a heart that pierced and teared.

One second and the silence saturated the space between them. Soobin finally takes a turn to him with quiet tears running down her face. She moved closer to the man in front of her and placed her right hand over his left cheek as if framing it in attempt to remember his face that she has been loving with all her might. However, it only only caused both of their sights to flood in sadness and despair, leading them both to heavy tears.

“… So will you be with him? Won’t you fight for us?” Kai interrogates weakly, evident that he could break down any moment. “Forget about me. Please…” she pleaded, now with heavy tears exposing her sadness.

“We should go…” Soobin said snapping herself out of the moment as she turns around and grabs her belonging. She proceeded to open the door about to leave the room only to feel a sudden rush of the wind, of his figure to be exactly behind her. "I'm sorry I'm the reason behind your tears" he apologized in a whisper to her Soobin that sent a rush down through her body. His teardrop fell onto her clothed shoulder and she could feel her heart being crushed into a million pieces, but she closed her eyes and took a deep breath before opening them up with her chin up before walking out.

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A week has gone by and Soobin never heard from Kai ever since that night but it felt like a year has gone by. She would count the stars out the window in the midst of her room’s darkness and wonder about Kai’s whereabouts. “Is he happy? Is he lonely? Is he having a good time with Jennie? Has he forgotten about me?” she wondered inside her head, leaving her heart to break into million pieces.

“Soobin-ah, you got a package! A big box!” Soobin’s mom informed from the living room. “Coming!” replied Soobin before she sighs as if exhaling her crowded head.

Rushing downstairs, she was greeted with a big green box with a pastel pink ribbon around it. “Do you know who sent it?” Her mom asking in curiosity but also worry with her prior knowledge of her daughter being involved with Kai.

Soobin reaches out to hold the cover of the box and lifted it open to be greeted with the most beautiful blue roses that were aligned perfectly full. She knew who sent it, why he sent it, but she hated it because this has just made her fall deeper into love with Kim Jongin. She felt an envelope on the back of the cover and proceeded to detach it. She took the folded piece of paper and read the note stuck onto it, “When you smile, I shine together with you. When you cry, I break together with you. I’m sorry I’ve let you down. Give me a chance to let you know that I love you, only you. <3” In that moment, Soobin didn’t care whether her family said no, or if her head insisted it. She knew at that very second that she would fight for what made her truly happy.  

You Don’t Have To Be Alone

Description: Kai loved Mina, and Mina loved Kai; But sometimes love wasn't enough. Throughout their make ups and break ups, they always found their way back to each other. What happens when they've both finally had enough? What happens when they push each other to their limits and their relationship ultimately comes to an end? Can they find their way back to each other throughout all the hurt and the pain?

Genre: angst, fluff, romance

Word Count: 3,235

Pairing: Kim Jongin (Kai) x OC (Kwon Mina)

(A/N: This is my first fanfic! I hope you guys like it. Please let me know what you think!) 

“You know what? Fuck this Kai. I’m done.” 

Kai flinched at the mention of his name. She never called him by ‘Kai’, with her it was always Jongin. He knew instantly that she meant what she said. He swallowed the lump in his throat. 

“Fine. Leave then, get out here.” 

Mina laughed bitterly. “You don’t need to tell me twice.” 

She spun around and headed for their bedroom angrily, slamming the door open. 

Kai let out a ragged breath. ‘Fuck.’ He wanted to stop her, he knew he should stop her; but there was always one recurring issue for the two of them: their pride. 

Kai and Mina had been dating for 4 years. Things started off amazing for the two of them. Kai knew after he met her that he couldn’t leave her; it was as if he knew then and there that she was the one. 

Flashback

To say that Mina was exhausted was an understatement. It was almost the end of her 12 hour shift at the hospital and the Emergency Department was only getting busier. 

She glanced down at her watch: 6:30 PM. 

‘Ugh… 1 more hour. I can do this, I can overcome this.’ She rolled her neck from side to side, hearing the distinct crack. 

“Gross, you should really stop that!” 

She turned towards the voice and smiled at her best friend Lee Yejin. She turned from side to side, cracking her spine whilst smirking at her friend. 

“Yah! Mina I’m serious I hate that sound!” Mina swung her arm around her best friend and laughed. 

“Ah come on, you’re still not used to it after all these years?” 

Yejin rolled her eyes. “You’re disgusting. By the way, patient just came in in bed 5. I know you’re off right away so I gave you the easiest admission.” 

She bent down and kissed her friend’s cheek. “Lee Yejin you are a life saver! Saranghae!” 

She quickly pulled away from her, grabbed the patient’s chart and rushed towards Bed 5. S

he could hear her friend making gagging noises. 

“Aish! Mina you’re disgusting! We’re nurses, we need to be clean!” 

She couldn’t help but laugh at her best friend, after 4 years in nursing and 3 years working at the emergency department she was positive her friend had some form of OCD. She was very particular, that one.

 Mina paused by the nurses desk in front of Bed 5 and skimmed through the patient’s chart quickly. Kim Jongin, 25 year old male… query transverse tibial fracture to left foot.

‘Hm, sounds easy enough…’

She placed the chart down and walked towards the nearest vital signs machine. She sanitized her hands and rolled the machine towards his bed. Mina peered through the curtains and smiled. 

“Annyeong, my name is Mina. I’ll be your nurse today.” 

She surveyed the man before her, like she usually did with every patient. She had to admit… he was quite the looker. For the whole day she had been dealing with elderly patients, patients in their late 50’s, and some babies and toddlers. 

He was the first patient she had today that was her age. She observed his tanned skin, and his sharp jaw line. 

‘Damn… he’s a cutie’ she thought. 

She wasn’t the type to check her patient’s out, unless it was for assessments. She usually kept her work professional, but she couldn’t help it if the guy basically looked like a Greek god! Did she mention his hair? His hair just fell above his face perfectly and she was almost tempted to pull a Mean Girl’s and say: “Your hair looks sexy pushed back” 

‘Shit. Mina snap out of it, you’re at work!’ 

She focused her attention back on actually assessing him. He didn’t seem to be in too much pain but his eyebrows were furrowed. He was laying down on his bed with his left leg elevated on a pillow. He bowed his head towards her slowly. 

Kai did not expect her to look like that. To be frank, he was expecting a nurse somewhere in her late 40’s to be taking care of him today but he was not going to complain with the sight before him. She looked to be about 5’’5, her jet black hair was tied up in a high ponytail and although she was in mere scrubs, she could clearly see her figure. 

He could tell she was fit and if he wasn’t focused on the pain from his foot, he would definitely be distracted by her curves. He could easily see her cleavage peaking through her scrub top. 

‘Right... I should probably introduce myself.’ He coughed awkwardly, “I’m Kai.” 

She rolled the vital sign machine towards the left side of the bed. 

“Oh your chart says Jongin, did you prefer Kai?” 

He shrugged. “Either is fine actually, everyone just calls me Kai…” 

She smiled and he swore he probably would have been admitted for heart palpitations right then and there. Her smile was blinding, and her dimples ignited butterflies in his stomach. Since when the fuck did he get butterflies?

“Araso, I’ll call you Kai then. Do you mind if I check your ID band?” she gestured to his wrist. 

He shook his head. “Ani, go ahead…” She took his hand in hers and he felt a jolt of electricity run through his hands at the sudden contact. 

‘What the fuck is wrong with me…’ he thought. 

“Can you tell me your date of birth?” 

“January 14, 1994.” 

“Perfect. Sorry, it’s a standard procedure. Gotta make sure we have the right patient,” she winked at him. She fucking winked at him. He felt the wind get knocked right out of him. He forgot what he was even in for. 

He nodded. “Has that ever happened to you? Getting the wrong patient?”  

She laughed and nodded. 

Her laugh was like music to his ears. 

“Oh you wouldn’t believe some of the patient’s we get sometimes…” 

He smiled. “Chincha? Are they… not normal?” He didn’t know a better way of putting it. 

She laughed again. “Well, working at the emergency department really changes your definition of normal… but you’re definitely my type of normal!” 

He smirked. “I don’t know, I could be some kind of creepy psycho.” 

She gave him the up and down and chuckled. “I doubt you’re a psycho, you look too good to be some creepy ahjussi.” 

He smirked again. “Did you just say I looked good?” 

‘Shit, I just did… didn’t I? OK, play it off Kwon Mina! Play it off!’ She shrugged.

“I am a nurse, I kind of have to assess you. From my observation you seem like a fit individual. You’re not out of breath or breathing too hard from the pain or anything; Your chart says you have a possible fracture and for you to be acting as calm as you are, you must have a high pain tolerance. Which reminds me, on a scale from 0-10, zero being no pain at all and 10 being the worst pain you’ve ever felt, how’s your pain?” 

‘Damn, she got me there. I feel stupid now’ he thought. ‘Oh right she’s asking me a question’ 

He glanced down at his foot and shrugged. “A 5 maybe?” 

She nodded. “Does the pain radiate, or stay in one place? How would you describe the pain? I’m going to take your vitals by the way.”

He shook his head. “It’s just in one area, by my ankle. It’s just a sharp and constant pain.” 

Mina nodded. “I’m just going to take your blood pressure first, try to relax your arm as much as possible.” She took the blood pressure cuff from the vital sign machine and placed it over his bicep, her face hovering just inches away from his. 

He sucked in a breath from the sudden closeness. 

‘Wow, he is really fit… his biceps are sexy.’ She leaned back and pressed the button on the machine, then grabbed the thermometer. “I’ll just stick this under your tongue for a bit.” 

‘The things I could do to her with my tongue… wait holy fuck. I need to stop..’ thought Kai. He lifted his tongue up as she inserted the thermometer. 

As the machine beeped, she removed all instruments from his body. “Hmm, so your blood pressure is 143/95, pulse is at 89 and temperature is at 37.8. Which is normal! Your body is likely reacting to the trauma from your foot so these readings are within normal limits.” 

He wasn’t really paying attention. He could really only focus on her. 

Mina continued with the rest of her assessment until she was finished. She left the room briefly to call the doctor with her findings and returned shortly after.

“So doctor Hwang will be here shortly. I’ve communicated my findings with him but I suspect it’s just a transverse fracture. From here he’ll order an x-ray for you to confirm and you’ll most likely get a cast, nothing too invasive; he can do the procedure at the best side. Do you have any questions for me Kai-ssi? Anything else I can do for you?” 

Kai gulped. He was going to take the chance. He couldn’t remember the last time he was so shaken by a woman he had only met. He never felt such attraction for someone in ages and it was rare for him to react this way. He figured he would try and ask her out, something he had never done before.

‘Man the fuck up Kai, you can do this.’ 

“Uhm so how long will I be here for? Do I need to stay overnight?” 

Mina shook her head and smiled. “Nope! You should be out by tonight. My shift is almost over so you can ask the oncoming nurse to make a call for someone to pick you up. I highly oppose you driving in your condition.” 

‘Damn. She’s leaving soon, I really have to ask her out… or for her number or something!’ 

“So I won’t see you again?” ‘That was fucking smooth Kai, way to go...’ he thought dreadfully. 

“E-eh?” 

Kai swallowed hard. “I- I don’t know a better way to say this but I’m really attracted to you Ms. Kwon. I understand we didn’t really meet on the most ideal circumstances but I was wondering if I could have your number? M-maybe take you on a date?” he said nervously. He felt all the color drain from his face, he couldn’t believe he just did that. 

She looked at him surprisingly. Granted, he wasn’t the first person to ask her out but he certainly was the most attractive one. Still, rules are rules. 

“Sorry Mr. Kim, I don’t date patients” she smiled. 

He frowned. ‘So this is what crushing my hopes feels like’ 

Before he could retort, there was a knock on the door and in entered Doctor Hwang. He turned towards Mina and smiled. 

“Kamsahamnida Mina-ssi, I’ll take it from here,” he turned towards Kai and bowed. 

“Hi Mr. Kim, my name is Doctor Hwang, I’m sure Mina has explained to you your plan of care. Do you have any questions?” Kai couldn’t stop staring at Mina. He wished he had met her in different circumstances. 

Mina felt uncomfortable being in the same room as someone she just rejected; she bowed towards the two males. 

“Well I’ll take my leave then. I’ll see you around Doctor Hwang, please take care of Mr. Kim” She locked eyes with Kai and smiled sadly. “Take Care Kai-ssi.” 

With that, she turned around and left. Kai literally felt like he was just dumped.

Suddenly the pain in his foot was no more and he could only feel a sharp, aching pain in his chest. ‘I wish I wasn’t a fucking patient.’ 

But indeed, wishes do come true. 

2 months later, Kai was accompanying his friend Chanyeol to the same hospital. The rest of the guys were busy and Chanyeol was experiencing severe abdominal pain, he was the only one that could drive him. 

Kai walked towards the vending machine, in need of a drink. As he approached it, his breath stopped. He knew that figure, no one could look that good in a pair of scrubs. He walked to the vending machine slowly. Mina picked up her drink from the slot and turned around, only for her eyes to widen at the man before her. 

“Oh… Kai-ssi…” 

It was now or never. He wasn’t a patient and she was right there. He approached her until he was face to face with her. 

She blinked up, her lashes batting towards him. He forgot how plush her lips looked… 

“So. Ms. Kwon. I’m not a patient anymore… Can I please take you out?” 

Mina couldn’t help but smirk at him. She crossed her arms over her chest and laughed. “Persistent, are we?” 

Kai nodded. “I- I can’t figure it out. There was something about you.” 

She snorted. “Ah come on, it’s just cause I took care of you. That’s probably it.”

 He shook his head. “No, it’s not that...” 

She squinted towards him. “Do you have a nurse fetish?” 

Kai choked on his saliva, not expecting the bluntness of her comment. 

“N-no! I-“ 

She laughed. “I’m kidding! Relax..” 

He let out a deep breath. “I mean, I won’t deny. You’re really hot in those scrubs…” 

That peeked her interest. “Araso. I like your honesty, and I won’t lie either. You’re probably the most good looking patient I’ve had around here.” 

He couldn’t help but smirk. “Really now?” 

She rolled her eyes. “Hand me your phone.” 

He didn’t need to be told twice. He reached for his pocket and unlocked his phone, handing it towards her. She took the phone in her hands, and dialled her own number. She felt her phone vibrate from her scrub pocket and ended the call after a few rings, saving her number on his phone. 

“There. I’m warning you now though, I have crazy hours.” 

He shrugged. “You’re worth the time.” 

She smiled and shook her head. “Stubborn, aren’t you? Well, I have to get going, breaks almost over. I guess I’ll see you around?” 

Kai smiled at her in return. “Yes. You will.” 

She took the drink can from out of her pocket and waved towards him. 

Kai couldn’t help but watch her figure disappear. When she disappeared, he pumped his fists excitedly in the air. He felt like a stupid little school boy who just got confessed to by his crush. He settled down quickly and heard his phone ring, signalling a text. He opened up his phone and smiled silly. 

Sexy Nurse Mina: Glad you’re not my patient today. 

‘Holy fuck. She saved her name as Sexy Nurse… Oh my God. This girl will be the death of me…’ 

END OF FLASHBACK 

Kai fell for her instantly. She wasn’t like the other girls he had dated. She was independent, strong-willed but kind and caring. She wasn’t overly girly but she had a sense of maturity that was so sexy and captivating to him. Not to mention, his friends fell in love with her too. They were perfect for each other… or so they all thought. 

Everything was great, their first year together was practically flawless. They were so in love with each other it made everyone around them feel lonely, and jealous but you couldn’t help but admire their love for one another. 

Things started to go to shit when Mina got promoted to a nurse manager. Her schedule got busier, and although they lived together, they barely saw one another. Although Kai was understanding at first, he couldn’t help but become bitter and angry over their scarce encounters. Eventually, Kai started accusing of having affairs. 

He knew he was being unreasonable and he knew that Mina would never do that to him, but it was as if his mind spoke for himself. Needless to say, they broke up after that. The two proved that their love was strong enough when they got back together, they really couldn’t be away from one another. Kai managed to accept her busy schedule and they both made it work. 

Until Kai started going out too much. He would come home late with his friends, drunk out of his mind. Mina ignored it, thinking that he was just trying to occupy his time. Until one day after work, her and her colleagues decided to go out and unwind. That was when she caught him kissing some skinny bimbo. They broke up again after that. 

Mina moved out momentarily and to everyone’s surprise, she stayed with her ex-boyfriend: Kris Wu. Nothing happened between the two, aside from meaningless makeout-sessions to fill the void of being single and lonely. When Kai found out where she was staying he lost his shit. It took months for him to win her back and naturally, she took him back; she always took him back. 

They lost count of how many times they “took a break” or “broke up”. Mina could no longer trust Kai, but she still stuck around. Kai was too insecure and it reflected in the way he spoke to her and treated her. Their relationship was no longer perfect, but tainted with toxicity. 

Twenty agonizing minutes passed and Kai resisted every urge in his body to chase after Mina in their room and show how sorry he was. His pride and his ego was too important to him. He looked up towards her from the couch as she exited their room. Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy. 

‘I caused that…’ 

He glanced in her hand and saw a duffel bag. His stomach dropped and he felt his heart clench in his chest. He swallowed the lump in his throat. 

“Where are you going?” He managed to croak out. 

She glared in his direction. “Granting your wish. I’m leaving. I’ll pick up the rest of my shit while you’re out.” 

He felt like someone was slowly, agonizingly, stabbing him in the heart. She wouldn’t leave, would she? She promised that she wouldn’t leave him anymore… 

She walked towards the front door and to his dismay, she was already crouching down and putting on her shoes. ‘Just fucking stop her Kai... Tell her you’re sorry!’ He could only watch as she stood up from her crouched position and how she held the doorknob. Would she even look in his direction? Would she even say bye? Did he deserve that? 

Mina let out a shaky breath. She tried everything in her power not to breakdown in front of him. Why wasn’t he stopping her? Why couldn’t he just wrap his arms around her and apologize… just like he used to? 

‘Right. He’s changed. He’s not the Jongin I used to know, the Jongin I loved…’ 

She reached for the doorknob and opened it slowly, leaving enough room for her to slip outside. 

“Goodbye Kai.” 

Kai didn’t know how long he stared at the door, hoping it would all be some sort of cruel prank. Hoping she’d come back, hoping that maybe she forgot something and he could ask her to stay, to work things out… But he knew how badly he fucked up. Things were never going to be the same. 

His whole life, his world just walked out of the door and he did nothing to try and stop her.