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I was just on Discord, talking to my study group, a bunch of people who I have classes with. I tried to join an art discord (the biggest one there, which, in retrospect, might not have been the best idea), and the first thing I do is join the VC. and. Guess what. There were. People. Not in my age range. *gasp!*  so i decided I couldn’t deal and fucked right on outta there. I decided to join a smaller group of people one of my classmates are friends with. They’re all my age, but I still couldn’t deal. 

And now I’m just thinking about how social I was before the pandemic. I would talk to everyone. I was the annoying, outgoing friend who made bad life decisions, but worked it out anyways. My mom would always tell stories about how, when I was 7 and we went to visit my grandparents in China, I would try to teach Chinese to the person behind us at the ticket line. They would always laugh and humor me. I cannot emphasize enough how not shy I was. In 1st grade, I would straight up go to a person I liked and ask “Do you want to be friends?” and most everyone said yes. I had a lot of friends in 1st grade. When we went to the park, I would join in with the bigger kids, and would fit in just fine.

The entire last year, the thing I missed most was other human beings. I adore the hustle and bustle of a big city, and how you can have a 5 minute walk to the grocery store. I missed talking, waving to random people in the halls, all of it. 

Now, I can’t even talk to a stranger. I feel pathetic. I would like to blame it all on the pandemic, but I’ve been getting less outgoing for years. IDK why. I mean, COVID probably didn’t help at all, but still...

IDK what I’m rambling about. But anyways... Does anyone else have this problem?

😳 well, that’s disturbing.........

we rlly went from 20gayteen to 20biteen to 20quarantine

Here's something I drew. It's not very good but oh well.