Forbidden Memory

Forbidden Memory

Pairing : Reader x Jongin

Genre: Angst

Word count: 1700~

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Sitting at the back of Kai’s Harley, Soobin’s arms tighten around Kai’s waist with her head planted on his right shoulder as she looks farther away into the scenery of the brilliant red and orange sunset reflected on the waves of the wide ocean view. Setting her lids to a close, she straightens her head to parallel Kai’s as she slowly comes back to sight, being greeted with the sight of his eyes that gave her the world, his lips that brought butterflies to her stomach, and his scent that completely hypnotizes her. All before reality hits with the fact that this paradise will very soon come to an end. It was the sad truth for the both of them, that their love may never be approved by their families. Soobin is the eldest child of the Lee Empire. From the second she was born, her fate was to be the heir of LeeTech. Everything was set for her, from schools that she would attend all the way to the partner she would build her family with. Kai, on the other hand, is the youngest and only son to his family. Being the youngest and only son, his parents were lenient with the things he chose to do and the person he chose to become. He has it all on himself, except for one thing; his partner and lover.

Growing up, Kai looked up to his dad. Mr. Kim had started from being a mere employee at SK Motors and worked his way up to being the director of SK Motors. During his dad’s promotion dinner with the owner of SK Motors, he was introduced to their daughter, Jennie Kim. Ever since then, the 16-year-old Jennie set her eyes on the 18-year-old Kai whom she dreams to make her prince. It was after that night when Kai’s dad would start praising Jennie whenever he was around. At the age of 20, he was called by his parents and told that he was expected to wed Jennie when the time comes. He didn’t think it was fair at all because he didn’t feel the same way, so he rebelled. He turned himself into a reckless and immature young man in everybody’s eyes, which continued for years until one day a phone call arrived while he was at his hideout alone admiring the night sky. “Kai… come to MyungDam hospital…” his sister greeted him, evident in her voice that the reason behind that request was not something he’d ever want to hear. “Why?” he asked hesitantly, attempting to sound carefree in the midst of his fear. “Dad has been diagnosed with lung cancer.” His ears and heart went numb.

Nothing was ever the same again. Ever since then, Kai had always tried to stay by his dad’s side, trying to redeem himself for all the things that he’s done. One night, his dad held onto his hand while laying down on the hospital bed. At the sound of his weakening voice, it took everything he had to try to stop the sadness from showing and the tears from running. “Kai… my one and only son…Dad wants to make a wish. Will you help me achieve it?” Kai stays quiet trying to calm himself down by looking away from his dad’s eyes. “I wish that you would forgive me for the things that I have pressured you to do. Dad just wants you to find your own happiness. Forget who you marry, who you become. I believe in you, that you will make the right decisions for yourself and the family. You already bring so much joy into our family and that’s all we want from you. Please also help dad take care of your mom and your sisters, okay? Please let them know not to be too sad.” His dad finished with a tear running down the sides of his face.

At the age of 24, Kai’s dad was pronounced dead. Kai had stuck many of his dad’s life lessons and teachings in his head, but he felt guilty for not being able to accomplish the one and only thing his dad wanted him to do. So he promised himself that he would try his best to make himself fall in love with Jennie Kim. However, nothing ever goes smoothly in life, especially when he met Soobin , his ride or die. The two simply met during a meet up with their respective friend groups. But things started to go better and hotter until they decided to become a hidden item due to the circumstances set upon them.

For the past 2 years, the pair have gone on several secret dates. Soobin would sneak out of her home right before the dark hours of night, only to be greeted with the man in leather jacket waiting on his Harley. It became a routinely rebellious hangout that happened every week and today was no different. Getting off the Harley, Soobin felt entranced at the sight of the dimly lit structure standing in front of her. She’d always go to parties and events at the most exclusive destinations and often times, she would get sick of them and needed a break. And the sight right here, with the love of her life now standing in front of her with his hands up and above as if showing off the place, was the perfect break she could ever ask for. In fact, perfect would be an understatement.

A smile now plastered her face and Kai would swear that the look on Soobin’s face gave him the world. He ran straight up to her with his arms sneaking their way around her petite waist, spinning her around like a child. Setting her down, their bodies kept in contact, but their eyes were inches apart, their lips were centimeters apart, and their souls were completely full of the each other’s presence. Kai kissed the lips that were of an ant’s distance, which only caused a surge of fireworks throughout his body. Soobin pulled away with cheeks red as beet, as she turned around, detaching herself from him, before running away in embarrassment. Kai ran around trying to catch her as he joked around in laughter. Soobin grew tired of roaming around in laughter and before she knew it, Kai pulled her in with her back against his as if in fear of losing her. He spun her around and carried her to sit on top of the railing with his hands as the barrier for her back. The two went for another peck on the lips before going in.

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After settling down in the room after goofing around, the two jumped to the bed. Soobin scooched to Kai’s arm that was waiting to be occupied. Her fingers traced the tattoos that were peeking behind his shirt. She trailed down her finger beyond his shirt in attempt to draw out the full picture, only seeming to be a tickle for Kai. With their laughter turning dimmer and dimmer, with now only their calming breaths filling in the empty space, Soobin confessed, “I wish this could go on for forever”.

“You’re not the only one.” Kai answered with his face tilting to look at her with a shy smile.  

Then, came the silence that was no other than the consequence of their love.

“You know, being with you, here in this ‘in the middle of nowhere’ place… I feel different” She ended, moving her head to meet his sparkling eyes.

“Different how? Different bad? Different goo-“

“Different, ‘you make me feel amazing’ different” She said, eyes now meeting his. “Know that you will forever be a part of me, no matter what” She ended, tilting her head down shying away.

“A part of you? Why not be a part and beside you?” Kai questioned, confusion evident in his voice.

“You have a duty that you owe.” She reminded.

“Why is that a problem? I can achieve both my duty to my family and to myself at the same time.” His voice argues.

Rising to a sit, Soobin moved farther from Kai and off the bed. “Kai, you can’t possibly pursue me and have Jennie too. I know how much your duty to your father means to you and so do I to my family. We can never get our own happily ever after.”

“What do you mean ‘have Jennie? Look I still stick by my principles and duties but satisfying my family’s duty doesn’t mean I have to be by her side forever. We’re good friends and that’s all. Nothing more, nothing less. And about our families… with time, it’ll all work out. I know it. I believe in us, Soobin .” his words turning to whispers, moving off to close his distance with her.

Soobin knew better than anyone that her and Kai would never be able to be. She had her duty to her family, but there was a bigger part of her that wanted to just drop everything and run away with him.

Shaking her head, Soobin cuts her gaze with him and rushes away and farther. “No. No Kai! It doesn’t work like that. She and you have been connected longer than I have with you and we both know that she likes, if not, love you. I’m not going to be the one sitting here as your hidden partner with her going around you all day. And I won’t make you one either. I, too, have a duty to my own family, generations worth of hard work and success I have to continue… besides, my parents invited the son of BC Industries to come over this weekend.” She claimed, eyes away with a voice now stern and fierce but with a heart that pierced and teared.

One second and the silence saturated the space between them. Soobin finally takes a turn to him with quiet tears running down her face. She moved closer to the man in front of her and placed her right hand over his left cheek as if framing it in attempt to remember his face that she has been loving with all her might. However, it only only caused both of their sights to flood in sadness and despair, leading them both to heavy tears.

“… So will you be with him? Won’t you fight for us?” Kai interrogates weakly, evident that he could break down any moment. “Forget about me. Please…” she pleaded, now with heavy tears exposing her sadness.

“We should go…” Soobin said snapping herself out of the moment as she turns around and grabs her belonging. She proceeded to open the door about to leave the room only to feel a sudden rush of the wind, of his figure to be exactly behind her. "I'm sorry I'm the reason behind your tears" he apologized in a whisper to her Soobin that sent a rush down through her body. His teardrop fell onto her clothed shoulder and she could feel her heart being crushed into a million pieces, but she closed her eyes and took a deep breath before opening them up with her chin up before walking out.

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A week has gone by and Soobin never heard from Kai ever since that night but it felt like a year has gone by. She would count the stars out the window in the midst of her room’s darkness and wonder about Kai’s whereabouts. “Is he happy? Is he lonely? Is he having a good time with Jennie? Has he forgotten about me?” she wondered inside her head, leaving her heart to break into million pieces.

“Soobin-ah, you got a package! A big box!” Soobin’s mom informed from the living room. “Coming!” replied Soobin before she sighs as if exhaling her crowded head.

Rushing downstairs, she was greeted with a big green box with a pastel pink ribbon around it. “Do you know who sent it?” Her mom asking in curiosity but also worry with her prior knowledge of her daughter being involved with Kai.

Soobin reaches out to hold the cover of the box and lifted it open to be greeted with the most beautiful blue roses that were aligned perfectly full. She knew who sent it, why he sent it, but she hated it because this has just made her fall deeper into love with Kim Jongin. She felt an envelope on the back of the cover and proceeded to detach it. She took the folded piece of paper and read the note stuck onto it, “When you smile, I shine together with you. When you cry, I break together with you. I’m sorry I’ve let you down. Give me a chance to let you know that I love you, only you. <3” In that moment, Soobin didn’t care whether her family said no, or if her head insisted it. She knew at that very second that she would fight for what made her truly happy.  

Never wore my hair up

To cover my insecurity 

But when you whispered 

I looked so pretty 

Now I walk around

With my hair clipped round 

Striding down into the crowd 

Knowing i’ll catch you astound

We were an experiment 

You were all skin 

While I was all in 

Trials now left in our pasts

You were all about trying it out

Knowing what I had sought out 

Now I’m left wounded 

With you leaving filled

It was midnight

We whispered sweet nothings

Now it's ten past nine

And i look forward to dreaming

Feels so surreal 

The dreams you dominate

Abstract, raw, and real 

The dark nights that you paint

Thought we were smart 

We wouldn't play with heart

Guess now I'm the cheater

My heart you've pleasured

As i force this chapter closed

You made me feel part of love

You made me love you

You made me feel whole

And now

You will always be my first heartbreak 

You will always be my first jerk

and I will wonder if we could’ve worked 

Mistakenly Purchased Item

HIGH SCHOOL! AU 

Paring: Haechan x OC

Genre: Fluff 

Word Count: 1509 

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Another day of school means another day of responsibilities and things to do. You walked down the hallway 5 minutes before school had started, when you soon arrived at your locker wanting to take your books for the next periods.

You turned the combination to your lock when your eyes were met with his locker, your best friend’s locker, which was two lockers away from yours. Your hand unconsciously stopped moving with your thoughts that was occupied with what had happened last night.

Sunday Night

Sitted and sprawled across the 2-meter-wide couch. You and your best friend, Haechan, put all your focus towards the TV screen in front of you showing the breaking relationship between Troy and Gabriela.

“Why do you keep on saying goodbye?” Troy questions Gabriela.

You were looking forward to Gabriela's answer before you were met with a touch on your hand, in which your eyes immediately directed itself towards the touch. Haechan had his hand on yours which was of no surprise, since you guys had been close friends for years now, but when you attempted to look up at him, you were met with his face tilted down towards the sight of your hand under his.

“Haechan, are you being emotional right now? haha” you asked your friend, shifting your body towards him, with your face tilted upwards at his eyes.

“Will you promise to remember me when we leave for college?” He asked with an unusually different tone.

“Of course, I am, Silly” you said with a hint of laughter heard. You removed your hand from his and folded your arms attempting to focus on the movie.

Before you were able to listen back, he took your hand again, except this time, he does it so delicately.

“I have another question.”

“Shoot.”

“I first thought of this question in 10th grade when we were just getting to know each other. I realized that you were the only one who was able to comfort me during my highs and lows. But I didn’t realize that I was feeling a sort of way until I felt angry when you were sad, until I felt content when you were happy, until I felt overjoyed when I was able to cheer you up. I never realized that you were able to make me feel this way and I’ve been asking myself thousands of times, but I’m always greeted with the same answer and feeling. Seoyeon, I love you so much and I want to be with you when you’re happy, sad, lonely; I want to spend each passing day with you because I love you so much, deeply.”

“Are you crazy?!” You stood up from the couch, facing down towards him.

“No, I’m not. I’ve never felt this sane before in my entire life. I love you and I mean it… do you not love me?”

“Well…”

There was silence. You didn’t know whether you loved him or not. You never thought about love, especially not with him. But you wanted to love, it’s just that you didn’t know how to and you felt like you didn’t deserve him enough

Minutes had passed when before he voiced,

“How about this? Say I’m the mistakenly purchased item but you may or may not return me back”

“What is that supposed to mean? What do you want me to do with you?”

“If you wish to accept my love, don’t return me back. If not, give me back to the shop and tell me you’re returning me.”

“But-“

“I’ll see you tomorrow in school.” He ended, leaving you with no time to voice out a single word. Every second of that night became suffocating and confusing as you weren’t able to get him out of your thoughts and you were just utterly frustrated cause the longer you thought about him, the more you felt your heart beating by the thought of him.

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You were woken up back to reality by the bell indicating that it was a minute before homeroom. You directed your eyes back to your books placed in your locker, taking out the ones you needed for the next periods.

You closed your locker, getting ready to turn to your classroom. You stood straight back up, with your left arm half-hugging your stack of books. You turned around to be greeted by him. Haechan. Standing in front of you with his right arm stretched out to the top of your locker. You squirmed and shifted, your back now fully in contact with the lockers and your books simply brought in to your chest with your right hand securing them in a hug.

Vision occupied with only his broad chest that was less than 30 cm away from yours. Your breathing paused, and your eyes entranced by nothing except for his close figure. Heart thumping faster and louder, it was as though you could lose strength in your legs any time from the shock and fast thumping heart. What this feeling was called or whatever it indicated, you didn’t wish to know. But one thing you do know and are familiar with is his cologne that he had received from you as a random gift two months ago and you loved the scent.

All five of your senses were now occupied with him and him only, until he came back down, with feet full on ground, and face just inches away from yours. He was looking down at his book that you assumed he just took from the top. He diverted his eyes onto your still face, wide-eyed and evident with shock.

“Surprised, are you?” He teased moving his face slightly closer with a smirk.

You stayed silent, but ironically, your heart was louder than you wished it was.

“Breathe.” He commanded.

You snapped out of it, before nudging his left shoulder with your free right arm.

“What the heck? Stop fooling around.” You said, using all your will to avoid eye contact, shifting your body to the left, and fanning yourself.

“Someone’s shy. Why? Do you feel your heart beating for me?” He moved his face down to your level to look for your shy brown orbs.

“Shut up. We’re late for class. Come on.” You advised him.

You took one step forward, and you swore to everything good that you wanted to slap yourself because as he magically stepped forwards, setting his body close, you unconsciously moved back until you were met with the clean white walls, giving him permission for whatever access. He stretched and placed his right hand on the wall, and in that moment, you wanted to smile at his competitiveness in trying to appeal to you which was, surprisingly, working. BUT NOPE, you can’t. Just can’t cause what will other people think? You didn’t know, and you didn’t want to know. But you were just scared that if anything else happened, it would hurt your friendship.

“Why do you pretend like you don’t like it? I know better than anyone that you do” Eyes shooting lasers into yours.

Your mind couldn’t get a hold of itself as you felt yourself falling deeper into the desire for his love. You didn’t know what hit you, but you dropped your books and your arms did the unthinkable. Your hands encircled themselves around his neck. You hear your mind scream for you to stop, but you knew your heart was rooting for you. You looked up into his eyes, that were filled with shock, as you were now the relaxed and mischievous one.

“Surprised?” You asked.

You were greeted with his mouth opened, appalled, as you lightly whisper into his ear on the side.

“Breathe. Cause I’m choosing to keep you, Mr. Mistakenly Purchased Item.” You said, placing a light peck on his lips.

You could see that he was back to his sense, as he moved his hands from the wall and his side and brought your body closer to his, arms resting around your waist. He rushed his lips to yours, initiating a deep kiss that was filled with fireworks and sensation. Your lips moved continuously, with your sight turning pitch black. His hands moved themselves up your body, taking you in for a passionate hug.

After letting go, you two giggled upon meeting each other’s eyes, with your figures still stuck in each other’s arms.

“I love you” You confessed.

“I loved you first” He argued, now leaving you, knowing that you were going to come for him.

“What the heck was that? Come over here!” You said loudly as he was now on the other side of the hallway, in which you began to run.

You turned left to catch up with him when your left hand was held on and your body pulled to the side, where you found yourself back in his arms.

You looked at him with loving eyes, hearts beating the loudest and your stomach doing cartwheels, as you realized just how lucky you were to have him and how right it feels to be with his.

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I’ll Be Yours

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 761

Pairing: HAECHAN X OC 

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“Number 13, going up the court and making his shot! AND HE SCORES!!” Haechan announced as he runs across the empty basketball court dribbling the ball hours after practice had ended.

“HEY! Quit talking to yourself, I’m gonna start being concerned for you” you half-screamed, leaning onto the door frame with arms crossed.

“Welcome to my biggest fan! Seoyeon!” He said, winking at you as he walked closer in your direction.

Basketball practice was over hours ago but Haechan told you that he wanted some extra practice today so he told you to wait for him since you had to stay for some science project as well.

You could see the sweat that covered all his exposed skin, with drops of sweat that hung by the strands of his damp hair. You took the towel that hung by your shoulder and tossed it to him.

“Stop being such a sass. It’s disgusting.” you rolled your eyes at him, walking across the court only to stop in the middle where he, too, halted his steps.

Haechan smirked as he took your hand and walked you to the side where his gym bag was. “But you like it” he said, holding onto his water bottle and gulping down the liquid.

“Whatever”  

“I see you giving those girls the eye everytime they cheer for me. There’s no use in hiding your jealousy.” he said placing his left hand on the wall and leaning, while his right held onto his water bottle which he was still in the midst of using.  

You became quiet for many reasons. One of them being you know you wouldn’t be able to fight back. You averted your eyes to the ground as you began to walk away in annoyance.

Before you knew it, he took your hand and pulled you back to your position against the wall. “Are you mad?.. heyy, I was just playing with you” he said, laughing in a teasing tone.

“Well played then” you said under your breath, your eyes still directed to the marked borderline on the ground.

In this moment, Haechan knew a lot of things; he knew just how sweaty he was, but he also knew how much you hated coming in contact with sweat, especially with other people’s.

He directed his fingers onto your tilted face, touching on your chin. “Don’t sulk, sweetie”

“Stop it!!” You said with your eyes looking at him, taking steps back, avoiding his body that was moving towards yours.

“Sweaty is coming for you, sweetie” He said louder, seconds before he chased after you around the court.

You ran around, putting all your energy into your attempt to avoid a sweaty Haechan. He ran around following your route as he laughed at you for struggling to keep your distance with him.

At one point, you slowed down and came to a stop, trying to catch your breath. Haechan caught onto you just a second later, attacking you with a sweaty back hug.

“AHAHAHAHAHAHA Got you!! HAHAHAHAHA” he cheered with his arms tightly encircling your figure, barely being able to contain his laughter at your failure.

“AAAA stop it, Chan. I’m really gonna get mad” You said, attempting to wiggle your body away from his as much as possible.

“What’ll make you NOT get mad at me, then?” He stopped laughing and placed his chin on your left shoulder.

You were tired of negotiating with him, so you became quiet.

“Mmm..I know!” he exclaimed, still locking his arms around your body.

He lifted his chin, moving closer to your ear, “Will you be my girlfriend?” He said in a whisper.

Everything around you stopped. You stopped making efforts to wiggle off of him, and you stopped breathing for a split second before he said, “I’m just joking, Yeon-ah. Just don’t be mad at me, ok?” he said, now unlocking himself from you, suddenly lifting his right hand to mess up your combed hair.

The next second, a thin curtain of hair covered your vision and you tried your hardest not to wince at the air particles coming in contact with your skin as he detached himself from you.

“You’re so annoying” you said, fixing your hair and attempting to brush off the beads of sweat that made its mark on you.

Your friendship with Haechan has always been one full of silliness, but you didn’t expect him to ask that question, even as a joke. The reason being, deep down, you hoped for it to be a sincere question, for you wouldn’t think twice in answering him.

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Thick and Cozy

Word Count: 839

Genre: Fluff

Pairing: Haechan x OC

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Having spent the whole night doing your projects brought you to where you are now. Sitting at one of the campus’ couch, slouching away on your phone surrounded by an army of pillows. You plugged your earphones on and started scrolling through your playlist.

You shifted your body sideways as you laid down and held onto a pillow, making sure that you don’t kick your bag off the surface. Humming to the beat of the song that blasted through your ears, you found yourself falling farther and farther away from reality into slumber.

Just finally having the time to rest after hours and hours of forcing energy out on your work was what you really needed before continuing onto the recently assigned project. You began to dream of yourself sitting in a bed of flowers, with the harmonious scents of lilies and daisies that hugged your sense of smell. All of it was perfect until you felt a shake and in a split second, you were woken up. Jumping onto your feet back into reality only to be greeted by Haechan.

“Mind if I share your spot?” Asked the tall, curly haired boy who had his hoodie on and his bag strap hanging onto his right shoulder.

You blinked once, then twice, until your vision came clear. Looking up at Haechan who was evidently trying to hide his smile, you lightly scolded, “Of course! I wasn’t taking a rest on this completely comfortable couch anyways”, finishing it off with an eye-roll.

He moved his left leg to lightly tap your right one, signalling you to scoot over. You moved over to the very left of the couch, making sure to grab a pillow for you to hug only to be greeted by Haechan’s head that halted the pillow on your lap.

All of the sudden, all you could see was Haechan; you found yourself looking down at him, with his fluffy hair showing parts of his big forehead, down to his closed eyes and rosy cheeks that were the effect of a light smile plastered on his face.

You have never seen him so up close as you could see the little creases that appeared around his face and how his cheeks popped out more as he slips a smile making him look like the hero of your dreams. As seconds passed, your heart started to wake itself, speaking its own voice by the rhythm that thumps faster and faster.

You’ve always suppressed the feelings that you had for your long-time friend. It was because you just couldn’t imagine risking your friendship over your emotions. You hated the possibility of what you have now come crashing down to pieces. What makes it all harder is that Haechan and you are so comfortable with each other that people think you guys are ‘something more’, which both of you have clearly stated would never happen. You hated yourself for ever stating that ‘something more’ would be unimaginable, but life’s a bitch.

You lightly shook your head as an attempt to snap out of your regrets. Yet, you just found yourself being captivated by the boy laying down on your lap every-time you open your eyes. At one point, you were all he saw as he opened his eyes, looking straight up at you. You swore your heart exploded and it felt like its bits and pieces were sliding down your lungs, onto your stomach, and all you could feel were just its residue doing splits and fireworks all over your system.

“Can’t keep your heartbeat steady?” He said, locking eyes with yours, making sure that you fell deeper and deeper into a pit of darkness.

You cleared your throat as soon as you clicked back into reality, “This is exactly what happens if anyone disturbs me from my sleep. Like, excuse you, but I am exhausted.” You ended with an eye-roll and no longer looking down at him.

He sat back up, as he moved to the side to take out a big paper bag and delve his hand in, only to show a big, thick, fluffy blanket.

“Well, you looked like you needed a cuddle, so I brought you this” he said, tugging at your arm, which all of the sudden brought you to his side, enclosing the gap between your knees and your chest.

“Doesn’t this count as harassment or something? I can report you” You complained, as you moved closer and snuggled your head on his shoulder.

“You like it though” He said, with a light laugh.

“You wish” you said, looking up and poking his cheeks, as he let out a laugh.

Your back was now against his side, with the fluffy blanket draped over your bodies. It was now quiet between the two of you, and all you could feel was a hand sneaking its way to yours under the blanket as you both started speaking to each other through your hands as you closed your eyes, ready to return to slumber, surrounding yourself with a cozy blanket and the boy of your dreams.

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