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nothing changes (except i’m being fr) | k. younghoon
pairings — kim younghoon x reader
genre — full angst, hurt no comfort
warnings — all pain, miscommunication (more like none lmao), idk just trauma dump…
note — Hi everyone, I’m back. I apologize for my long hiatus and coming back in not the best condition too on top of that… but I do hope you enjoyed reading my entry for @deoboyznet’s love letter event. Thank you for waiting for me, I really appreciate it.
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I sat on the frigid cobblestone floor. My satin dress was deemed unimportant as it sweeped the dirt and dust on the floor, its owner without a care in the world about it.
Beside me sat an uninvited, young man, dashing and suited to the nines. He was a stranger, that was for sure.
It was funny—one could even say ironic—however, for once in a memory long locked in my head, ( heaven forbid it resurfaces so long to not disturb my appetite ) I knew everything about this man.
I knew of the way he liked his tea sweet. How he’d pout when annoyed, make a fuss when embarrassed—yet silent when upset. I knew of the way he liked the smell of vanilla because it reminded him of his grandmother’s kitchen, and how he’d never tuck his shirt in because he liked the feeling of the breeze reaching his stomach on warmer days.
I had long kept the memory hidden in my head, detained it to the bottom of my mind as if it were forbidden knowledge so long as to not feel what I had back then.
All for naught, it seems, as the man beside me always had a knack to make himself known to mankind. It was as if he was flaunting how easily he’d moved on—how little he truly cared for me.
I parted my lips to emit my thoughts, yet nothing came out. My mouth opened like a fish in air, only to close it once more like an idiot once I had realized that my thorax failed me.
My pride screamed at me to speak. It seems as if it could not leave me looking like a heartbroken teen, so I reopened it to attempt once more.
Unfortunately, he beat me to it.
”Are you okay?” He asks.
An innocent question, one asked of normal formalities. Yet, it brought me all the way back then. When innocence and naivety ran through, when a question would not have hidden implications.
Back to when I was young, and in love.
Back then, I would have responded with a “yep!” to not worry him, but then spill all my worries not a minute later. Before, I would have had courage because he was my Younghoon.
Now, he has changed. No longer the boy that was mine. No longer my Younghoon, but theirs.
”Why?” I asked.
To onlookers, it seemed like a common reply, especially in the perspective that they are strangers.
But I knew what I was talking about, and he does too.
Why act like you care anymore after you chose opportunities over me? Why rub the wound you know is still bleeding? Why not me?
A pregnant pause befalls before he took a sharp inhale, and muttered, “I’ll excuse myself.”
He walks away, and I let go of the breath I hold.
Strange, I felt relieved.
Perhaps I was mistaken. He did not change much mentally, he was still the Younghoon I knew.
Perhaps I was mistaken. I too did not change much mentally, I was still the me I knew.
Perhaps I was mistaken. We were still us. It was proven so as question met silence.
As bitterness was once more ignored, pushed deeply and squeezed tightly until we could not breath.
It is because we are still us, that communication ceased as it did all those years ago.
It is because we are still us, that we continue to bear this torture, though we know it did not do us good. Though it can be fixed.
We know, we understand. But we are us. By blood and flesh we are us, so we let the torture pain us once more.
It is not favorable, but it is what we prefer. Perhaps, because the truth is too jarring? It would mean that all this bitterness was for nothing. All the tears and curses and pain becomes irrelevant if we accept the truth. It seems that this was not something we could accept yet.
For now, this would be enough.
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I’LL BITE YOUR ANKLES
“Give it to me right now,” you sulked, as your short ass tried to reach for the tub of ice cream which your boyfriend held up high. (rude! 🙄)
“Lol no” he said, with a bright grin as he proudly held it above your head.
You paused for a second—cause, “Did you just say lol in real life..”
He didn’t even seem bothered with it, just popping a “yup!” accompanied by his shit-eating grin. (😁)
“I’ll actually bite your ankles if you don’t give me my tub RIGHT NOW.”
“You mean MY tub of ice cream? This was your gift to ME.”
“And I want one scoop so give it here.”
“Try to get it yourself. Oh wait you ca—AGH”
— Jung Sungchan, KIM YOUNGHOON, Myung Jaehyun, KIM GYUVIN, NI-KI, Park Gunwook, Kim Sunwoo, Lee Know, Yoon Keeho, CHOI BEOMGYU, Jeong Yunho, Xu Minghao, Mark Lee
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the boyz masterlist ♡
☂ - angst | ♡ - fluff | ➳ - hurt/comfort | ⋆⁺₊ - suggestive | ʚ/ɞ - external/internal challenges | personal favourite
OT11
[~300-400 ☂/♡/➳ʚ/ɞ] "what do you think of flowers/bouquets?" ↳ hyung 🤍 98 🤍 maknae
Lee Sangyeon
Jacob Bae
Kim Younghoon
Lee Jaehyun | Hyunjae
Lee Juyeon
Kevin Moon
Choi Chanhee | New
Ji Changmin | Q
Ju Haknyeon
Kim Sunwoo
Eric Sohn
navi/masterlist!! 🤍 the boyz hyung line masterlist 🤍 the boyz 98 line masterlist 🤍 the boyz maknae line masterlist 🤍 nct dream masterlist 🤍 riize masterlist 🤍 other masterlist
the boyz (hyung line) masterlist ♡
☂ - angst | ♡ - fluff | ➳ - hurt/comfort | ⋆⁺₊ - suggestive | ʚ/ɞ - external/internal challenges | personal favourite
Hyung Line
[~400 ☂/♡/➳/ʚ/ɞ] "what do you think of flowers/bouquets?"
Lee Sangyeon
[~3k ☂ ♡ ➳] that's him, that's just who he is [~4.6k ☂ ♡ ➳ ʚ] i'm home
Jacob Bae
generating...
Kim Younghoon
generating...
Lee Jaehyun | Hyunjae
[~4k ☂ ♡] i'm glad it was you too [~3.7k ☂ ♡ ➳] [02:04] [~6.4k ☂ ♡ ➳ ɞ] this summer...
navi/masterlist!! 🤍 the boyz full masterlist 🤍 nct dream masterlist 🤍 riize masterlist 🤍 other masterlist