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Where tf I've been.

Hey, been a while since you've heard from me hasn't it? I've been busy working on requests back on DA and personal shit has been slapping me in the face as of recently. Moving, family moments, life just hasn't been fun. Just to make up for it though, I've got some sketches for Renfield anniversary cooked up and ready to be posted soon. However, I am 4 days late and working on Day 5, being late because personal shit has been crushing me and I've been tired as of lately. But I hope to throw in the first 3 pieces in one post and the latest 2 in the next, so until then, fans of your favorite bug-eating wet cat, stay tuned! ..I'm going back to working on what I have to after this though.

It is my birthday today and I wanted to actually get some writing done but I haven't done anything productive since I woke up... what the fuck... But anyway, does anyone know any good fanfic revolving around Dr. Gears or am I reaching???

YALL I JUST GOT MY COLLEGE SCHEDULE AND WHO WAS GOING TO TELL ME THAT COLLEGE IS A SCAM!!

FOUR CLASSES?? THAT DON'T EVEN MEET EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK? I JUST DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO ON TUESDAY?

,,, IM-

AND MY EARLIEST CLASS IS AT 11 AM--I AM LIVING MY BEST LIFEEEE

Sadly haven't had time to write over the past 2 days, and my week is looking pretty full with irl stuff. 😭 Hopefully I can squeeze in some fic writing in my spare time. Curse my procrastination! I had like 3 months to prepare and yet I only started working on my fics for Kisame week like 5 days prior. 😔

To any of those that wanna read the rest of my uploads, you can find them on AO3 in the meantime while I manage life. 💙💙💙

Hey guys,

Unfortunately life has been hitting me hard since this past Thursday (5-27-2021), with 2 deaths of people I know (one a suicide) and an accident involving my grandfather (he’s okay, just had us really scared), I’m not in the headspace to write atm. Everything I have written seems lackluster and forced, because it is, and I don’t want it to be.

So, I’m taking a break for a bit. Maybe just a week, maybe longer. I’m not sure yet. I’m doing okay, considering. I’m really glad and thankful for my support system and my antidepressants, because I don’t know where I’d be if I hadn’t already taken that step before the past few months (since Thanksgiving, really) hit. I’ve lost a lot of close people, and am hanging on to prayers right now concerning a couple more (if you’re the praying type, send some my family’s way please).

Anyway, Seoulmates and A Song In The Blood will be on a temporary hiatus until my head, soul, and emotions are sorted (and not into Hogwarts Houses either) (humor is a coping mechanism, I will not apologize for it).

Thanks for your understanding,

Jess

My family has once again been turned upside down, so I will be taking another break. I’ve been trying to postpone this, but my heart isn’t in writing and I think the last chapter of ASITB showed it a bit.

So I will be on a temporary hiatus, effective today (6-22-2021). I am deeply, deeply sorry my writing is being hit. It and reading are my escape, and recently I find solace in neither.

Blog update 9/28/20

I originally wanted to use my main blog strictly as a WarriorCats Design Blog, but I decided to turn it into an all-purpose art blog. my new WC design blog is under the same name as before tho @luneidaewarriorcats sorry for just changing blog out of the blue but I really wanted to use my main to post all my art,,,

Where was I?

Yeah, where did I go for almost a month? Nowhere – I’m still stuck at home given the situation where I’m at is getting worse each day. 

I know I haven’t posted for a while, but I had to take care of some things in my personal life. I was not in a good place during the time of my last post, and things got worse too on my end. I had to step back, take a breather, and reflect on why I’m feeling this and doing that. 

Now that I’m in a better place – well, sort of – I will resume this blog’s regular programming. There might be times that I might not post for a week, but it won’t take as long unless I say so. 

You never know what might happen in life, right? That’s why please take care of yourself always and ask for help when you need it. 

Mahal ko kayong lahat! :) 

Be right back...shortly.

So, I was supposed to take only a week-long break from here. And now, it’s been over a month since I last updated. 

Well, life happens, and work takes much of your time. Not that I’m complaining, but I know this blog has become one of my sources of comfort. 

I am thankful for every like and repost you guys give my writings, and that motivates me to share everything I’ve written about Johnny Suh and the rest of his lovely members from NCT. 

I’ll be back soon – it won’t take me another month to do so, I promise – and expect new stories featuring more members. 

Till then, and please always take good care of yourselves! 

Mahal ko kayong lahat! :)

I'm back?

So, I’ve become inactive in posting my writing again. But fret not, that doesn’t mean I have completely stopped my craft.

My mind’s been brewing with a lot of ideas, and I hope that I can share them in writing with you very soon. But for now, I’ll do what I can, and I hope for your support.

I would appreciate it if you could also comment aside from liking them. That would motivate me more to post, perhaps?

Thank you for your time reading this, and you’ll get a teaser of one of my major works shortly.

Mahal ko kayong lahat! :)

𝐿𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝒰𝓅𝒹𝒶𝓉𝑒

Hey Y’all! I know it’s been a while but life went from slow with nothing happening to absolutely crazy! So here’s an update on life & posting!

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Y’all big things are coming for my family & I!

1. I passed both of my job interviews! My co-workers are so sweet & even though I’ve only met my boss & one co-worker I know I’m going to love everyone! I just have to take a drug test & do a background fingerprint screening which happens next week! I’m so incredibly happy! 

2. I’m going through a lot with family both good & bad situations. I’ll start with the good though. My cousin’s baby shower went great & was so incredibly adorable plus I got to help with set up & got to wear a cute dress that I own. We celebrated my grandfather’s (my mom’s father) 80th birthday & will soon be celebrating my mom’s parents 60th wedding anniversary this upcoming Sunday! My cousin’s wife just started a new job as a registered nurse & got her first paycheck! Also my brother & his girlfriend just celebrated 1 year as a couple & they are happier than ever & I’m so proud of those 2 crazy teens who also will be graduating high school in May 2020! Everyone seems to be growing up so fast & it’s so scary but so great to watch. Now the bad... My dad’s family. My dad’s family has never been kind to my dad, my mom, my brother, & I. They just have been cruel to us since the beginning of 2019 but it just keeps going like they have nothing better to do than to try to tear our life apart. I have now blocked everyone on that side of the family & will no longer talk to them or see them because they don’t deserve my time or attention. 

3. My dad, my brother, & I bought our Christmas Tree (A fake tree due to our old fake tree finally breaking last year because we’ve had it for so long)! With Halloween coming to an end, November starting up, & Thanksgiving not being far away, we started decorating for not only Thanksgiving but Christmas! Along with Decorating comes Holiday Sweets & Treats! I have finally got back into baking this month as I have not baked anything in months sadly. I was in a dark space these past few months but I’m finally getting into a more positive space so me baking again was a great sign to my dad, that my mental health was getting better. 

5. I go back to college in January! From June 2019 until December 2019, I took a gap semester off college after 3 grueling & intense semesters back to back. My first semester of college Fall 2018 I took 4 classes (Failed 1 class), my second semester in Spring 2019 I took 4 classes (Failed 2 classes), & my third semester during Summer 2019 I took a retake class of the math class I failed in the Fall of 2018 & passed it in the summer. This semester which is Spring 2020, I will be retaking my Spring 2019 retake classes which will be English 2 & Introduction to Humanities (Also called Art History). This semester registration doesn’t start until November, classes don’t start until January 13th, & the semester ends in May. I will be Working at my Middle School & doing school all in one semester. I will be so dead tired, I probably won’t be doing social media a ton.

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Okay y’all. I will be sitting down trying to write down a plan of how long it’s been since I did my last post & figure out how to catch up. Life has just been a really crazy rollercoaster of ups & downs lately so hopefully when life slows down, I will post & be back on! Until then feel free to message me new post theme ideas since I would like to grow my list of ideas & hear what my followers want to see! I love y’all so much & I can’t wait to come back whenever that will be!

Also new posts are up on my Instagram Blog! Go check out my account! 

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Progress/Personal Update 5/2/2023

Hello, I am not dead! I am alive. I just got done with my finals for college. I am still waiting on news for my results, but I am happy to have those tests off my shoulders so I can start writing again. I have been writing on the weekends when I have time and am very close to being done with Chapter 2. I just need one more scene and to do some coding, then I will start working on Chapter 3, where the MC will meet some of my favorite characters. I hope you all have a great week. Drink water. I'll see you in the next post. 

Progress/Personal Update: 6/8/2023

Hello everyone! Just a little personal update. I have been dealing with some family health issues, and on top of that, I have gotten my wisdom teeth out, so I am taking a small break so I can get all healed up. However, don't worry, I am still writing, just more on the weekends than weekdays. I am hoping to get the demo out sometime next month, which will be chapters one through three, so wish me luck! It is taking a little longer due to the large amount of coding that happens in Chapter 3, but I am still so excited! Thank you for listening. Have a nice day and drink some water.

Personal Update: 11/19/2023

Hello, I wish I was coming to you guys with a big update; however, due to class and family troubles, that is something that is still in the making. Classes are stressful, and when I do get a chance to write, all I want to do is sleep. Lol. I am pushing through, though, and writing every other day when I can. As of right now, I have finished Rosemary's route for chapter three and am starting on Marcel's. Hopefully, I will get done with all of them soon. I do want to apologize for the late update and for the people who are sending me ASKS. Sorry that they are so late; however, I have dug through my notifications, and I think I have answered most of them.

Sorry for the lack of update on eating alone. I know it’s been a few weeks. I’ve just not being doing well headspace wise (I am receiving help, it’s just not fixing stuff; you know how it is) and I am also overwhelmed by school now that it’s finals season. I promise I’ll get back to it

Finals are here

I’ve failed three out of my five finals (well, two. I’m just really sure about the other one), one of which dropped me a letter grade for a class. Just finished one I felt good about today, but I felt good about the last two, both of which are the two that I know for sure I’ve screwed the pooch on. I’ve already been pulling C’s this semester, so that’s murdering my soul. I’ve felt pretty numb this whole time, but I only have one final left and I can already feel the depression deciding it’s ready to come play. Despite the fact that I’ve actively been seeking help with my mental health this semester, this is probably the second worst school semester I’ve ever had (grades and depression wise), made worse because I’ve actually been trying. Especially because I did decently well last semester, considering that I had not been in school for a year and was coming back to online classes. I just don’t know.

I’m really fighting to study for my last final. It’s in genetics. I really would just rather play video games, but I want some sort of letter grade to pull me up this semester. I really hope some of the professors curve their grades like the mentioned they were going to. 

I really hope they don’t make me retake physics.

Does anybody get irritated by mouth noises?

I don’t mean like someone chewing annoys you. I mean that when your near someone eating a burger and their mouth is closed and everything and you can STILL HEAR THEM chewing even though you’re a couple of yards away and it makes you feel like you’re going to throw up bc you suddenly want to claw your ears. Or you’re listening to a podcast for several hours and suddenly the popping noise that person makes when they open their mouth as a tic with their speech pattern (that didn’t bother you before) makes you so angry that you aren’t listening to what they’re saying, just hearing that noise every time they do it, and you have to shut off the podcast and not listen to it for a week or two before hearing their voice doesn’t bother you anymore.

This has been happening to me for years, but I just want to see if anyone else experiences this too. It just is really bad today, especially when someone had an asmr video that they liked and was hoping I would to and I just had a very strong reaction where if felt like my whole body was tensing up until they noticed and turned it off.

Sorry that I haven’t been posting or anything. My old lady dog’s conditions has been worsening and we had to make an appointment for her to be put to sleep. I haven’t really felt like doing anything.

Today is the day and her appointment is in less than two hours. I’m not doing super great

Started writing again! It’s been waaay too long since I actually sat down and finished something. I’ve been picking at chapters here and there with about four different works (since those are my in progress ones) and never settling. On three of them I even stopped making in chapter progress, just staring at the document in my drive.

I’ll probably still won’t update some works for a while, but I figured I’d put in a progress update:

Unnamed Wheel of Time fic: I’ve actually finished the overall plot outline of this one and am working on the rough in chapter outline as well as the first chapter. I’m still finishing WoT as we speak and have gotten way further than my initial read (now in chapter 3 of Knife of Dreams), but I’m planning to reread New Spring for this at the same time. It will also probably be a series based on how I felt while planning it so we’ll see.

Speaking of, I’m still going to do a WoT book club, but am going to change up how I planned to do it. When I finish reading the series, I’m going to do a reread and then do a brief meta on whatever the chapter inspires. It will be full spoilers. Thus, that’s on pause.

The Queen and Her Heir: when I published the first chapter, I didn’t have a plot outlined for it at all, just a concept and a starting point. Due to this and me falling a bit out of Gotham since I finished the show, I’m putting this on hiatus with the intent to return to it. I’m plunking away on a plot outline in the meantime to see where I want it to go or if I just want it to be a few chapters as the start of something.

Eating Alone: I keep going back to chapter 8, but I’m at a standstill at how to proceed. It’s one of those “I have a point I’m trying to get to but not sure how to get there”. instead of just looking at my plot outline, I’m going to instead do a chapter by chapter outline like I’ve done with Vir Tanadhal. I’m going to wait to update it til all of the chapters are done and then so it weekly.

Vir Tanadhal: ah, yes. My most ambitious of endeavors. I’m still writing chapter 12 of Vir Bor’assan just like I have been for the last year +. In my efforts to renew this, I’m actually trying to catch up on the specifics of what I’ve written, changed I’ve made, relevant plot details I’ve forgotten, etc. I am actually rereading all of what I’ve got, taking notes and re-editing the chapters, and making updates to the codex as I go. I’ve already planned to add a scene to the first chapter of the first part that wasn’t in there initially. For anyone that actually reads that (and this post). Hopefully you’ll see updates to the codex soon. I won’t be updating the fic until I’ve finished chapter chapter 12 and 13, finished the chapter by chapter outline of the final part/part 5 of the series, and at least gotten halfway through the first chapter of part 3.

Basically, you won’t see any updates for a while. The plan goes: finish edits of Vir Tanadhal and update the codex, while that’s happening, finish Eating Alone, then post Vir Tanadhal updates. Once Eating Alone is done and Vir Tanadhal is sufficiently ahead of schedule again, I hope to start posting my WoT fic.

Posting schedule for Eating Alone will be once a week. I’m keeping Vir Tanadhal on once a month until I feel like I can sufficiently maintain a writing schedule and go back to every two weeks. Haven’t decided on the WoT fic yet. The reason it takes so long to do Vir Tanadhal chapters is because, on average, they are four to five times as long as Eating Alone chapters. It’s going to take a bit. I haven’t even see a finished chapter for the WoT fic so I just don’t know.

Thanks for your patience!

Update

Hey everyone!

Sorry I've been absent for the past..what? a couple of months? Shit has just been happening so I haven't had time to stream, make a video, or even post anything orz

So to catch everyone up on what's been going on, my room is slowly getting destroyed by water.

So I'm still sleeping out in the living room since my floor is starting to warp like...really badly. So bad that I have to walk on the floor beams so I don't fall through my waterlogged floor. On top of that, the hole that the raccoon created is still not completely fixed. Me and mom had checked the room a couple of days ago and there’s some mold slowly growing on the ceiling not too far from the hole. So even if everything was fixed I still wouldn't be able to sleep in there.

A family member did come over to make a temporary fix for both the hole and floor about a month or so ago, but the temporary fix for the hole just fell off a day or two ago so now I smell wet installation every time I walk in.

On top of that, the water is spreading into the hallway and bathroom. So we have to watch our step everytime we go near my room or the bathroom least we will start to sink.

So I’m gonna have to pack my belongings and move them somewhere else least they accidentally get waterlogged, fall forward, or through the floor.

But there is some good news to share.

I never really said all of this out in the open like this but basically Mom had a heart attack about 3ish years ago, she had gotten heart surgery and what not but the surgeon fucked up somewhere cuz not only did she still feel pain from the surgery, but the bottom part of where they had made the incision never healed causing more problems. It’s been like this ever since she got the heart surgery. On top that, just recently an actual, honest-to-good wire that they had used to keep the ribs together became loose and had started to poke out of the hole that never closed on her chest.

We had been trying to get this fixed for the past 3ish years, yet almost every doctor we talked to didn't want to actually do anything and kept telling us to go to different doctors, plastic surgeons, or back to the original surgeon who did this to begin with. The main problem was that the original surgeon that had done her heart surgery in the first place had retired, the plastic surgeons outright said ‘we can't do anything until you talk to a heart surgeon,’ or another doctor didn't want to touch her in fear of a POSSIBLE lawsuit. ORZ

This was twice as frustrating since the closest hospital that treats this sort of thing is an hour long from our house, and my very easily motion-sick ass didn't help things either.

We had only just now found a doctor who could help take the wires out and clean her wound so it could heal properly and not cause any pain to her. I'm still unbelievably pissed that it took this long for an actual doctor to finally help us instead of sending us off on another wild goose chase that would last for actual months. Thankfully, everything went as planned, the doctor made sure to clean everything up. Right now, she's out of surgery and is catching some much-needed Z’s. We would have gone home today, but her right eye was hurting so badly that we opted to stay at the hospital overnight.

That's what has happened these past few months. Sorry if this post looks like the ramblings of a madman, I haven't had a a decent night of sleep these last couple of days so my vision is a bit blurry. >_<